Work hard play harder that was the theme of this weekend. I don’t know what it was if it was a combination of people haven’t seen in a while and the nice weather… or in anticipation of my first race and I mean maybe it’s not technically a race but I never thought five months ago when I started all this that I could ever run 5K…. but the funny thing is that it was pretty easy for the most part! Still have to get the running down, but from where I was, till now, I’m pretty happy 🙂
I just had so much fun this weekend and when I say so much fun…. yeah I drank a lot and ate a lot and my body, I SWEAR is like “how could you’ve treated me like shit this weekend when you’ve treated me so well the past couple months”. I go from being so good about everything to being absolute mess in one weekend. The biggest part about being home is that I don’t have my gluten-free stuff that I can just grab from the fridge out of the pantry or whatever and I’m always on the go so it’s like just grab a spiedie sub or something quick, and I know that’s no excuse because obviously if you’re on a diet or you’re trying to eat healthy there are no excuses but for me it was just like well fuck it.. I’m just doing it, and I will have to deal with it later.. When I’m home I have things to do I don’t have time to go to Wegmans pick up all my stuff take it to my grandparents house then when I’m hungry go home grab something to eat instead of just having something while I’m out… and also, when I’m in New York everything is at least 20 miles away so it’s not like I can just run home when I’m hungry and grab one of my gluten-free buns and gluten-free chips and gluten-free EVERYTHING!!! I know, you know, everyone knows I’ve been working really hard and sometimes you just have to binge and have a bad weekend….. and I’m sorry but I’m not sorry so I’m sorry I’m not sorry.
I had fun this weekend and yes it set me back but you know what it’s Monday and I’m just gonna work even harder than I have been because, I like the way I feel and I like the way I look now you know and I’m getting comfortable and I’m enjoying training for these runs and I’ve got the tough mudder coming in June, I’m actually kind of scared after doing this run and this WAS ONLY A 5K!!!! And the tough mudder is 12 miles…. holy shit batman, I’m screwed! HAHAHA. What am I going to do??? Well, I guess probably not have weekends like this one over and over and over again. And keep working hard? I really want to complete the mudder… Just complete it. HAHA.. (now that I think about it, I should probably go through all of the obstacles to make sure I’m not GOING TO DIE. But back to working out and messing up this weekend. I mean we are all human. I understand that it’s not the best thing to do, and I understand my trainers probably won’t be happy, but life is FUN, and for me, sometimes this happens… “in between goals is a thing called life, that has to be lived and enjoyed….” that’s SO TRUE and I’m living by it. April was great, I ate right, didn’t drink, and I lost a good amount of weight… and I’m going to continue on that, but life happens, so why not live it.
I understand to lose weight you have to work hard, and for me, I’m working hard, for me, I’m not trying to lose like 100lbs in 5 months, I’m not trying to be some fitness model, I just want to look better, feel better, etc. and I know it takes time, and I know that it takes work – so I work hard, and playing hard sets me back but oh well!
SOOO BACK TO THE DIRTY GIRL MUD RUN! Can I tell you, I was soooooo freaking excited to get there – I felt like this crazy awesome athlete hahahaha – yeah, sure,it was only a 5k, but it was so FUN! We got SO DIRTY!!!!!!!! And we were doing it for such a great cause…. and doing it with friends is the best, because you all want to do well, but you all push each other and get through it together… so Ashley and Taryn, thanks for being there for me, not leaving me behind, and having such a good time! 🙂 I can’t wait to do more of these runs, probably doing the Tough Mudder next, might not be the best idea… but you know what, it’s a challenge, and it’s a challenge I’m up for! 🙂
I leave for Vegas on Wednesday to spend some time with one of my most amazing friends, Lisa, and then my cousins come out, and I will disclaimer it now, YES, I am going to workout… I actually am going to go out to Crossfit Las Vegas (anyone reading this go there?????), but I’m going to enjoy myself… get a nice tan, have the TIME OF MY LIFE with my friends, and not worry about this… It’s great, because this time, going to Vegas I’m not going to feel like super uncomfortable, I’m actually going to feel good, and that feeling, can’t replace ANYTHING… That’s the feeling I work hard for, and that’s the feeling I love.
I will say, seeing people this weekend I hadn’t seen in a long time, was awesome, everyone wants to let you know how great you look…. makes it all worth while. So thanks, thanks friends for the compliments, and thanks for pushing me 🙂