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  • I blame it on my relationship……

    0744d729a1f98d05473e92bd6afea08fFace it – when you start dating someone, everything goes out the door – you work SOOOOOOO hard when you are single, to get in shape, get fit, look good, all that stuff, and then when you are in a relationship it’s all like…. “honey, what do you want for dinner tonight?” “I don’t know, I’m too lazy to cook let’s just grab something” “ok, Big Macs, Chicken Nuggets and French Fries it is…….” YEP THAT WAS ME! Always in my head I thought, pssshhhh I’ve got a boyfriend, who needs to look good anymore hahaha – the easy part is done, and I can go back to eating like shit, not working out, blah blah blah…. then you start getting bigger and you’re like, WHOOPS, maybe I should lose some of this weight… so for me, that meant, joining about 8 gyms, seeing which one had “the best class schedule” and then ultimately paying for something you never go to. FOR 7 YEARS STRAIGHT…. hahahaha… It’s funny that for me, it wasn’t till we got engaged and I was like, well, I think I am WAY overweight and I need to really fix this shit because A) I probably don’t look good for my significant other anymore B) I want to look good for everyone else on our wedding day or C) I feel like crap and the McDonalds runs and Dominoes deliveries need to stop. HAHAHA….

    But I mean, come on – I’m not the only one who knows what this feels like…… I talk to my friends ALLLL the time and they are like, yeah I haven’t been working out lately… hmmm I wonder why. It’s true, you think that person loves you, so why do you have to look amazing everyday? HAHAHA… Its WAY easier to not have to look like a super model everyday when you think someone “loves you for you” haha.. So yeah, I want to blame me getting into a relationship for me getting to the size I was when I started this whole thing! SO damn you relationship hahaha you’re the reason I’m all up in this mess! (jk jk jk love you juan! haha)

    yummy pasteles

    yummy pasteles

    Oh so this weekend sucked! This whole “lifestyle change” although for the better, is TOUGH! Like for instance… this weekend I had a brunch on Saturday where everyone got to eat yummy goodies, we had a dinner date on Saturday night where everyone got to drink some wine and vodka, and yesterday it was my future sister-in-laws birthday so we were at my in-laws all day and my future mother-in-law made these yummy bolivian pasteles, which is basically just fried dough with cheese in the middle, and powdered sugar on top- THEY ARE MY FAVORITE but I couldn’t eat any of them 🙁 wahhhhh… while everyone was chowing down, I was like ugh just one, just one.. then i thought about how horrible i felt trying to get through my body withdrawing from the gluten and dairy and I was like, nope, that’s ok – On top of that, for dessert his sister made coconut kahlua cream pie, and strawberry shortcake with homemade biscuits and fresh whipped cream… UGHHHHH FAT KID WAS SCREAMING NOOO WHY ARE THEY DOING THIS TO ME!!!! hahahaha…. it SUCKED… I hated it.. all that yummy good food – and I couldn’t eat any of it! I brought my own snacks, like my rice cake and peanut butter, talk about DELICIOUS people… (NOT).. boo, anyways… I mean I’m getting through it, and this isn’t a diet, it’s a lifestyle change that will help me be at the weight I need to be at, and then eventually I can add things like that back into my life, but not very often, and not a lot of them – so next time, instead of having 6 pasteles, maybe I should just have 1? HAHAHA

    374434_760954823792_324164526_nOne last thing, my friends came and worked out with me this weekend, and you know what, I loved that – I know I don’t really get out much anymore because I’m working so hard and trying to get this damn weight down, but I love it when my friends come workout with me because it means they care and they want to be a part of my new favorite thing to do in the whole world… aka workout haha – i guess it helps that the friends that came, also like working out haha but I love them for coming, trying CrossFit and liking it! 🙂 I hope everyone had a good weekend, I had a good one, and it’s finally spring so bust out those shorts and flip flops baby, BECAUSE THE SUN IS FINALLY SHINING!

  • Serious girl crush Tuesday… Hannah Simone, I love you!

    LESSSSSBIIIIHONEST… Cece from New Girl, totally smokin… and yeah, I don’t swing that way, but if I was a dude…. I would be knocking down her door! 🙂 hahaha… SO I see on instagram sometimes, Girl Crush Tuesday??? Who knows, the teens are doing it – so I thought I would talk about this great article I read about Cece the other day… (Hannah Simone).

    hannahsimoneIf you don’t know who she is, she’s the hottie in the blue dress to the left. Yes, I am going to keep talking as if I am a dude and I love her HAHAHA…. I want to look like her – I want curves and I want to rock a blue gala dress and show them off!!! Anyways, she was recently interviewed and she came out and said, “Curvy is just a polite way of saying fat. And I’m not,” “Curvy and voluptuous—that one also got dragged through the mud, that poor word. It really just means a woman with breasts. [But] I’m confident with my body.”

    Simone, who has occasionally been called “curvy,” “shapely” and “curvaceous” (but more often “sexy” and “stunning”) in articles and blogs, is not the first to object to being referred to with euphemisms for “fat.” Says the article… and I LOVE THIS. Because you know what, first of all, she isn’t even close to being obese or overweight or even fat for that matter, and second of all, she’s got boobs, and curves, and isn’t some twig like most other hollywood actresses these days… she honestly looks like she could benchpress the shit out of you. That being said, this is the PROBLEM with the world… If people are judging her, or making digs, or just saying things to her like she’s curvy, shapely and voluptuous, that’s just wrong. Why is it that people think that the perfect size for a body has to be a 0, no chest and an itty bitty waist? Why not a size 8, with some boobies, and a booty?!?!? Why can’t that “rap guys girlfriend” be the perfect size anymore? (oh how I love baby got back…)

    The article goes on to say this:

    Later, the actor reportedly said, “I think calling me full-figured is just rude.”

    Such terms have been exceedingly popular lately, being used to call out celebs like Kate Upton, Lena Dunham, Christina Aguilera, Kate Winslet and Lady Gaga for not fitting the super-skinny Hollywood mold. While the descriptions have sometimes been congratulatory, employed to thank women for being real-looking role models to young women everywhere, they’re more often underhanded compliments—or even straight-up put-downs—used to undermine a not-quite-skinny-enough beauty.

    “Have we gotten so riven by self-hatred in this country that even Kate Upton’s body can still be subjected to this nastiest and most personal of public critiques?” asked Jezebel in a July post that took the website SkinnyGossip to task for calling Upton fat. “Upton is basically the epitome of curvy, blonde beauty as it’s valued in the U.S. today. Hers is a look that ticks every box.…She’s been on the cover of Sports Illustrated: Swimsuit Edition, she’s been in Vogue and Harper’s Bazaar, she’s been the face of Guess…Her body is ‘perfect’ — by every conventional standard. If Kate f—ing Upton’s thighs are not immune from public dissection, then who is?”

    Still, it’s refreshing to see celebrity women with bodies that resemble our own and our best friends’ way more than those of a runway model—and therefore hard, sometimes, for media types (yes, even us) not to mention.

    I agree… being able to watch a TV show, movie, or even a concert where the main female act isn’t a runway model or a size 0, let’s you relate more, and honestly for me, it doesn’t make me feel like I’ve got to be some stick… it makes me feel like you know what, she’s got a waist, so can I… It’s sad that hollywood is all about making stories out of the way people look, and the size they are, and if they gain/lose weight…. (well MINUS JESSICA SIMPSON BECAUSE WE ALL KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT HER) but why can’t hollywood stop talking about these chicks the way they do, and just call them normal?

    I found this great article yesterday too about CrossFit and how ANYONE can do it – and I’m going to write about that tomorrow, but for now, this morning I did some fun cooking… I went ahead and while I was cooking my breakfast sandwich, I made some for the rest of the week! Here’s the info!


    photo 1What you will need: 

    4 Turkey Sausage Patties or 8 Turkey Bacon Slices
    4 Organic Cheese Slices (or Rice Cheese)
    1 Egg – 3 Egg Whites
    4 Van’s Whole Grains English Muffins OR 4 Glutino Gluten Free English Muffins 

    (and a mug that has Mickey Mouse reminding you that you make someone smile out there.. .HAHA I NEED ALL THE GOOD COMPLIMENTS I CAN GET EVEN IF ITS FROM A MUG! hahaha) and DUDES these gluten free muffins look like donuts, they are HUGE compared to the other muffins…. so you might want to shave some of that excess muffin off!

    So since I’m trying to ween myself off of gluten, this morning I did half and half, I did 2 sandwiches with the gluten free muffins and 2 sandwiches with the van’s!

    Ok so step one – and I did this all in 10 minutes so it was nice and easy.

    photo 3Step 1:
    Whip out your pan, grease it up (PAM) and then throw in the 4 sausages…

    Step 2: 
    While they are heating up, scramble your 3 egg whites and 1 egg, also, have your muffins defrosting in the microwave.

    photo 4Step 3: 
    Get out a baking sheet – throw the muffins on the sheet, cut in half, put the cheese on one side. Now I like to fold my cheese corners in, because I don’t like when they stick out and then when you microwave them they are all sorts of gooey down the sides and stuff, so stuff that cheese in! HAHAHA (and don’t forget to throw your dog a small piece of cheese hahahaha)

    Step 4: 
    Take your cooked sausages off, throw your eggs in. The pan will be hot from the sausage cooking, so the eggs will cook pretty quick.

    photo 1Step 5: 
    Once the eggs are done, take a glass, a cookie cutter, whatever you want, to make a circle, cut out 4 circles from the pan, and then throw it on the muffin.

    photo 3Step 6:
    Wrap those suckers up and then BAM you’ve got breakfast for this morning, and for the rest of the week! Pretty neat!!!

    So I ate the gluten free one this morning, it wasn’t bad at all – but I can already feel the withdrawal happening… how horrible is that! haha

    Alright, time to work, time to cook and time to let my dog bailey play because she looks sad that she didn’t get to eat any breakfast sandwiches this morning! hahahah

    photo 5

  • A public service announcement: I'm only human, and get out of my life, fake friends.


    I’ve got a lot to say today hahaha – I’M SO FREAKING SICK OF PEOPLE being mad at me because I choose the gym over going out. Dudes, I don’t want to be your friend then if you can’t support me and trying to lose weight. Also – in the great words of Mr.Chow from Hangover… suck on thessssseeeeee chinese NUTS.

    Yes, ok, sure, this weekend, what did I do? Go OUT. But you know what – it was 60 degrees, St. Patty’s day, and I hadn’t gone out in a long time… ALSO the people I went out with were the best, so I wasn’t going to pass that up… SO yes, I still go out, but not as hard or as often as I used to. Back in the day, I would be the one people would call if they wanted to throw back a 12 rack on a Tuesday afternoon – well HOW DO YOU THINK I GOT SO DAMN FAT! Yeah, drinking almost everyday and eating fried CHEESE will do that to you… But listen, I was having fun, didn’t care about what I looked like, or felt like, I’m pretty sure I could have had a heart attack at the ripe age of 25 hahahaha, but it’s different now! IT’S TOTALLY DIFFERENT SO SUPPORT IT OR GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY LIFE! (sorry for the cursing but it’s true HAHA). If you can’t support me for trying to better myself, then what are you doing here? I would ask the same thing if I still partying my ass off – hahaha if you didn’t like me partying, then get the hell out, this is the same thing, I’m just doing something HEALTHY!

    out on friday night for betsy and katie's surprise bday party!!! see I can even have fun 2 nights in a row!!!

    out on friday night for betsy and katie’s surprise bday party!!! see I can even have fun 2 nights in a row!!!

    Dudes, like I FREAKING LOVE working out – its my new obsession, and I’m sorry if my new obsession isn’t going out and doing hard core drinking olympics for 16 hours in a day…… I’m so sorry to DISAPPOINT YOU. OH SHIT, let me get off topic here for a minute…. THAT WORD. I SWEAR TO YOU, that DAMN word, DISAPPOINTED, DISAPPOINTMENT, DISAPPOINT-ANYTHING, is the worst WORST word in the english language… It’s honestly worst then the SEE YOU NEXT TUESDAY word… and we ALL know how bad that word is. I heard it twice on Friday and I was ready to throw bows… Hey, it’s a great word to get me to kill a workout though hahahaha – but no, seriously… I don’t know where that word is EVER a good word to be used… My father used to say it to me all the time – I’m disappointed in your grades, I’m disappointed in how you did in tonights basketball game, I’m disappointed that you are still eating shit, I’m disappointed you don’t have your life together, I’m disappointed that you haven’t lost weight yet…. Yeah… daddy issues much? I know. Anyways… that word, it’s just the biggest stab in gut word anyone can say. They could even be complimenting you, saying something like “omg did you an amazing job today doing whatever it is you are doing, but I’m disappointed that you didn’t do it faster.” anything.. honestly. anything… so with me, tell me your mad, tell me you think i could have done better, tell me that you want to punch me in the face, but don’t use that word around me unless you want an insta-cry.

    photo (27)

    and then again out saturday night!

    Anyways, back to this weekend. It was funny because at one point I was having a conversation with Jenny about how I was OK with where I am at now, I’m ok with the loss of 40lbs, and my results, and that I’m 100% committed to my gym, and my team, but its the diet… it’s the diet that’s the hardest part… and I was convinced in talking to Jenny, that you know what, I don’t even care anymore about losing weight.. It’s all about being healthy and happy and getting that workout in… and I was ok, i was still going to eat healthy but I wasn’t going to go to the extreme and cut out the dairy, the booze, the gluten.. i wasn’t going to do it – I wasn’t going to torture myself (that’s my idea of a serious torture right there)…… but then as I was sitting there and I started talking to Brian… I was like you know what, no, I’m not content yet… I still want to drop more pounds, I still want to work out, and I still want to eat right… but man, it’s so hard. I just love me some milk and cheese and some damn BREAD! hahaha. but that goes back to, how bad do you want it? Right?

    photo (26)As i was drunk on saturday night (yes, I’ll say it, I was drunk… but I’m HUMAN, and sometimes, going out and having a good time isn’t the end of the world) I just sat there thinking about where I could be in 6 months… and how I shouldn’t give up, or stay consistent… I need to get my diet right. and I need your HELP! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GET MY DIET RIGHT WITH THESE AMAZING WAFFLES IN THE AISLE OF WEGMANS??!?!!? COMEEEE ON MAN!


  • I didn't WEAR TANK TOPS!!!!!

    Shot 1_10403-editedHAHAHA… what is that all about you ask? Well – some of you know me, some of you don’t. And for the ones who do know me, I’m that girl that wears about 5 tank tops under every top I’m wearing… I even wear 5 tank tops under a tank top in the summer! Yeah, I’m that girl… I mean I REALLY HATE THE JIGGLE. So anyways…. This morning, not even thinking about it, I threw on a sweater and a pair of leggings to run to the store quick to pick up my breakfast food and whattttta you know? I didn’t have ANY TANK TOPS ON UNDER MY SWEATER and I felt GOOD! That’s a huge step for me HAHAHAHA… you would never think that not wearing a tank top under my clothes would be something that I was excited about, but honestly, it should have probably been one of my goals… I’m starting to get to a place where I feel like I can rock a shirt without a tank top (or 20) under it, and I LOVE IT! I mean, I’m not even kidding when I say I wear tank tops under dresses, under like suits, under bathing suits (ok that’s not true but I probably would if I could)….. you name it, I wear it with a tank. And they aren’t even cute tanks HAHAHA… they are just comfortable tanks. They are like my fat tummy security blanket…. you’ve got a security blanket, I’ve got a security wrap around my belly HAHAHA… it’s hilarious to me that I’m so obsessed with these damn tank tops and how i have to wear a million of them, and flying free without a tank top is like the end of the world for me…. I could literally go on and on and on about this… because it’s just my life, but I will stop now 🙂  (im pretty sure i only had like 4 on in the pic on the left (you can’t see but they are there HAHAHA))

    YogaYou know what I thought a really neat idea would be?? When someone gets engaged and they want to SERIOUSLY lose weight (I mean I know people that get engaged and are just like gotta fit in that dress, which is totally fine) but I’m talking about people who need/want to lose like 50-100lbs (like me), you throw them a workout shower… so maybe this person needs motivation or encouragement or something, or maybe they won’t be having a traditional shower… so maybe instead of waiting till a month before the wedding, throw them a workout shower – so everyone gets them gifts like workout clothes, or sneakers, or makes them cute motivational things, gets them water bottles, I don’t know – stuff that would pertain to working out that would get that person in gear… and maybe it would motivate them more because they would feel like they just got a ton of gifts from people trying to help them to get motivated! My friend Tessa went to another friend of mine (and a big motivator of mines) Birthday party this weekend and she said everyone was getting her workout stuff! Because she’s on her own workout journey and everyone knew that… I think that is just so neat…. why not get them stuff the will use instead of plates and pots and pans!!!??? I don’t know, just a thought.

    I just want to say, man I wish that you could hop on the scale and have lost like 2 pounds each day… wouldn’t that be great? Wouldn’t that be a motivator? I need to figure out ways to get motivated… I won’t get on the scale, posting that picture of my progress def motivated me, but you know, what’s that thing that will just motivate me on a daily basis??? I don’t know.. but I need to figure it out…

    stronger than your excusesOne more thing – someone suggested this shirt the other day and we just launched it on the website.. it’s great, because it’s true… You have to be stronger than your excuses… you can’t give up… You’ve gotta do everything in your power to not let the excuses win….

    Ok so I know that some of the recipe’s I post might not be the healthiest of recipes, but for me, being able to find an alternative to something that is super UNHEALTHY works for me – so today, again, found this online – it’s talking about Creating the Perfect Milkshake… now I’m not saying, hey go have milkshakes everyday, they are good for you haha I’m just simply saying, maybe instead of having a crappy milkshake, make this instead…..



    Rule #1: Build a Better Base

    Most shakes start out with a high-fat, high-sugar base, either in the form of lackluster ice cream or the dreaded “dairy base,” an amalgam of strange sweeteners, thickeners, and stabilizers. You’ll save hundreds of calories simply by switching to frozen yogurt, or sticking with a reliable low-calorie ice cream brand, such as Breyers All Natural. More than that, you’ll have a milk shake that is every bit like a shake was in the 1950s, back when they were made with just ice cream and milk. (Today, places such as Baskin-Robbins use 50 ingredients in some of their most diabolical concoctions.)

    Rule #2 : Master the mix

    Milk shakes fail because most are made from 90 percent ice cream (or from an ice cream-like substance) concentrated in a drinkable form. Find other ways to stretch the shake and lighten the caloric load. Frozen fruit, 100 percent juice, ice, Greek yogurt: All will help you get more mileage out of your milk shake. Ultimately, you want no more than 1 cup of ice cream or frozen yogurt in your shake, and, to ensure the right consistency, no more than a half-cup of liquid. Also, it’s essential to have a strong blender. A weak one will melt the ice cream and make for a watery milk shake.

    Rule #3: Skip the Sweeteners

    Ice cream and frozen yogurt are sweet enough, so no need to grab for sugar or honey or anything else that will boost calories any higher than they already are. That also means go light on the cookies and cut out the candy bars. If there’s one thing all of the worst shakes  have in common, it’s the inclusion of nougat-laced candy bars and cream-filled cookies. Want a cookies and cream shake? Skip the Oreos and use cookies and cream ice cream instead. Three Oreos will cost you 140 calories, but an upgrade from vanilla to cookies and cream ice cream should run you no more than 30.


    Rule #4: Sneak in Some Nutrition

    just because it’s dessert doesn’t mean you can’t conjure up some benefits in that frosty glass. The easiest way is to turn to the frozen banana: Not only does it add natural sweetness and a serving of fruit, but the frozen fruit also gives the milk shake a rich, creamy body and will help you cut back from the total ice cream allotment. The texture of frozen mango and peach chunks both pair beautifully with ice cream and fro-yo as well. Even the smaller flavor add-ins can be relatively healthy. Peanut butter, fresh mint, and almonds all qualify.


  • Oh you know how I feel about celebs and weight loss and 15 BEST RECIPES FOR WEIGHT LOSS!

    photo (22)So I was walking through the grocery store on Sunday when I couldn’t help but stop to notice someone on the cover….. It’s good old snooki…. Jersey shore’s most famous drunkard. Now if you you are my friend, you would know how much I really  can’t stand the Jersey Shore and how we’ve made them super rich by watching their horrible drunk-in-public-24-7 tv show on MTV. I actually thought it was pretty funny that she got pregnant, not being careful, because she had to take a step back from her trashy self and become and adult FINALLY… Anyways…. (I know, that was mean, but dude’s, she’s horrible! Give me an awesome orange tan, a 24 hour supply of booze, and I can be just as trashy, entertaining, and obnoxious as her). I saw her on this cover.. my first reaction was, what’s UP photoshop… Her head and body ratio don’t even match… this cover makes her look like a midget! My biggest problem with celebs on covers of magazines talking about their so-called “weight-loss” is that the way they have achieved this weight loss is either, fake, the wrong way, anorexia, or just flat out being able to not work, and workout the whole damn day… Now in her case, I read the article, she says “oh yeah, I work out 4 times a day and I lost 42 pounds in 6 weeks.” REALLY? oh REALLY? Ok what else did you do? I mean, I understand you lose more calories breast feeding, but not 42 pounds WORTH! and plus, if she was so skinny now, she wouldn’t be hiding her arm, and her legs wouldn’t be so photoshopped. HAHA… OH and I LOVE the mug shot on the bottom left… Good for her if she’s brought herself from that crazy shore kid to what she is today, because it’s totally an improvement, and I see her color has moved from orange to a nice medium skin-tone… but yeah, anyone will look skinnier with a picture of them from 6 years ago.

    MjAxMi04NzU0MjFkNGVmMGRjNDQxIt just annoys me that the tabloids always want to highlight celebs successes when we ALL KNOW we can never get that way in that amount of time, unless we are rich and have our whole day and life to devote to weight loss. She also says “oh it wasn’t that hard” ok so that tells me, you were def doing something else… if it’s not that hard, then you aren’t working hard enough and you are losing weight some other way… Yeah ok, you can make a case for the fact that you are a “celeb” and our society makes it so that you MUST be skinny, but that’s most certainly not true.. first of all, you are a D list celeb, and second, look at my girl Melissa McCarthy, she’s her happy large size and isn’t changing unless SHE wants to, not to make hollywood happy. If snooki is this skinny and happy, tell me how she did it and show me a video of her looking this way, because my guess is that US weekly’s graphic designers had to do some work to make this cover story look legit. How about you put me on the cover, sure you won’t sell any, but it will be real……

    Another thing I came across this week when my friend Carl emailed it to me, was this article called “Don’t tell me to love my body”  In short it’s a whole article about this women who is getting annoyed by people telling her to love her body no matter what. It’s actually kind of amazing… I would have written the same exact thing. One part of it that stood out was this:

    “Stop telling women that we should find ourselves beautiful and that we should love ourselves when you are standing right there, judging us on how our knees look in short skirts and how prominent our boobs are in a sweater and how much makeup we are or are not wearing.”

    It’s true… you’ve got all these people, celebs, whatever they might be, telling us no matter what, you should find yourself beautiful… and yeah, I get it, I want to feel beautiful, i want to believe it, and as much as I write about loving my body, at the same time I don’t and I won’t, not for a long time… this women lost 100 lbs and still doesn’t love her body, in fact she loves it even less because of the way she looks with all her excess skin because of the weight loss… I don’t know, what I would say is read the article, it might be harsh, but this is how people think about their bodies, and think about other people telling them to love themselves no matter what… I’m sure even my 70 year old grandma doesn’t love her body, and she’s the most amazing, loving women I know… this weekend dress shopping, she did exactly what I did, didn’t want to try anything on because she didn’t want the heart ache or discouragement about something looking bad, or not fitting. So I think this article is right on spot.



    043641_WaffleHamEgg2_315. Waffles with Ham and Egg:

    270 calories , 11 g fat (3.5 g saturated), 890 mg sodium
    Waffle and pancake plates are bad enough at most restaurants and diners, but throw in a side of eggs and breakfast meats and you’re bound to start your day with the caloric equivalent of a triple cheeseburger. We’ve made our own version of Denny’s superpopular (and supercaloric) Slam by building an open-faced sandwich with a toasted waffle. The ingredients may sound like a strange combination, but the flavors are nicely balanced, the portion size is perfect, and the nutritional profile is just what you want for the most important meal of the day.

    You’ll Need:
    4 thick slices Canadian bacon or deli ham
    4 eggs
    4 frozen wholegrain waffles
    2 Tbsp maple syrup
    4 Tbsp shredded sharp Cheddar cheese
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    Parsley (optional)

    How to Make It:
    * Heat a nonstick skillet or saute pan over medium heat. Coat with a bit of olive oil cooking spray and cook the Canadian bacon for a few minutes on each side, until well browned. Remove. Coat the same pan with a bit more spray and cook the eggs (2 at a time, if you must; avoid overcrowding the pan) sunny side up until the whites have set but the yolks are still runny.

    * In the meantime, toast the waffles. Top each toasted waffle with a slice of meat, a drizzle of maple syrup, a sprinkle of Cheddar, and the warm fried eggs. Season with salt and pepper and sprinkle with parsley (if using).

    043641_ChxBeanNachos14. Nachos with Chicken and Black Beans:

    330 calories, 12 g fat (6 g saturated), 500 mg sodium
    We’ve never found a nacho worth recommending in the restaurant world. The sad truth is that the tortilla chips are rendered a helpless vessel for thousands of calories of cheese, sour cream, and oily ground beef. And besides, who wants to dig through soggy nacho detritus in search of a chip crisp enough to bring from plate to mouth? This version ensures that every chip is evenly covered with protein-packed chicken and fiber-rich beans, plus enough salsa and lime-spiked sour cream to keep your mouth watering.

    You’ll Need:
    6 oz tortilla chips (round chips are preferable)
    1 can (16 oz) black beans, rinsed and drained
    1 1/2 cups shredded Monterey Jack cheese
    1 cup cooked chicken, shredded
    1/2 red onion, diced
    Juice of 2 limes
    1/2 cup light sour cream
    Chopped cilantro Salsa (either fresh or your favorite bottled salsa)
    Pickled Jalapenos

    How to Make It:
    * Preheat the oven to 425°F. Arrange the chips in a single layer on a large baking sheet. Spoon the beans evenly over the chips, then top with the cheese, chicken, and onion. Bake for 15 to 20 minutes, until the cheese is fully melted and bubbling. Remove.

    * Combine the lime juice, sour cream, and cilantro. Spoon over the nachos. Top with the salsa and jalapenos.

    043641_ChickenFingers13. Chicken Fingers with Chipotle-Honey:

    250 calories , 1.5 g fat (0 g saturated) , 350 mg sodium

    Whether shaped like nuggets, stars, crowns, or fingers, deep-fried chicken bites do a major disservice to one of the planet’s best sources of protein. Let the restaurant coat it in one of their special sauces and you could be downing nearly a full day’s worth of calories on a food designed for children. In fact, Chili’s popular Crispers pack in more calories than a dozen Fresco Beef Tacos from Taco Bell and more sodium than 24 small bags of Lay’s potato chips. Make the switch to this oven-fried version once a week and you’ll shed 25 pounds (and cut out 210,080 milligrams of sodium) in a year.

    You’ll Need:
    1 lb boneless, skinless chicken tenders
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    3 egg whites, lightly beaten
    2 cups panko bread crumbs
    2 Tbsp Dijon mustard
    1 tsp chipotle pepper puree
    1 Tbsp honey

    How to Make It:
    * Preheat the oven to 450°F. Season the chicken with salt and pepper. Place the egg whites in a shallow bowl. Place the crumbs on a plate and season those, too. Dip the chicken tenders into the egg, then toss in the crumbs, being sure to coat fully.

    * Place the breaded chicken pieces on a baking sheet coated with nonstick cooking spray and bake for 10 to 12 minutes, until the crumbs have browned and the chicken is firm.

    * Combine the mustard, chipotle, and honey in a large bowl. Toss the cooked chicken tenders in the mixture so they are all evenly coated with the spicy-sweet sauce.

    043641_PotatoSkins12. Spicy Potato Skins:

    310 calories, 11 g fat (5 g saturated), 490 mg sodium

    In 1974, T.G.I. Friday’s gave birth to the potato skin. That timeworn combination of potato, Cheddar, and bacon has since made its rounds across the menus of America, infiltrating nearly every pocket of this country with hypercaloric, frighteningly fatty facsimiles. We’ll take this version—true to the original but with a few delicious twists—any day.

    You’ll Need:
    4 small russet potatoes Olive oil Salt and black pepper to taste
    1 cup 2% milk
    2 Tbsp butter
    1/2 cup shredded sharp Cheddar cheese, plus more for garnish
    4 scallions, chopped, plus more for garnish
    1/2 Tbsp minced chipotle pepper
    1/4 cup sour cream
    6 strips bacon, cooked and crumbled
    Pickled Jalapenos, optional

    How to Make It:
    * Preheat the oven to 400°F. Rub the potatoes with a bit of olive oil and lightly salt the skins. Bake for 35 to 40 minutes, until tender.

    * Cut the potatoes in half and, when cool enough to handle, carefully scoop out the warm flesh into a bowl (leave a thin layer of potato intact around the skin to help prevent it from tearing). Add the milk, butter, cheese, and scallions and stir with a wooden spoon until smooth. Season with salt and pepper.

    * Preheat the broiler. Carefully scoop the mashed potatoes into the hollowed-out potato halves. Top with a bit of extra cheese and place under the broiler until the tops are brown and crispy, 3 to 5 minutes.

    * Mix the chipotle with the sour cream and place a dollop on top of each cooked potato. Finish each with a bit of crumbled bacon and jalapenos

    Truth be told, while these potato skins are a vast improvement on the kind offered by Friday’s and their ilk, you could make some improvements by folding any of dozens of different vegetables and healthy flavor additions into the formula outlined here. Simply replace the bacon, Cheddar, and sour cream with the following:
    * Steamed broccoli and Parmesan
    * Sundried tomatoes, chopped olives, artichoke hearts, and pesto
    * Caramelized onions and goat cheese
    * Chicken, asparagus, and roasted red peppers

    043641_ChineseChxSalad11. Chinese Chicken Salad :

    380 calories , 21 g fat (3.5 saturated), 23 g carbohydrates

    Chinese chicken salad is one of the world’s ultimate fusion foods. It’s an Eastern-inspired dish popularized by an Austrian chef (Wolfgang Puck) in Beverly Hills (at his restaurant Spago back in the 1980s). Whatever its disparate origins, it’s undeniably one of the most popular—and ubiquitous—salads in America, sharing space on menus in four-star restaurants and Wendy’s alike. Too bad most versions are nutritional disasters, bogged down by too much dressing and too many fried noodles. This lighter version is true to Wolfgang’s original inspiration but with about a third of the calories.

    You’ll Need:
    1 head napa cabbage
    1/2 head red cabbage
    1/2 Tbsp sugar
    2 cups chopped or shredded cooked chicken (freshly grilled or from a store-bought rotisserie chicken)
    1/3 cup Asian Vinaigrette (store-bought or use the calorie-cutting recipe in Cook This, Not That!)
    1 cup fresh cilantro leaves
    1 cup canned mandarin oranges, drained
    1/4 cup sliced almonds, toasted
    Salt and black pepper to taste

    How to Make It:
    * Slice the cabbages in half lengthwise and remove the cores. Slice the cabbage into thin strips. Toss with the sugar in a large bowl.

    * If the chicken is cold, toss with a few tablespoons of vinaigrette and heat in a microwave at 50% power. Add to the cabbage, along with the cilantro, mandarins, almonds, and the remaining vinaigrette. Toss to combine. Season with salt and pepper.

    10. Grilled Chicken with Pineapple Sandwich:

    400 calories , 11 g fat (6 g saturated) , 640 mg sodium

    Not even the relatively healthy genre of grilled chicken sandwiches is a safe bet when you seek sustenance away from home. That’s because places like Outback go long on the oil and the dressing, gobbling up (in this case) half you day’s saturated fat and sodium. Our sandwich is a spicy-sweet combination of teriyaki-glazed chicken, juicy grilled pineapple, and fiery jalapenos—a chicken sandwich to end all fatty chicken sandwiches.

    You’ll Need:
    4 boneless, skinless chicken breasts (4-6 oz each)
    Teriyaki sauce
    4 slices Swiss cheese
    4 pineapple slices (1/2″ thick)
    4 whole-wheat buns
    1 red onion, thinly sliced
    Pickled Jalapenos

    How to Make It:
    * Combine the chicken and enough teriyaki sauce to cover in a resealable plastic bag and marinate in the refrigerator for at least 30 minutes and up to 12 hours.

    * Heat a grill until hot (you shouldn’t be able to hold your hand above the grates for more than 5 seconds). Remove the chicken from the marinade and place on the grill; discard any remaining marinade. Cook for 4 to 5 minutes on the first side; flip and immediately add the cheese to each breast. Continue cooking until the cheese is melted and the chicken is lightly charred and firm to the touch. Remove and set aside.

    * While the chicken rests, add the pineapple and the buns to the grill. Cook the buns until they’re lightly toasted and the pineapple until it’s soft and caramelized, about 2 minutes per side. Top each bun with chicken, red onion, jalapeno slices, and pineapple. If you like, drizzle the chicken with a bit more teriyaki sauce.

    9. Green Chile Cheeseburger:

    320 calories, 11 g fat (4.5 g saturated), 420 mg sodium

    As bad as fast-food burgers can be, they look like nutritional superstars when stacked next to sit-down restaurant burgers. The bulk of the burgers at Applebee’s, Chili’s, Ruby Tuesday, Outback, and T.G.I. Friday’s weigh in at 1,000 calories or more—before the massive mound of French fries that invariably accompanies them. The key to keeping the calories down is finding a lean but tasty cut of beef (we love sirloin); using healthy, flavor-packed condiments (e.g., roasted chiles, not fried onion rings); and finding a small, fiber-rich bun to house the creation.

    You’ll Need:
    1 lb ground sirloin or brisket
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    1 can (4 oz) roasted green chiles, drained and chopped
    4 slices Swiss cheese
    4 potato buns (preferably Martin’s Potato Rolls)
    4 thick slices tomato
    4 medium slices red onion

    How to Make It:
    * Heat a grill, stovetop grill pan, or cast-iron skillet. Season the beef with salt and pepper. Form 4 patties, being careful not to overwork the meat.

    * When the pan is hot, add the burgers. Cook for 3 to 4 minutes on the first side (until nicely charred), then flip and immediately top each with a tablespoon of chiles and a slice of Swiss. For medium-rare burgers, continue cooking for another 3 to 4 minutes, until the patties are just firm. Remove the burgers and toast the buns on the hot grill or pan. Dress the bottom of the buns with the tomato and onion slices, then top each with a burger.

    8. Cheesesteak Sandwich:

    400 calories , 14 g fat (4 g saturated) , 730 mg sodium

    The famous sandwich from Philly is a nutritionist’s nightmare: mounds of greasy beef and fried onions; a massive, oil-soaked hoagie roll; and to top it all off, a viscous deluge of Cheez Whiz (that’s right, traditional cheesesteaks are made with Whiz). But we want you to have your steak and eat it, too, so we came up with this version, which relies on a lean flank steak, a whole-wheat roll, and a yogurt-based blue cheese sauce. It’s a bit fancier than the sandwich from the City of Brotherly Love, but to our tastes, it’s also better.

    You’ll Need:
    2 Tbsp plain Greekstyle yogurt (we like Fage 2%)
    2 Tbsp olive-oil mayonnaise
    1/4 cup crumbled blue cheese
    16 oz skirt or flank steak
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    2 cups arugula
    2 tomatoes, sliced
    4 whole-wheat sandwich rolls
    Caramelized Onions (see page 305)

    How to Make It:
    * Combine the yogurt, mayonnaise, and blue cheese. Set aside.

    * Heat a grill, stovetop grill pan, or cast-iron skillet until hot. Season the steak with salt and pepper and cook for 3 to 4 minutes per side (for medium-rare), until the steak is firm but still gives with gentle pressure. Allow to rest for at least 5 minutes before slicing. Slice the steak into thin strips.

    * Divide the arugula and tomatoes among the rolls. Top with the steak and caramelized onions and drizzle each sandwich with the blue cheese mayo.

    7. Grilled Pork and Peaches:

    430 calories , 24 g fat (8 g saturated), 530 mg sodium

    Restaurant pork chops are usually Flintstonian in size and skirted with enough fat to keep a bear warm in the winter. The result (as witnessed below with the Romano’s chop): 196 percent of your day’s saturated fat, plus more sodium than you’d find in 36 cups of salted popcorn. Our dish takes its cue from classic pork chops and applesauce, using grilled fruit and blue cheese to punch up the flavor without skyrocketing the calorie count.

    You’ll Need:
    4 thick-cut (1″), bone-in pork chops (8 oz each)
    Olive oil
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    2 firm peaches or nectarines, halved and pitted
    2 Tbsp pine nuts, toasted
    1 small red onion, thinly sliced
    1/2 cup crumbled blue cheese
    1 Tbsp balsamic vinegar

    How to Make It:
    * Heat a grill to hot. Brush the pork with olive oil and season with salt and pepper. Grill for 4 to 5 minutes on each side. The outside should be charred (not burned), but the meat should be light pink in the middle.

    * While the chops cook, brush the peach halves with oil and add them to the grill, cut side down. Grill for 5 minutes or until soft. Remove, slice, and toss with the pine nuts, onion, blue cheese, and vinegar; season with salt and pepper. Top each chop with half of the peach mixture and serve.

    6. Grilled Steak with Red Wine Butter:

    380 calories , 19 g fat (10 g saturated) , 470 mg sodium

    Few meals satisfy like a good steak. And few things will ruin a good steak quicker than a heavy-handed sauce. That’s why it’s best to take your steaks simply grilled when dining out, lest you end up eating 2 days’ worth of saturated fat. We’ll give you steak and a slab of spiked butter for a quarter of the cost.

    You’ll Need:
    1 cup dry red wine
    1 shallot, minced
    4 Tbsp butter, softened
    1 tsp chopped fresh rosemary
    Black pepper to taste
    Salt to taste
    4 steaks (flank, sirloin, skirt, or filet; 6 oz each)

    How to Make It:
    * Combine the wine and shallot in a small saucepan and simmer over medium heat until reduced to about 2 tablespoons (it will have a thick, syrupy consistency).

    * Let the red wine syrup cool, then stir into the softened butter with the rosemary and a few cracks of black pepper. Once fully incorporated, spoon the butter onto a large piece of plastic wrap. Fold the wrap over the butter and twist the ends to create a log of red wine butter. Place in the fridge until ready to use.

    * Preheat a grill, stovetop grill pan, or cast-iron skillet. Season the steaks with salt and pepper and cook until medium-rare (about 8 minutes total for skirt and flank and 10 to 12 minutes for the sirloin and filet). Remove the steaks and slice a coin of the butter over the top of each.

    5. Loaded Alfredo with Chicken and Vegetables:

    540 calories , 14 g fat (6 g saturated) , 520 mg sodium

    Here’s how restaurants make Alfredo: cream, butter, and cheese. We ditched the cream and made a basic bechamel sauce with flour, milk, butter, and Parmesan. We solved the other major shortcoming of pasta Alfredo (that is, a dearth of any true nutrition) by adding chicken, broccoli, mushrooms, and, for good measure, sundried tomatoes.

    You’ll Need:
    2 Tbsp unsalted butter
    3 Tbsp flour
    3 cups 2% milk
    2 cloves garlic, chopped
    2 Tbsp grated Parmesan
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    1/2 Tbsp olive oil
    2 cups bite-size broccoli florets
    8 oz cremini mushrooms, sliced
    1/4 cup chopped sundried tomatoes
    8 oz cooked chicken breast, thinly sliced (store-bought rotisserie chicken works well)
    12 oz whole-wheat fettuccine (we like Ronzoni Healthy Harvest)

    How to Make It:
    * To make the bechamel, melt the butter in a saucepan over medium-low heat. Whisk in the flour. Cook for 1 minute. Slowly whisk in the milk to prevent any lumps from forming. Add the garlic and simmer, whisking often, for 10 to 15 minutes, or until nicely thickened. Stir in the Parmesan and season with salt and pepper. Keep warm.

    * Heat the oil in a large skillet or saute pan over medium-high heat. Add the broccoli and cook for 3 to 4 minutes. Add the mushrooms and tomatoes. Cook for 5 minutes, or until the vegetables have lightly caramelized. Stir in the chicken. Season with salt and pepper.

    * Meanwhile, cook the pasta according to the package instructions. Drain, reserving 1 cup of the cooking water. Return the pasta to the pot, add the sauce and the chicken mixture, and toss to coat. If the sauce is too thick, add some of the pasta water to thin it. Serve immediately.

    4. Macaroni & Cheese:

    480 calories, 9 g fat (5 g saturated), 450 mg sodium

    Ask Americans what they would eat for their last meal on earth and most would likely tell you mac and cheese. Too bad restaurants and frozen-food purveyors start their macaroni and cheese with a base of cream and butter—a recipe for caloric calamity. This version is based on bechamel—butter, flour, and milk—which helps cut the calories in half. We add jalapenos and prosciutto for some spicy, smoky goodness; feel free to leave them out.

    You’ll Need:
    2 Tbsp butter
    1/2 yellow onion, minced
    2 Tbsp flour
    3 cups milk
    2 cups shredded extra-sharp Cheddar
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    1 lb elbow macaroni, penne, or shells
    1/4 cup chopped Pickled Jalapenos
    2 oz prosciutto or ham, cut into thin strips
    1/2 cup panko bread crumbs
    1/4 cup grated Parmesan

    How to Make It:
    * Preheat the oven to 375°F.

    * Melt the butter in a large saucepan over medium heat. Add the onion and cook until soft and translucent (but not browned), about 3 minutes. Add the flour and stir to incorporate into the butter. Pour in the milk a few tablespoons at a time, using a whisk to incorporate the flour and prevent lumps from forming. When all the milk has been added, allow the sauce to simmer for 10 minutes, until it begins to thicken. Stir in the cheese and season with salt and pepper.

    * Cook the pasta according to the package instructions until al dente, drain, and return to the pot. Add the cheese sauce, jalapenos, and prosciutto and stir to fully incorporate. Divide the mixture among 6 individual crocks or pour into a large baking dish. Top with the bread crumbs and sprinkle with the Parmesan.

    * Bake for 10 minutes. Turn on the broiler and broil until the bread crumbs are golden brown and crispy, about another 3 minutes.

    Check it out: You can boost the health profile (and the hungers-quashing potential) of your mac and cheese by adding any of the following to the pasta when you toss it with the cheese sauce.
    * 1 cup caramelized onions
    * 2 cups roughly chopped or cherry tomatoes
    * 6 oz grilled chicken and 1 cup sauteed mushrooms
    * 2 cups chopped steamed or sauteed broccoli

    3. Chicken Parmesan:

    340 calories , 11 g fat (4 g saturated) , 670 mg sodium

    This Italian-American staple normally suffers from a glut of oil, an excess of cheese, and a huge bed of carb-heavy spaghetti as the base. We shallow-fry a modest portion of chicken to minimize oil soakage, then use fresh mozzarella (which is lower in calories and fat) to top it off. For sides, trade the spaghetti bed for garlicky sauteed spinach.

    You’ll Need:
    4 boneless, skinless chicken breast halves (4-6 oz each)
    1/2 tsp salt
    1/2 tsp black pepper
    2 egg whites, lightly beaten
    1 cup bread crumbs, preferably panko
    2 Tbsp grated Parmesan
    1/2 Tbsp dried Italian seasoning
    1 Tbsp olive oil
    1 cup tomato sauce (we love anything from Muir Glen)
    4 oz shredded part-skim mozzarella
    Fresh basil leaves (optional)

    How to Make It:
    * Preheat the broiler. Cover the chicken breasts with parchment paper or plastic wrap and, using a meat mallet or a heavy-bottomed pan, pound the chicken until it is uniformly 1/4″ thick. Season with the salt and pepper.

    * Place the egg whites in a shallow bowl. Mix the bread crumbs, Parmesan, and Italian seasoning on a large plate.

    * Dip each breast into the egg whites to coat both sides and then into the crumb mixture, patting the crumbs so they fully cover the chicken.

    * Heat the oil in a large skillet or saute pan over medium heat. Cook the chicken for 3 to 4 minutes on the first side before turning. (The crust should be deeply browned and crunchy.) Cook for another 2 to 3 minutes, then transfer the chicken to a baking sheet.

    * Spoon the tomato sauce over the chicken pieces, then top with the cheese and place underneath the broiler for 2 to 3 minutes or until the cheese is fully melted and bubbling. Serve garnished with basil (if using).

    Chicken parm is normally made by shallow frying the breaded meat in a pan, which is exactly what we do here. But if you want to save time and calories with only the barest sacrifice in flavor, skip the saute pan and use the oven instead. Bake the chicken breasts in a 400° F oven until the crust is golden and the meat is firm, about 15 minutes.

    2. Strawberry Shortcake with Balsamic:

    160 calories , 6 g fat (3.5 g saturated) , 12 g sugars

    To deliver flavor, the corporate cook relies on hulking scoops of ice cream, oversize brownies, and floods of molten chocolate. The home cook doesn’t need such waist-expanding, palate-blunting effects to make dessert memorable. Here, low-calorie angel food cake picks up the smoke and char of the grill and is topped with strawberries soaked in balsamic vinegar and black pepper, an irresistible combination adored throughout northern Italy. Trust us, you’ll be hooked.

    You’ll Need:
    2 cups sliced strawberries
    1/4 cup balsamic vinegar
    Pinch of freshly cracked black pepper
    1 Tbsp butter (optional)
    4 wedges angel food cake, each
    1″ thick Whipped cream

    How to Make It:
    * Mix the strawberries, vinegar, and pepper and marinate for 10 to 15 minutes.

    * Heat a grill, stovetop grill pan, or nonstick saute pan until hot. (If using the pan, add the butter; if grilling, omit the butter entirely.) Add the cake slices and cook until caramelized and toasted. Transfer to 4 dessert plates. Top with the strawberries, their liquid, and a spoonful of whipped cream.

    1. Crispy Quesadillas with Guacamole:

    310 calories , 16 g fat (5 g saturated) , 730 mg sodium

    Next to nachos, quesadillas are the most perilous food to be found on a Mexican restaurant menu. Overstuffed with cheese and teeming with greasy toppings, quesadillas are all but guaranteed to pack quadruple-digit calories. Tussle with Chili’s rendition and you’ll take in 35 bacon strips’ worth of saturated fat. Our quesadilla reverses the cheese-to-filling ratio, going long on the nutrient-dense vegetables and using just enough chorizo and cheese to make it feel like an indulgence.

    You’ll Need:
    1/2 Tbsp canola oil
    4 oz chorizo, casing removed
    1 small red onion, sliced
    4 oz white button mushrooms, stems removed, sliced
    1 large poblano pepper, seeded, sliced into thin strips
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    1 1/2 cups shredded Monterey Jack cheese
    4 medium whole-wheat tortillas
    Guacamole (store-bought or use the perfect-guac recipe in Cook This, Not That!)

    How to Make It:
    * Heat a large skillet or saute pan over medium-high heat. Add the oil and chorizo; cook until browned, using a wooden spoon to break up the meat into smaller pieces. Remove from the pan and drain all but a thin film of the fat. Return to the heat and add the onion, mushrooms, and pepper; saute, stirring occasionally, until the vegetables are brown—5 to 7 minutes. Season with salt and pepper.

    * Divide the cheese between 2 tortillas and top each with half of the vegetable mixture. Top with the remaining tortillas.

    * Heat a large cast-iron skillet over medium heat. Spray the pan with nonstick cooking spray and cook each quesadilla individually, until the tortillas are brown and crispy and the cheese is fully melted. Cut into 4 or 6 wedges and serve with the guacamole.


  • A big before and after improvement photo….

    I really contemplated posting this picture…. most of the reason is because who really wants to show their naked chub to the world? I keep singing to myself, shake what your mama gave ya… but instead, shake what mcdonalds gave yaaaaa…

    photo (21)

    This is from november till yesterday (11/12-3/13) through the holidays and everything…. I made it through

    Last night when I was having Jenny take photos of me, I was like, man oh man I don’t even think I see a difference… I really don’t. But then I put these two together, and I see it, I finally see it…. and you know what, fuck it, I don’t love what I look like, and I would never wear a 2 piece bathing suit, but guess what world, you can see me in this light… I mean this blog is all about being real and showing who I am right? So here you go people… this is me, I’m down, I’m strong, and I’ve got about 1/3rd of myself gone… Now please, if you have anything negative to say, don’t tell me, tell someone else. My trainer said I should wait till I have a more drastic change just in case people have some negative things to say about me, but I want to show progress… seeing this photo made me happy again, made me think, you know what, I AM DOING THIS, and I’m getting there…. My way. My way is working, not your way, not their way… but MY WAY… and everyBODY is different (haha get it, haha ashley) everyone is different and everyone is going to have a different way of losing their weight and everyone is going to have something to say about the way you do it – i do CROSSFIT. I work my ass off, and I see the results. That’s my way.

    So, from the bottom of my heart, this blog, you guys reading this, you have got me to where I am today… and my friends that have supported me and Juan of course… I mean you love me for me, and you want me to succeed…. so for that, I thank you, more than anything… to my trainers, thanks for pushing me, for my mentors, I couldn’t have done this much already without you… I’m just tearing up because I never thought I could be down (and if you don’t think that’s a lot of weight loss, well F you because to me it’s huge.)…. And I’m sorry you have to see my unattractive body, but seeing this with me wearing clothes, you can’t tell a difference… I’m sorry it’s gross, but you know what, to me, I’m so happy. It’s important to me to see the way I look, and the difference I’ve made and how far I have come.. so I’m sorry if you don’t like the photo, LEAVE THE BLOG THEN DUH!

    Now, it’s just about keeping it off and keep going…. Seeing this makes me think, wow I can do this…

    So thanks, thanks for motivating me, thanks for keeping with me, and you know what… thanks for just everything.

  • What's up chubby????

    Let’s take this time to discuss an incident that happened yesterday…. and let me preface this with I don’t really care, I’m not really hurt by it, I’m used to it haha – people are dumb and sometimes don’t grow up – I’m just going to say what I would say to this person haha if I had the chance to see them again…

    So yesterday I ran to Target to grab some things… and I was in the electronics/games section and this boy/man thing?? I don’t know how old this dude was, but whatever…. and as I walk past him I hear “what’s up chubby” as said from under his breath… ok cool – sound great, not the first time I’ve heard it, so let me just say…..

    Winner winner chicken dinner yes I am captain obvious the chubby one. I’m the chubby girl wearing the tight workout clothes (because all my damn SHIT jiggles when I workout so this crap needs to get tightened) the chubby friend, the chubby daughter, the chubby sister, the chubby future wife. You name it, you put chubby in front of it, I’m that. Oh and wait. Lets make sure we were talking about me and not about your small chode maybe? Maybe he was like 18 young and immature. Because seriously if you are over the age of 25 and you are calling girls chubby, you are the type of guy that’s going to be single for the rest of their lives hanging out with their chode wang out because you don’t know when jokes like that get old. This isn’t high school or college. We aren’t heckling the big girls anymore. So shut your mouth and buy your video games since you are going to be single for the rest of your life HAHA. Shitballs. Silly stupid shitballs… Where do you come off calling anyone chubby? What if I was a girl who wasn’t working out, wasn’t trying to better myself, and had a serious depression problem… Now, I can handle it, so it’s ok – but you should watch your mouth next time you say something under your breath. ALSO, I know I’m not the best with words, but at least I know if I call someone a loser, or an asshole, it’s in a joking way and the person I’m saying it to, knows it, and ON TOP OF THAT, I’m not saying, hey what’s up you chubby loser, hahaha At least I like my life, I have a loving fiance, and friends, and your stupid word isn’t going to get me down…

    WHO DOES THAT? Who says that type of thing. Anyways… I thought it was pretty pathetic and I hope that dude gets his mind right before he gets his nuts kicked in…. yeah I just said that. A lot of amazing things in life are chubby, like babies and puppies, and grown women… so get your mind right! CHUBBY is in!

    In the meantime while boys are still growing up – I’m still pushing myself to lose weight… I can barely walk from these crossfit workouts we have been doing – so that’s a plus hahaha… 🙂

    Today I have a yummy recipe for you – it’s a Frozen Reese’s Peanut Butter Pie from Dashing Dish,  I’ve clearly been craving sweets a lot lately so this is a good option for something to have!!

    reeses-peanut-butter-mainFrozen Reese’s Peanut Butter Pie

    1 (8 oz) Package fat-free cream cheese
    1/2 cup Creamy OR crunchy peanut butter 1
    1/2 cup Baking stevia OR 1 cup sweetener of choice that measures like sugar 2
    1/4 cup skim milk (or milk of choice)
    1 (8oz) Container Fat Free Cool Whip
    1 Pre-made Oreo pie crust OR reduced fat graham cracker pie crust
    3 tbs Light Hershey’s Syrup
    Optional Toppings: Reese’s Ice Cream toppers (a few Tbs), Reese’s miniature candies (a few crushed up), crushed peanuts, 100 calorie Nutter Butter cookies (crushed up), Reddi Whip

    Nutrition Breakdown
    10 Slices
    215 Calories Per Slice with PB (or 175 Calories Per Slice with Peanut Flour)
    10 g Fat
    25 g Carbohydrate
    2 g Fiber
    12 g Sugar
    7 g Protein
    5 WWP+*
    *Weight Watchers Points per serving

    1 You may replace the peanut butter with 1/2 cup peanut flour mixed with 1/4 cup skim milk (or milk of choice), which will shave 500 calories off this recipe! The only downfall is you have to buy it online. Peanut flour is basically a de-fatted version of peanut butter and is in powder form, so once you add water, it is just like peanut butter! I use it in my protein shakes, desserts, etc. and I think it is worth purchasing.

    2 I used NuNaturals More Fiber Stevia Baking Blend. If using packets of stevia, I recommend using about 8-12, or adjust according to taste.



    1) Spray a 8×8 springform pie pan with non-stick cooking spray. Remove Oreo crust from pan and re-form it in the bottom of your spring form pan, pressing it down with your hands. (You could skip this step and leave it in the original pie pan, but I enjoy the look of the taller pie).

    2) Mix all ingredients together until smooth (I used my Kitchen Aid mixer, but you could do this by hand) and fold in Cool Whip until well blended.

    3) Pour mixture over pie crust and drizzle with chocolate syrup. Chill for at least 4-6 hours, (or overnight). Let sit at room temperature for at least 15 minutes (to soften) and add topping of choice before serving.

  • New Strategy…… No more counting CRAP!

    new-years-resolution-lose-weight-binge-eating-encouragement-ecards-someecardsSo this weekend I ended up thinking a lot about what it was that was holding me back and why everything was just so damn hard for me – and I figured it out… counting all my calories, proteins, all that shit, its driving me nuts…. Ok I get it, I totally get it – to lose weight you need to make sure that what you are putting into your body isn’t full of shit, isn’t high in calories, and you need to make sure that you are working out enough to burn the proper amount of calories so that you are in the end losing weight each week…. WELLLLLLLL – I’ve come to the realization that because I’m always keeping track of all this crap, I’M ALWAYS HUNGRY! Why am I always hungry? Because I’m always thinking about food… When you are watching what you eat, or you are on a diet, or something like that, whether it’s weight watchers, or atkins, or even just using MyFitnessPal, you are counting and thinking about calories all day long… If it’s trying to figure out what to eat for your next meal, or what you can have as far as a snack because you have already had 500 calories in the day, or even shit, if you are grocery shopping, and you have to pick up EVERY SINGLE THING just to check to make sure it’s something low in calories that you can eat… all this crap, ALL This crap and thinking about food makes me hungry… AND THEN when I’m thinking about this food, I’m not thinking about healthy food hahaha – I’m not thinking about that amazing delicious salad that I’m going to have for lunch, or that super flavorful turkey burger that I get to eat at 2pm (man just writing about this food makes me want some right now hahaha) I’m thinking about five guys burgers and fries, I’m thinking about tater tots and grilled cheeses…. that crap, thinking about that crap, just makes me want to eat all the time. ANd now, I am in a position where I sit here, I work all day, I focus because I like what I’m doing, so I don’t think about food like I did when I was at work, but at the same time, I DO think about food hahaha because I’m always meal planning or figuring out what the F to EAT every 3 hours…… HAHAHA..

    Anyways, what’s my plan? Well, my plan is this… NO MORE TRACKING. I know, I know… this is probably bad, but listen – If I know what I’m going to eat (I’m a super picky eater, so my list of things that are healthy that I will eat, are limited) then I don’t need to be focusing on writing it down, or tracking it – I just need to make sure I keep my portions down, I don’t eat fried foods, and I stick with the healthy basics…. To me, that’s what’s going to have to happen because you know what, the more I focus on it, the more I get discouraged and fail… the more I cheat, the more I keep getting back off track and have to keep saying… tomorrow tomorrow… I have the gym nailed down – I work out and I workout hard.. so if I can just get this food thing under control (by NOT tracking it hahahaha) then I should be good to go! I don’t know, maybe not, but this is my only hope HAHAHA…

    People say they can tell I am looking smaller, but I don’t see it yet, I don’t see it in my pant sizes, or anything – I mean i feel so much better, but until that scale says 150 HAHAHA I’m not convinced… this crap SUCKS. It sucks because you just get so discouraged haha.. I’m so happy for the other people in the gym losing weight faster then they can say donuts, but SHIT man… especially the guys! The guys lose it so fast… I hate being a girl HATE IT!!!!

    Grrr ok – well anyways, I want to be able to wear these clothes, so I’m going to keep on working hard haha and hopefully sometime soon, I can look cute in these outfits!!!! (even without counting my damn calories!)

    And here’s a yummy not super fattening pie recipe from SkinnyTaste I found this weekend!!!! YUM!!!

    Yummy goodness from Skinny Taste!

    skinnytaste peanut butter no bake pie!Skinny No-Bake Peanut Butter Pie

    10 • Serving Size: 1/10 • Old Points: 5 pts • Points+: 5 ptsCalories: 216.8 • Fat: 6.4 g • Protein: 2.9 g • Carb: 32.9 g • Fiber: 1.3 g • Sugar: 16.7 g

    Sodium: 94.6 mg

    5 oz reduced fat cream cheese, softened
    1/2 cups confectioners’ sugar
    1/3 cup Better n Peanut Butter
    8 oz fat free frozen whipped topping, thawed (or truwhip for healthier option*)
    reduced fat graham cracker pie crusts
    3 tbsp Hershey’s chocolate syrup

    Beat cream cheese and confectioners’ sugar together in a medium bowl.

    Mix in Better ‘n Peanut Butter and beat until smooth. Fold in whipped topping.

    Spoon into graham cracker pie shell; cover, and refrigerate until firm, at least 2-3 hours. Drizzle with chocolate syrup before serving.

  • I don't want to look like the girls on the fitness pages… and 8 healthy breakfast ideas!

    Someone asked me yesterday why I worked out everyday, and how I can get motivated to workout everyday…. I had a simple answer for them. I go to the gym everyday to see my friends. Honestly, it’s the only way that I get up and get to the gym. I used to go to Sport and Health, be another one of the hundreds of people that go there to just get a workout in, don’t push themselves (unless they are a big muscle head and just sit there trying to pump 200 pounds more than they can… But now because I go to Raise the Bar/Bull Run Crossfit – I am there, and I’m there with my friends… we get there, we chat, we talk about our day, then we work out, we push each other, we work hard and it’s because our friends are there with us… I don’t know but I kind of love it haha – I def wouldn’t be motivated to go to the gym everyday if I wasn’t with my friends. It makes it easy to get up at 4am to do a workout, or even just go after a long day of work at 6:45pm. No matter what I’m doing, I always have time for the gym because I have time to see my friends! 🙂 I don’t know, it just helps, I really like it hahaha… I think that makes its easier to stick with the gym… if the time comes where my friends aren’t at the gym anymore haha then who knows if I will ever go back to the gym! HAHAHA (just kidding, I’m not going to give up that easily I don’t think hahaha)

    533022_616815071667782_216312719_nSo, I have a lot of these workout type facebook pages on my feed – ones like Fitness Girls, BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH – and you know what, them posting pics of super fit, super thin chicks basically wearing nothing, that doesn’t make me want to workout – it makes me want to eat cheeseburgers since I know that I will NEVER look like that… how is that crap supposed to make us feel better about ourselves and our weight loss journey? Is it like, hey, you COULD look like this – but in reality, you actually could NEVER EVER LOOK LIKE THIS…. Unless you stop eating, do a SHIT ton of drugs, and then get a ton of plastic surgery, maybe a couple lypo’s hahaha then you could be that skinny… the fact of the matter is, everyBODY is different…. so personally for these fitness people to be posting pics like this and trying to inspire us, I think it’s kind of bullshit… maybe put a pic of a girl who has some more meat, and has gym clothes on instead of a bandeau and undies, and then inspire me…. how about that? hahaha… I just can’t take it anymore hahaha!

    I hope to lose another 5 pounds by the end of march, let’s see if I can get that goal accomplished. Starting to cut things out of my diet and really just be good about what I’m eating… I found these yummy breakfast ideas on Prevention this morning! 🙂 Check them out!!!! AND THEN BELOW THAT – I have this great info graphic about what it means to just exercise for 30 minutes a day!!!!!

    8 Healthy Breakfast Ideas

    1. If you need to stay full all morning Greek yogurt is a powerhouse breakfast, packing up to 18 g of protein into just one 6-ounce container. Plus, one serving of plain can tally only 100 calories and 0 g of fat. Mix in some almonds and a fiber-rich fruit, like fresh pear, to round out the meal.

    2. If you need something fast
    Grab a bar, but not just any one: Many are laden with sugar and fat. Try Kind fruit and nut bars, which have up to 10 g of protein and 5 g of fiber, plus antioxidants.

    3. If the drive-thru is your only option
    Avoid morning calorie sinkholes like muffins, bagels, and pancakes, and order a protein-packed egg sandwich instead. To save calories, hold the cheese.
    How to chose the best breakfast bar

    4. If you’re never hungry ’til noon
    If your body’s not used to having breakfast, ease yourself into it by sipping on a smoothie (we like Odwalla) throughout the morning to start your day with vitamins and nutrients. Also, curb late-night snacking, which can suppress your morning appetite.
    Up for making a smoothie yourself? One of these 20 delicious smoothie recipes will totally hit the spot.

    5. If you need to fuel a workout
    Carbs and protein are essential for repairing your muscles post sweat session. Kashi’s 7 Grain frozen waffle has 7 g of fiber and 4 g of protein per serving. Pair it with a protein-packed serving of peanut butter, some sliced bananas, and a glass of fat-free milk and you’ll have a winning start.

    6. If you’re trying to lose 10 pounds
    Swap your morning cup o’ joe for a mug of green tea—research shows that it can rev your metabolism. As for your main meal: Fill up on two eggs any way you like ’em. Studies show that people who incorporated eggs instead of bagels into a reduced-calorie diet lost 65% more weight.
    Simple ways to lose the last 10 pounds

    7. If heart health is your priority
    Try a breakfast burrito chock-full of heart-friendly monounsaturated fats. Fill a whole wheat wrap with sliced avocado, scrambled eggs, and a splash of salsa. Also check out these other tasty breakfast burrito ideas.

    8. If you need more fiber
    Don’t settle for a cereal with fewer than 5 g of fiber per serving. Some varieties, such as Fiber One, contain as much as 14 g. To add even more fiber-filled food (and flavor): Toss in raspberries.
    10 Flat Belly Breakfasts



  • Lack of Enthusiasm. Period.

    photo 1 (9)Today I would like to talk about what I like to call, lack of enthusiasm . Yep, I said it, l-a-c-k o-f e-n-t-h-u-s-i-a-s-m. I have no idea why, or how, or whatever.. but man where is my drive lately? I was so on fire when I started and I lost the 33lbs, and yeah, going to the gym isn’t a problem, but where have I gone wrong now? Why do I sit here and think to myself, hey, I’m good where I’m at, I can fit into XL now, I don’t need to do anything else…. WHY??? WHY WHY WHY? Where did my drive go? Where did the passion for the weight loss go? Where has it gone… maybe it just today? I know I don’t want to give up, I know I don’t want to stop, I told Juan last night, I need to keep going, but for some reason, with all my work on my plate, I’m just like hey, I will workout, eat kind of healthy, but I’m not going to try anymore. I’m not going to plan out all my meals, all my times when I’m going to eat, why do that?

    I was snowboarding this weekend and I was the best I have ever been… and I chalk that up to my workout/diet regiment and how I’ve been doing…. and I felt amazing, so why would I want to stop?  But you know what, I haven’t seen a drop in weight, I haven’t seen a drop in pant size, so I’m discouraged, and I have that lack of enthusiasm. I don’t even have enthusiasm to write this post!!!!!!!! I have so much work to do and not enough time and then on top of that not enough time to keep up this workout and dieting thing… but I have to… hahah i love how I am trying to talk myself INTO getting my enthusiasm back…. I did a post on facebook this weekend and yesterday asking about who inspires you, and omg the responses…. I just about cried reading every single one. Because here I am, sitting here talking about how I can’t find the enthusiasm to even write this post and I’ve got people telling me how their relatives inspire them, their children, their friends, just all these amazing things… and that inspires me… SO WHY CAN’T I JUST KEEP ON MOVING!?!?!?! COME ON MAN!!!!!!!!

    I am such a picky eater I need someone to help me get my diet right…. anyone want to help me? I need to also start making some of the amazing shakes from Shakeology again! AHHHHHH I CAN DO THIS!!! I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!

    Anyways, for now, since I am clearly SLACKING BIG TIME – here are a few things that my friends have sent me as far as snacking —- everyone knows that my snacking is hard to get under control —-

    photo 1 (8)From Sam: Craving chips and salsa? Try cucumbers as a replacement to chips – I swear it’s delish 😛

    photo 2 (9)From Katie: Half of one of these with half of an apple so good, 100 calorie very satisfying snack.

    barney-butter-snack-pack-300x300From Johnny: Barney Butter Almond Butter, a good quick snack to get some calories in you. (we had this snowboarding this weekend and it was great….

    THEN – WHAT’S FOR DINNER TONIGHT????? Yes ma’am – Skinny Chicken Cordon Bleu

    skinny-baked-chicken-cordon-bleuChicken Cordon Bleu

    Servings: 6 • Serving Size: 2 pieces • Old Pts: 8 pts • Weight Watchers Points+: 8 Calories: 378 • Fat: 10 g • Protein: 55 g • Carbs: 8 g • Fiber: 0.5 g • Sugar: 1 g Sodium: 813 mg (without salt)

    cooking spray
    12 thin sliced (36 oz total) skinless boneless chicken breasts, 3 oz each
    salt and fresh cracked pepper
    1 large egg
    2 large egg whites
    1 tbsp water
    1/2 cup seasoned breadcrumbs
    1/4 cup grated parmesan cheese
    5 oz (6 slices) thinly sliced lean deli ham, sliced in half
    6 slices (4.4 oz) Sargento reduced fat Swiss cheese, cut in half

    Preheat oven to 450°. Spray a large non-stick baking sheet with cooking spray.

    Wash and dry the chicken cutlets; lightly pound the chicken to make thinner and lightly season with salt and black pepper.

    Lay the chicken on a working surface and place a slice of ham on top of the chicken, then the cheese and roll, setting them aside seam side down.

    In a medium bowl, whisk eggs and egg whites along with water to make an egg wash.

    In another medium bowl, combine breadcrumbs and parmesan cheese.

    Dip the chicken into the egg wash, then into the breadcrumbs.

    Place chicken onto the baking sheet seem side down. Spray the top of the chicken with more cooking spray and bake about 25 minutes, or until until cooked.

    Makes 12.