• Selling these tanks… is tough. But I love it!

    This could totally be you guys after you read this post.

    This could totally be you guys after you read this post.

    Alright everyone….. This post could either be awesome, or bite me in the ass…. you choose. hahaha

    I don’t really post about the tanks that much in this blog, because this blog isn’t about the tanks 🙂 it’s about my ongoing journey of weight loss haha – Well, I think I need to post about the tanks today… Only because I have become super frustrated with things that are frankly out of my control.

    Starting to sell these tanks, was just supposed to be fun and on the side, and it has grown into something I never EVER imagined it would/could. And that’s pretty damn sweet if I say so myself… BUT – I’ve learned, it’s not all fine and dandy all the time… and sure, I’ve got a great product that people love (I HOPE HAHAHA), but what I don’t want to do…. is FUCK EVERYTHING UP! 🙂 (for people new to this blog, yes, I curse…. but I’m just being me haha). In the past few days, I have had some seriously amazing conversations with some seriously amazing people who believe in me, and believe in what I have grown so far, but it has also brought up some questions/concerns about some of the things I have been noticing over the past few weeks with these tanks….

    photo 2

    i get your orders, i get the tanks from NY, and I sort them out for the orders… and wait for others to arrive….

    i ship these bad boys out daily!!!

    i ship these bad boys out daily!!!

    Just to give you all a quick brief (again for the newbies)… this operation is run out of my house, with only myself, help from my amazing fiance, and right now, my awesome intern. (who isn’t even supposed to be helping me with T2T she’s actually interning for me as a designer haha WOOPS)… so yep, that’s it… 3 people….. and now that I’ve got an awesome friend who has came on board to help me with the business side of things… so anyways, we are small… our printer is up in NY, he prints everything one off… I don’t carry inventory and we print everything as needed (that has allowed us to get a bunch of different designs, and customize the tanks to change colors as you want them!) that’s also changing, we are about to invest a boat load of money to get you your shirts quicker!!!! (buying inventory)… These are all things we are working on to get you your stuff as quickly as possible!!! I want you all to be happy, and be able to sport your tanks at your gym or box, or anywhere!!!! And the turn around time right now is unacceptable…

    ink color issue!

    ink color issue!

    That bring me to my next issue that I’m finding and this issue is with Bella….. (Bella, if someone from your company is reading this, please listen to what I have to say! haha) As you know, once you order a shirt, you will see the tag, it says from Bella and the blend on the tank is a 65%/35% polyester/viscose blend…. Thats how we get that amazingly soft feel that WE ALL LOVE (i freaking LOVE IT). WELL, BELLA…… I’ve noticed your SHIT isn’t consistant… and unfortunately, (and honestly, maybe none of you have noticed, but I do because I see about 100 shirts a day!!!) some of these tanks are softer than others… especially your dark grey tanks. What is going on people? AND THEN, on top of that, we are noticing that whatever the blend that they are creating, is not allowing our ink to lay down so smoothly…. This is a big problem for me – and for my printer…. We print tanks daily, with these florescent inks, and most of them come out amazing, but we have found that some of them are faded… and we are like what the HECK is going on?!?!?!.. Well, we noticed that it’s the difference in the consistency of the tank. The harder, not as flowy, tanks… they aren’t taking the ink as well – and we have even printed them over and over again and no change…. We’ve added more layers to it – thinking, maybe that will help.. but we found out that whatever they are doing with their blend, it’s not bleaching correctly when we lay the ink down so it results in that faded coloring…. We are only seeing this in the dark grey tanks, and again, it’s hit or miss.

    lose tank (this is the RIGHT tank) - (i look amazing, btw)

    lose tank (this is the RIGHT tank) – (i look amazing, btw)

    tight tank - this is the weird one from bella

    tight tank – this is the weird one from bella

    We are trying our best to pull those tanks out, and trying to get the old tanks back, but that just holds things up… the LAST issue with these grey tanks is that I’m finding they are tighter and not as loose. The pic to the left shows me in the coral XL and then the dark grey XL and you can see the coral is WAY looser and flowier then the dark grey… this is one of the problem dark grey tanks….

    I just wanted you guys to know that this isn’t anything I have control over, and I’m trying to get it fixed as best as I can – and I believe in being honest about your product and company so I’m making you guys aware of these issues, and if you have received tanks that you think are inconsistant, this is probably why… if you are ever unhappy, just let me know, and I can work with you to make it right… but I’m trying, I really am.

    I want nothing more than to give you guys an amazing product that you are 100% happy with… so the larger we get, the more conscious I’m going to be about these things…. I really value all of the customers, I never could have imagined that this would have ever been as big as it is… and I thank you all for your support……


  • Hate is such a harsh word. But it's true.

    Hate hate hate… that’s the word of the day… and it’s funny, because I always think about my friend Stephanie when I use the word Hate because she will NEVER use it… she just uses HADE, which is, I must say, a much better word to use… Hate is so tough…. so maybe actually… i retract the first statement… HADE HADE HADE.. that’s the word of TODAY!

    This is LEGIT what I think people's faces look like when they see my legs or arms HAHAHAHA

    This is LEGIT what I think people’s faces look like when they see my legs or arms HAHAHAHA

    What do I hade? Well, I hade the fact that even though you are losing weight, you are gaining confidence, you start visualizing yourself differently, and the negative comments about your body, your weight, and all that stuff, go from being “omg I’m so fat, I can’t fit into anything, look at these rolls” to…. “omg my legs look so big in these shorts, I hate that my arms still have stretch marks, and if I could only fix this…” IT’S HORRIBLE AND I HADE IT! Why can’t we just be happy with ourselves and our accomplishments? Oh wait, I have an answer for that, because WE ARE WOMEN! HAHAHAHA…..


    my legs…. i see the muscles

    I have found myself over the past few weeks, gaining confidence, yes, but also NIT PICKING EVERY DAMN THING… like for instance… I’ve been wearing shorts more often these days… which, I will say, is HUGE for me. I never wear shorts, I always think that the back of my legs look horrible, or if you look at them just the wrong way you see them in an angle where they look fat instead of muscular. So why can’t I just be happy that I feel comfortable enough in shorts these days instead of critiquing every freaking thing that might not be perfect on my body? Like why can’t I just HARDEN THE EFF UP AND ACCEPT THAT MY LEGS ARE HOT AS SHIT! Yeah… I said it.. but it will be a while before I believe it 🙂 And despite all the amazing compliments I get from other women at the gym letting me know how envious of the fact that I don’t have to flex for them to see my amazingly toned leg muscles, I still don’t see it – (but we’re our own worst enemy right?)

    check out my sexy big man arms!!! yeahhhh buddy!

    check out my sexy big man arms!!! yeahhhh buddy!

    The other part of my body that I hate and that I find myself checking out a TON in the mirror are my arms… WHY AREN’T THEY SMALL YET? I MEAN GIVE ME A BREAK!!! THEY ARE STRONG, BUT STILL HUGE! hahahaha… I literally found myself driving home from the gym last week, noticing that I could actually feel a hole in my armpit (you know, that hole you get when you flex your arms and you apparently don’t have much arm pit fat anymore (is that even a thing?) anyways.. I took a pic of it HAHAHA, I was like, well damn, my arms are def getting more toned (as you can see in the picture) but, it’s only if I have them in the right form, haha, you put those damn things down and they go back to the jiggle mcjiggles they’ve always been.

    THEN, after feeling this way, it’s back to the drawing board for bathing suit shopping for the 4th of july and for Betsy’s bachelorette party in Miami….. UGH – like talk about a freaking horrible time to have —- give me a few bon bons and call it a day…. if i get drunk enough I won’t care what bathing suit I wear… who knows, I’ll probably end up in my birthday suit ANYWAYS! hahaha (not really, just kidding).

    See, why are we so freaking CRITICAL about ourselves? I should be happy with my improvements, but noooooooo, I have to find something that’s going to bother me. I have to pause for a moment to let you all know that Spice Girls “Spice up your life” just came on spotify… what a little gem that was. ANYWAYS… tell me I’m not the ONLY one that feels this way? I can’t get over it…..

    Well, for now, I’m going to keep working, and keep criticizing myself… fun fun. I’ll stop, one day…. How fun is this article though, the BEST and WORST DATE FOODS —- if you are out there dating, that’s amazing, but watch WHAT YOU EAT!


    5. Chocolate:

    White chocolate isn’t chocolate at all. In fact, in contains exactly 0 percent cacao, which means it contains none of the libido-boosting, feel-good chemicals found in dark chocolate. Instead, white chocolate producers sub in a troubling mix of hydrogenated oil and sugar and pass it off as the real thing. When it comes to chocolate, the darker the better, so look for bars with at least 60 percent cacao. Our favorite is Chocolove Rich Dark, which packs 65 percent of the good stuff.

    EAT THIS! Dark Chocolate 290 calories, 22 g sugars

    4. Appetizer:

    Just because it’s crab doesn’t mean it’s healthy, especially when the innocent crustacean is attacked by mayo, breadcrumbs, and a fryer full of bubbling oil. Take the seafood au naturel (or maybe with just a squirt of lemon juice or a dip of cocktail sauce), and you’ll benefit from a low-fat, high-protein treat loaded with sperm-boosting, libido-stoking zinc and mood-brightening omega-3 fatty acids. Plus, you share it and you eat it with your hands—the perfect way to get Cupid’s attention.

    Click here for all of today’s sex, health, and fitness news!

     EAT THIS! Raw Bar Appetizer for Two 175 calories (each), 8 g sugars


    3. Dinner:

    Besides being surprisingly lean, lamb packs plenty of protein, which boosts production of dopamine and norepinephrine, hormones that increase alertness and assertiveness in the bedroom. It’s also a great source for zinc—a mineral that boosts libido by reducing your body’s production of a hormone called prolactin, which may interfere with arousal.

    Don’t be fooled by the vegetables in the primavera, though. Most primavera renditions start with butter and finish with heavy cream and cheese. But the real offender here is the pasta itself. If you’re looking to progress past dinner tonight, avoid refined carbohydrates, such as pasta, breads, and cake, at all costs. These burn quickly, which spikes blood sugar. Besides setting both men and women up for an energy crash, a blood sugar spike also creates a surge of insulin, which raises blood pressure. And high blood pressure is the enemy of sturdy, reliable erections.

    EAT THIS! Lamb Chops 550 calories, 25 g fat


    2. Dessert:

    Dessert may be the most pivotal decision of the night, since choosing poorly means a ton of excess calories and sugar and none of the rewards you reap from a smart decision. Case in point: chocolate fondue. British scientists have discovered that women release four times more endorphins after eating chocolate than they do after making out. Plus, the cocoa in chocolate contains methylxanthines, stimulants that increase your body’s sensitivity—ensuring that your skin registers even the slightest touch or movement against it. Strawberries are packed with anthocyanins, a powerful antioxidant that helps with bloodflow below the belt. Raspberries have them too, but the sauce that comes with your huge hunk of fatty cheesecake is likely cloaked in sugar, with only a few token berries floating around. At 1,000 calories for the whole package, you’d be better off eating three ice cream sundaes then going fork-to-mouth with this gut-bomb.

    For the most up-to-date sex, health, and workout advice, follow Men’s Health on Twitter.

    EAT THIS! Chocolate Fondue 250 calories, 18 g fat


    1. Cocktail:

    When it comes to drinking and romance, a slight buzz can work well to build confidence and increase arousal signals between your brain and your genitals, but too much sugar and booze will actually depress your nervous system, making it harder for men to maintain an erection (and women to maintain interest). Most margaritas made in bars and restaurants are 90 percent premixed solution, which gets its nuclear green glow not from an abundance of fresh lime juice, but from high-fructose corn syrup and food coloring. All of that sugar will work to give you a quick jolt of energy, but will eventually team up with the tequila to bring you crashing down (which could easily compromise dessert back at your place).

    Cosmos, on the other hand, are made with a bit of restraint and healthier mixers—a splash of cranberry, a squeeze of fresh citrus—which keep the calories down and your energy up. Or save more than 550 calories and load up on heart-healthy antioxidants (vital for effective bloodflow) by opting for a glass of bubbly.

    DRINK THIS! Cosmo 150 calories, 18 g sugars




    Well……. what a few days it’s been. Let me start with the negative stuff! THEY CANCELLED MY FREAKING TOUGH MUDDER!!! YEP….. I can’t tell you how mad I was — more upset then mad. I’ve worked so hard to even think about running that race, and to have it ripped from my hands from MY OWN DAMN TROPICAL STORM (yeah, how fitting that the storm that messed up my race was named ANDREA!) made me so angry….. I have a feeling it was for the better, seeing as though my freaking shins were still killing me, but that was NOT going to stop me. Despite everyone telling me that I shouldn’t do it – I wasn’t going to listen… so maybe this was a blessing in disguise…. but STILL. so angry. And now, the only other mudder I can do is the mudder the weekend after my wedding!!! Hahaha… Talk about crazy… Anyways, we will see – we can’t get our money back, so we might as well try for another one… im just mad. I’ve worked so hard to get in enough shape to even THINK about running this run (we all know I’m probably not in enough shape to actually RUN the whole thing, but I can try hahaha)

    Anyways… so because my legs have been messed up, and I was doing the mudder, I was told to take a break… so for the past 5 days, I haven’t been to the gym, and I’ve been eating like crap and drinking like a maniac. WHAT IS MY PROBLEM!?!!? I swear, I keep telling myself, ok ok ok, get over this shit, get it out of your system, and then 5 days later I’m like… oh hey, pizza? WHY NOT? I TOTALLY WANT TO GAIN BACK THE WEIGHT I’VE WORKED SO HARD TO LOSE….. TOTALLY!!!!!! Ugh… I need like weight loss rehab or something… is that a thing? If not, I need to start it. HAHAHA… I’m just saying though, it’s so HARD to get out of a slump… and I really need to get out of it. Last night I said to myself, starting Monday, I’m going to get up every morning, go run, and then do my normal 4pm workout, and eat like a healthy maniac…….. what happened this morning when I woke up? NONE OF THAT. Well, I’ve been eating ok this morning haha. but that’s about it. I just have to get back to crossfit, get my WOD in, and get back on track… Someone needs to come kick my ass – because I’m clearly not doing it myself…….. me telling myself I’m a failure isn’t helping, so I’ve just gotta get back on track… no more EXCUSES… NO NO NO NO NO NO MORE! If I’m going to be a BAMF (bad ass mother fu*ker) then I need to quit binge drinking and eating. That’s enough of that. I swear if I put on a pair of jeans and they feel tight, I’m going to cry. HARD. hahaha..

    Screen Shot 2013-06-07 at 9.02.28 AMOn a happy note, I just have to say…. last week I did the giveaway on the facebook page… and honestly, I didn’t want anything from anyone, I didn’t want the comments, I didn’t need the comments, I just wanted to let people following me, that I wanted to help someone – I wanted to get someone moving like my friend Evie did for me… I bought all the stuff myself, and I am going to get the 7 day gym pass for the winner… but what i have to say is that, the amazing response I got from people made me cry…. first off, everyone was telling me how nice it was of me to do this giveaway, I honestly didn’t even think about it like that, I honestly just said one day I wanted to help someone and get them moving! I just wanted to let you all know that YOU guys are what inspires and motivates ME, and the fact that you read my posts, you read and comment on my rants, and you are just amazing and supportive is the reason I keep going… to prove that with hard work and determination, and BEING A REAL PERSON IN REAL LIFE and making mistakes, and drinking too much sometimes, you can still lose weight, get in shape, and enjoy your life. I want to say thanks to everyone that entered the contest and hope that Elizabeth Cabello enjoys her prize pack as much as I enjoy giving it to her! 🙂

    So from the bottom of my heart, to everyone out there reading this, thanks for all the compliments, I really appreciate each and everyone of them —- just pay it forward!

    One last thing… i found this article interesting over on mens health this weekend – who knows if it’s 100% correct, but I found some of these things to be interesting….



    15. MYTH #1: High fructose corn syrup is worse than table sugar:

    Whether or not added sugar is bad for you has never been in dispute. The less sugar you eat, the better. But whether HFCS is worse than plain ol’ table sugar has long been a contentious issue. Here’s what you need to know: Both HFCS and table sugar, or sucrose, are built with roughly a 50-50 blend of two sugars, fructose, and glucose. That means in all likelihood that your body can’t tell one from the other—they’re both just sugar. HFCS’s real sin is that it’s supercheap, and as a result, it’s added to everything from cereal to ketchup to salad dressing. Plus it may be affecting your health in ways not yet fully understood by the scientific community. Is it a good idea to minimize the HFCS in your diet? Absolutely. It’s best to cut out all unnecessary sugars. But HFCS’s role as nutritional enemy #1 has been exaggerated.

    14. MYTH #2: Sea salt is a healthier version of regular salt:

    Everyday table salt comes from a mine and contains roughly 2,300 milligrams of sodium per teaspoon. Sea salt comes from evaporated seawater, and it also contains roughly 2,300 milligrams of sodium. That makes them, well, roughly identical. Advocates point to the fact that sea salt also contains other compounds like magnesium and iron, but in truth, these minerals exist in trace amounts. To obtain a meaningful dose, you’d have to take in extremely high and potentially dangerous levels of sodium. What’s more, traditional table salt is regularly fortified with iodine, which plays an important role in regulating the hormones in your body. Sea salt, on the other hand, gives you virtually zero iodine. The bottom line is this: If switching from table salt to sea salt causes you to consume even one extra granule, then you’ve just completely snuffed out whatever elusive health boon you hope to receive. Plus you’ve wasted a few bucks.

    13. MYTH #3: Energy drinks are less harmful than soda:

    Energy drinks like Red Bull, Monster, and Full Throttle attempt to boost your energy with a cache of B vitamins, herbal extracts, and amino acids. But what your body’s going to remember most (especially around your waistline) is the sugar in these concoctions; a 16-ounce can delivers as much as 280 calories of pure sugar, which is about 80 calories more than you’d find in a 16-ounce cup of Pepsi. What’s more, a University of Maryland study found energy drinks to be 11 percent more corrosive to your teeth than regular soda. So here’s the secret that energy drink companies don’t want you to know: The only proven, significant energy boost comes from caffeine. If you want an energy boost, save yourself the sugar spike and drink a cup of coffee.

    12. MYTH #4: Diet soda is harmless:

    The obesity-research community is becoming increasingly aware that the artificial sweeteners used in diet soda—aspartame and sucralose, for instance—lead to hard-to-control food urges later in the day. One Purdue study discovered that rats took in more calories if they’d been fed artificial sweeteners prior to mealtime, and a University of Texas study found that people who consume just three diet sodas per week were more than 40 percent more likely to be obese. Try weaning yourself off by switching to carbonated water and flavoring with lemon, cucumber, and fresh herbs.

    11. MYTH #5: Low-fat foods are better for you:

    As it applies to food marketing, the term “low fat” is synonymous with “loaded with salt and cheap carbohydrates.” For instance, look at Smucker’s Reduced Fat Peanut Butter. To replace the fat it skimmed out, Smucker’s added a fast-digesting carbohydrate called maltodextrin. That’s not going to help you lose weight. A 2008 study in the New England Journal of Medicine found that over a 2-year span, people on low-carb diets lost 62 percent more body weight than those trying to cut fat. (Plus, the fat in peanut butter is heart-healthy monounsaturated fat—you’d be better off eating more of it, not less!)

    10. MYTH #6: “Trans-fat free” foods are actually trans-fat free:

    The FDA’s guidelines allow companies to claim 0 grams of trans fat—even broadcast it on the front of their packages—as long as the food in question contains no more than 0.5 grams of trans fat per serving. But here’s the deal: Due to an inextricable link to heart disease, the World Health Organization advises people to keep trans fat intake as low as possible, maxing out at about 1 gram per 2,000 calories consumed. If your cupboard’s full of foods with almost half a gram per serving, you might be blowing past that number every single day. The American Journal of Health Promotion recently published an article urging the FDA to rethink its lax regulations, but until that happens, you should avoid all foods with “partially hydrogenated oil” (meaning, trans fats) on their ingredients statements.


     9. MYTH #7: Foods labeled “natural” are healthier:

    The FDA makes no serious effort to control the use of the word “natural” on nutrition labels. Case in point: 7UP boasts that it’s made with “100% Natural Flavors” when, in fact, the soda is sweetened with a decidedly un-natural dose of high fructose corn syrup. “Corn” is natural, but “high fructose corn syrup” is produced using a centrifuge and a series of chemical reactions. Other “natural” abusers include Natural Cheetos, which are made with maltodextrin and disodium phosphate, and “natural advantage” Post Raisin Bran, which bathes its raisins in both sugar and corn syrup. The worst part is, you’re likely paying a premium price for common junk food.

    8. MYTH #8: Egg yolks raise your cholesterol:

    Egg yolks contain dietary cholesterol; this much is true. But research has proven that dietary cholesterol has almost nothing to do with serum cholesterol, the stuff in your blood. Wake Forest University researchers reviewed more than 30 egg studies and found no link between egg consumption and heart disease, and a study in Saint Louis found that eating eggs for breakfast could decrease your calorie intake for the remainder of the day.

    7. MYTH #9: Eating junk food helps battle stress:

    You’ve been there: Stressed out and sprawled across your sofa with one arm elbow deep in a bag of cheese puffs. In the moment, it can be comforting, but a study published in the British Journal of Psychiatry found that people who consumed the most highly processed foods were 58 percent more likely to be depressed than those who ate the least. Your move: Find a healthy stress snack. Peanut butter and Triscuits do the trick, or check out the next myth …

    6. MYTH #10: Chocolate is bad for you:

    Cocoa is a plant-based food replete with flavonoids that increase blood flow and release feel-good endorphins. Plus, it contains a healthy kind of saturated fat called stearic acid, which research has shown can increase your good HDL cholesterol. But here’s the rub: When most people think of chocolate, their minds jump immediately to milk chocolate, which contains far more sugar than actual cocoa. Instead, look for dark chocolate, specifically those versions that tell you exactly how much cocoa they contain. A bar with 60% cocoa is good, but the more cocoa it contains, the greater the health effects.

    5. Myth #11: Granola is good for you:

    Oats are good for you, and the same goes for oatmeal. But granola takes those good-for-you hunks of flattened oat, blankets them in sugar, and bakes them in oil to give them crunch. The amount of fat and sugar added to each oat is at the discretion of food processors, but you can bet your last cup of milk it’s going to far sweeter and more fatty than a bowl of regular cereal. Take this example: A single cup of Quaker Natural Granola, Nuts & Raisins has 420 calories, 30 grams of sugar, and 10 grams of fat. Switch to a humble cup of Kix and you drop down about 90 calories, 2.5 grams of sugar, and 1 gram of fat.

    4. MYTH #12: Bananas are the best source of potassium:

    Your body uses potassium to keep your nerves and muscles firing efficiently, and an adequate intake can blunt sodium’s effect on blood pressure. One 2009 study found that a 2:1 ratio of potassium to sodium could halve your risk of heart disease, and since the average American consumes about 3,400 milligrams of sodium each day, your goal should be 6,800 milligrams of daily potassium. You’re extremely unlikely to ever reach that mark—and never with bananas alone. One medium banana has 422 milligrams and 105 calories. Here are the sources that earn you roughly the same amount of potassium in fewer calories:
    * Potato, half a medium spud, 80 calories
    * Apricots, 5 whole fruit, 80 calories
    * Cantaloupe, 1 cup cubes, 55 calories
    * Broccoli, 1 full stalk, 50 calories
    * Sun-dried tomatoes, a quarter cup, 35 calories

    3. MYTH #13: Oranges are the best source of vitamin C:

    Far more than a simple immune booster, vitamin C is an antioxidant that plays a host of important roles in your body. It strengthens skin by helping to build collagen, improves mood by increasing the flow of norepinephrine, and bolsters metabolic efficiency by helping transport fat cells into the body’s energy-burning mitochondria. But since your body can neither store nor create the wonder vitamin, you need to provide a constant supply. An orange is the most famous vitamin-C food, and although it’s a good source, it’s by no means the best. For 70 calories, one orange gives you about 70 micrograms of vitamin C. Here are five sources with just as much vitamin C and even fewer calories:

    * Papaya, Âľ cup, 50 calories
    * Brussel’s sprouts, 1 cup, 40 calories
    * Strawberries, 7 large fruit, 40 calories
    * Broccoli, ½ stalk, 25 calories
    * Red Bell Pepper, ½ medium pepper, 20 calories

    2. MYTH #14: Organic is always better:

    Often, but not in every case. Organic produce is almost nutritionally identical to its conventional counterpart. The issue is pesticide exposure—pesticides have been linked to an increased risk of obesity in some studies. But many conventionally grown fruits and vegetables are very low in pesticides. Take, for example, the conventional onion: It’s got the lowest pesticide load of 45 fruits and vegetables tested by the Environmental Working Group. Also in the safe-to-eat-conventional group are avocados, sweet corn, and pineapple. In general, fruits and vegetables with impermeable skins are safe to buy conventional, while produce like celery, peaches, apples, and blueberries are better purchased organic.

    1. MYTH #15: Meat is bad for you:

    Pork, beef, and lamb are among the world’s best sources of complete protein, and a Danish study found that dieting with 25 percent of calories from protein can help you lose twice as much weight as dieting with 12 percent protein. Then there’s vitamin B12, which is prevalent only in animal-based foods. B12 is essential to your body’s ability to decode DNA and build red blood cells, and British researchers found that adequate intakes protect against age-related brain shrinkage. Now, if you’re worried that meat will increase your risk for heart disease, don’t be. A Harvard review last year looked at 20 studies and found that meat’s link to heart disease exists only with processed meats like bacon, sausage, and deli cuts. Unprocessed meats, those that hadn’t been smoked, cured, or chemically preserved, presented absolutely zero risk.




  • Stubborn. That's my middle name.

    What’s that thing where you train too hard, through the pain because you have a big goal coming up…. and then you realize that maybe that wasn’t the smartest idea because maybe, just maybe you injured myself enough to where you might not even be able to compete in something you’ve been training for, for months? Oh right….. Stubbornness…… that thing… that beautiful thing where you think you are invincible and that NOTHING can stand in your way.. not your body telling you to stop, not your coaches telling you to stop, not your friends telling you to stop… and basically ignoring all the signs till you really effff yourself up? Oh right…. yep, stubbornness, and stubborn, thats totally my middle name.

    Yesterday sucked. I cracked, I failed… and then on TOP of all of that, I decided, well FUCK IT, I’m going to do what makes me happy, EAT hahaha… so what did I do, drove right up to Chick-fil-A and got myself a nice yummy chicken sandwich… yep, DUMB, I know… but man did it make me happy. And no, it wasn’t paleo or gluten free, or ANYTHING free, it was just a damn, horrible, fried, chicken sandwich. SUE ME!

    tumblr_m5jedmWHfn1rxj29io1_500So what’s going on you ask? I don’t really know… could just be shin splints, could be stress fracture, whatever it is, it hurts. My shins and all around my calves, KILL. All week, they were bothering me, and probably even last week too – we’ve been doing a lot of body weight at the gym and I thought, oh, just power through it, it will go away… so I ignored it. Iced it, just kept an eye on it…. tilllllllll yesterday…. I don’t know if it was the box jumps or the double unders, but whatever it was, when I got done with my WOD I couldn’t stand and my shins and everything around my calves were on FIRE…… MY CALVES ARE ON FIREEEEEEEEEEEEE (in the best Alicia Keys voice I can bolt out at 5:30 in the morning! haha) This makes things GREAT especially when I’m supposed to be doing the Tough Mudder in 2…. TWO FREAKING DAYS… oh but no big deal right? I can’t walk after some box jumps and some jump roping, but I will TOTALLY be able to run 13 miles 🙂 easy peassssy! (not going to lie, I may or may not be freaking out a little, not even because of the race, but now because I’m worried maybe I shouldn’t be doing it…) My problem is, you tell me NOT to do something, I only do it harder, better, longer, faster… I have a real problem having someone tell me I can’t/shouldn’t do something.. maybe thats from growing up and that certain SOMEONE I always complain about telling me I will never be good enough and there are certain things I won’t be able to do because clearly CLEARLY I’m not perfect… UGH (he really messed me up, let me tell you HAHA). But that problem, I think, has gotten me where I am today… don’t tell me not to do something, because oh boy, will I better than ever.

    So that leads me to what’s been stirring in my head since last night… what do I do? Do I suck it up, BUTTERCUP, and do this race, knowing that after this race I might need to take a few weeks off to let my legs recover? Do I do the race and just STOP when I can’t go any further… or do I sit on the sidelines like a little asshole and feel like a failure…. UGH I just don’t know.

    In preparation to try to make things better, I did an ice bath after the WOD last night…. my legs felt a little better after (probably because they were totally still numb) but going to bed, during bed, and right now, I still feel that dull underlying pain…. UGHHHHH. At what point does strength and willingness to succeed go out the door, and smart thinking and not getting injured walk in? And why isn’t Coldplay giving me the answers I want this morning.

    I can’t believe I was stupid enough to eat chick-fil-a last night either hahaha, but I mean like I keep saying, I’m only human! Weight loss sucks, and sometimes you cave when you are upset…. but sometimes I do that TOO OFTEN. hahaha…

    Last thing I will say though. I’ve had some serious drive and determination to get to this point…. I’ve lost a buttload of weight, and I’m just wicked happier with where I’m at as far as my fitness goes… so either way, whatever I decide to do, I know, I KNOW that I’ve made it this far, and I’m not going to stop…

    Ok rant over…. why do I feel like I’m going to be this guy at the end of the video below?? hahaha

  • Photos from our last photoshoot!

    The photos are finally up! Check some of the selects out!

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  • When working out started becoming…. Fun?

    This used to be me when someone would ask me to go to the gym:



    either that or this… depending on the day:

    NOW – this has become my face when the clock hits gym time, and i hop in my hooptie ride and head off into the sunset to the gym…


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    It’s funny how things really change… I actually tweeted on Friday that I’m obsessed with working out, I never used to be like that. What’s gotten into me? I don’t know if it’s the fact that I’m finally looking good in clothes, and that it’s summer, and rocking shorts isn’t a problem anymore, like it used to be? Ok, I thought this was a win, but It’s really not…. I got these shorts from Target, thought they were amazing, was SO PUMPED to fit in something other than an XXL, then I realized, oh, they are elastic HAHAHAHA, so what you’re telling me is that, yes, I fit into shorts that aren’t huge, but, they are elastic??!!? haha… I don’t know, to me thats a fail, but holy SHIT are they comfortable, elastic or not… I have a problem because I have amazingly HUGE MUSCULAR man thighs, (which is totally awesome, because I’m a beast and strong as shit) but what suck is that it doesn’t make it easy to fit into shorts… all the shorts I ever get, even in the smaller sizes now, are SOOOOO tight around my thighs, it’s horrible. I bought a few shorts last week, and was so excited to rock them, till I tried them on and was like, nope, not gonna work! OMG and the other thing I did, was I went out for the FIRST time in my life, in public without sleeves… I know this sounds weird, but I REALLY REALLY hate my arms, I really do, and all of last summer I would go out in the sweltering heat with a sweater on – it was crazy, I know… everyone was like WHAT THE HELL is your problem, haha but now I just don’t even care… I don’t honestly know if it’s because I can see weight loss in my arms, or that I have no one to impress, and I’m just like, fuck it, no sleeves. It feels SO MUCH BETTER without sleeves in 90 degree weather… can I tell you that? haha

    photo-(42)Here I am rocking them in TWO COLORS, they are amazing, i love them, and no one but you guys need to know the they are drawstring! HAHAHA

    Anyways, back to the fact that I’m obsessed with working out – it’s tough, because I really don’t have much free time anymore… i work all the time, but when I do get free time, all I want to do is head over to Bull Run Crossfit and get my WOD on, or run over at sport and health…. I just love being sweaty, and feeling like I’m working off my horrible crap I have in my body, and I love seeing my friends!!!!! I just still need to get my damn eating under control, I keep falling off the wagon you guys… I really just do, it’s so hard. I’m so over trying to be perfect, but I can’t keep falling off the wagon. We’ve been working like maniac’s and when it comes dinner time, picking something up that might not be the best thing to eat, is the best thing for me to do because I just don’t have time to be the good, healthy eater and cook something up… life happens, and right now, it’s not being awesome.

    I was looking for some quick dip recipes to have something in the house that I could stick some gluten free bagel chips or pretzels or even carrots in, so i found some yummy things on womens health last week that I thought I would share….

    Delicious Low-Fat Dip Recipes

    Move over, ranch dressing! Here are five dunkworthy dip recipes that are creamy, healthy, and full of fresh summertime ingredients

    Edamame Hummus
    Soybeans turn this traditional pita-bread partner on its head, and they’re brimming with hunger-satiating protein and fiber. For a zesty kick, stir in 1/2 tsp sriracha, a Thai hot sauce found in your grocery store’s condiment aisle.

    1 cup frozen shelled edamame
    1 tsp chopped garlic
    1 Tbsp tahini
    1 Tbsp fresh lemon juice
    3 Tbsp water
    1/4 tsp salt
    1 Tbsp olive oil

    Boil frozen edamame 4 to 6 minutes; drain. Combine edamame in a food processor with garlic, tahini, lemon juice, water, and salt; blend well. Drizzle in olive oil. (If the texture is too thick, add another tablespoon of water.)

    MAKES 4 SERVINGS. Per serving: 101 cal, 7 g fat (<1 g sat), 5 g carbs, 152 mg sodium, 2 g fiber, 5 g protein

    Sweet-and-Spicy Yogurt
    Protein-packed Greek yogurt makes this curry dip satisfyingly thick, while fresh peaches add a rich sweetness.

    1 cup low-fat plain Greek yogurt
    2 Tbsp diced ripe peach
    1 tsp lemon juice
    1 dash Worcestershire sauce
    1 1/2 tsp curry powder
    1/4 tsp cumin
    1/4 tsp salt
    1/2 ring red pepper, chopped, for garnish
    1 tsp chopped green onion, for garnish

    In a bowl, stir together all ingredients except garnish. Chill up to 2 hours to allow flavors to develop. Top with red pepper and green onion before serving.

    MAKES 4 SERVINGS. Per serving: 42 cal, 1 g fat (<1 g sat), 3 g carbs, 165 mg sodium, <1 g fiber, 5 g protein

    Cheesy Tomato Dip
    Naturally lower in fat than other cheeses, feta makes an ideal base for this Mediterranean-inspired dip. It also subs nicely for mayo to kick up a turkey sandwich.

    1 tomato, quartered, seeds removed
    6 oz feta, crumbled
    1 tsp lemon juice
    1/8 tsp dried oregano
    1 Tbsp chopped kalamata olives
    1 Tbsp chopped sun-dried tomatoes (packed in oil, drained)

    In a food processor, chop tomato. Add feta in small batches, blending to combine. Pour in lemon juice and oregano; blend again. In a bowl, fold olives into cheese-tomato mixture. Top with sun-dried tomatoes.

    MAKES 4 SERVINGS. Per serving: 122 cal, 9 g fat (6 g sat), 3 g carbs, 495 mg sodium, <1 g fiber, 6 g protein
    Tropical Guac
    Avocados are rich in healthy, belly-trimming monounsaturated fats. Because this dip is bulked up with fruit, it has fewer calories per scoop than traditional guacamole.

    1/2 avocado, pitted, peeled, and chopped
    1/8 tsp salt
    2 Tbsp chopped red onion
    1 1/2 Tbsp chopped fresh cilantro
    2 tsp chopped jalapeno
    2 tsp fresh lime juice
    1/4 cup chopped pineapple
    1/4 cup chopped mango
    1/4 cup chopped cantaloupe

    Mash avocado and salt together with a fork. Gently stir in onion, cilantro, jalapeno, and lime juice. Fold in pineapple, mango, and cantaloupe.

    MAKES 4 SERVINGS. Per serving: 107 cal, 4 g fat (<1 g sat), 19 g carbs, 88 mg sodium, 4 g fiber, 2 g protein

    Cool Cucumber-Herb Dip
    Try this as a refreshing alternative to onion dip. It’ll spare your breath and your waistline.

    1 Tbsp diced shallot
    1/2 cup chopped cucumber, seeds removed
    1 cup low-fat sour cream
    1 tsp white-wine vinegar
    1 Tbsp chopped fresh dill
    1 Tbsp chopped fresh chives
    1/4 tsp salt
    Freshly ground black pepper

    In a food processor, combine shallot and cucumber; discard extra liquid. In a separate bowl, mix sour cream with shallot-cucumber mixture. Stir in vinegar, herbs, and salt, then add freshly ground pepper to taste. Refrigerate up to 2 hours to allow flavors to develop.

    MAKES 4 SERVINGS. Per serving: 82 cal, 6 g fat (4 g sat), 5 g carbs, 186 mg sodium, <1 g fiber, 2 g protein