• What NOT to do when you are trying to lose weight..


    If you want to lose weight, just eat a skinny person.

    SO I’m sitting here, and every time someone comments on a post I get an email, and I read that email.. and its funny – so many people say I’m looking so good and they can see a big difference… and I BELIEVE them, 1,000,000% but…… BUT BUT BUT…. to me, I just don’t see it. I mean I feel better, I feel smaller, I fit into clothes better, I feel stronger… I feel so much, but when I look in the mirror haha, what I see is still where I was 50lbs ago… DUDE like I still see the million chins, I still see the belly, I seeeeeeee it all. WHY can’t I stop seeing it! Here’s my number one thing NOT TO DO when you are trying to lose weight… DON’T LOOK IN THE DAMN MIRROR! HAHA… at least for me, I cannot look in the mirror HAHAHA, the more I look in the mirror, the more I want to jump off my roof. hahaha – I told Juan I was going to take down all the mirrors in the house but then how would he be able to check out his sexy bod? Right? hahaha

    Number 2) Don’t take 2 cheat days a week. HAHAHAHA – just because it’s the DAMN weekend, doesn’t mean you can chow down on pizza, burgers, fries, shakes………………. (I NEVER DO THAT, NOOOOOOO). If I’m going to really get my shit together, Saturdays and Sundays count… Do I stop working on Saturdays and Sundays? NOPE, so does that mean I should stop watching my diet on the weekends? UGH but you know what, I feel like dieting is a fulltime job and it’s NICE taking a break on the weekend…. BUT we all know, it’s a no-no.

    Number 3) Don’t look AT THE SCALE. I freaking look at that thing, and I’M MISERABLE… I’m SO FREAKING MISERABLE when i look at that thing and think, oh, I’ve only lost .2589359 pounds in FREAKING 3 weeks?!?! KILL ME NOW. I know, it takes time, and I talk about it a lot, but holy shit… I STOPPED looking at the scale because I just get miserable and think, oh, I can’t do it, yada yada yada…. it’s the worst mind F you’ve ever had…

    Number 4) Don’t get rid of carbs…!!!!?!?!?!?!!? DUDE, do you want to become the biggest bitch in the world? if you said yes, then take away carbs HAHAHA.. if you said No… please DON’T get rid of the damn carbs. Yeah, bad carbs, get rid of those – get rid of the grains/potatoes all that crap – I’m not saying you should keep eating french fries, because they are carbs and you need to keep eating them HAHAHA (although……… french fries are great, RIGHT?) no, I’m talking about the good carbs from veggies/fruits/quinoa… those types of carbs… keep that crap ok!

    Number 5) Don’t get a spray tan. I know this has NOTHING to do with working out, but I got a spray tan yesterday and I look very unnatural.. so I wanted to throw that in there HAHA.

    Number 6) Don’t compare yourself to someone else losing weight… Everyone loses weight differently. For me, it takes 10x longer than others… Like my friend Ashley, she is DOING AMAZING losing weight… she looks FAB. and I wish I could lose it as fast as her, but you know what, we are different, she’s more disciplined, and seems to be able to lose it quicker… and that’s ok – the best thing I can do is support her and push her, but for me, I can’t compare my weight loss to hers because again, I just get discouraged… I can’t think, well, Ashely is getting smaller, faster, why aren’t i????

    Number 7) DONT DRINK EVERYDAY…. ok – listen – I used to be a booze hound, but you can’t anymore… YOU JUST CAN’T – PUT DOWN THE VINO AND GET ON THE TREADMILL IM TELLING YA! That shit will catch up – sure, enjoy yourself every once and a while, but I’m learning, and the hard way… you won’t reach your goals if you are throwing down every night… or EVEN every weekend – keep it simple, keep to spanish red wine if you MUST drink… (and also maybe talk to someone? hahaha) I’m telling you, the minute you put down the booze, you will see a drop, and fast…

    Fashion designer Valentino Garavani spend the day in Portofino (genova), Italy.Ok that’s it for now, there are so many more but I’m not going to bore you. I have engagement photos this weekend, I’m going to look like an oompa loompa but it’s ok – it should still be amazing!!!!!

    Screen Shot 2013-03-28 at 10.31.11 AMOne last note…. I got my  first “Did Not Finish” last night in our CrossFit workout…. the workout is below, it was basically hell – and the deadlift weight…… well yeah, since I’m 200lbs, I had to lift 250 pounds… talk about heart attack, and literally. I did a few lifts, had to go down in weight, and then started feeling some serious stress in my chest – feeling like I was going to have a heart attack, and I started freaking out. Every time I lifted that damn bar, i was like OWWWWW OWWWW ugh.. it sucked… I even went down to like HALF of the weight I was supposed to be doing and it hurt… eventually my coach told me to stop, that my health was more important than finishing a workout. But you know what, it’s about pride… normally I can make it through the pain, but I wanted to die…. die to the point where I couldn’t finish my workout… Do you know how bad that sucks? Yeah, sure, I burned a lot of calories, doing the first workout, but I don’t know, I have too much pride to quit on a workout and I quit yesterday… I’m getting stronger, but I’m also learning that my muscles need a break sometime and when we go hard for 5 days straight… im dead, and when I’m feeling chest pains, I need to stop.

  • My site has been down! BOOO

    so my site has been down, for a few days now, but it’s back… and I lost a ton of posts… I will write them again and post them, but till then, get 20% off anything in the store… ILIKEMYFRIENDS20 for 20% off!

  • The up's and downs of losing weight for CLOTHES!

    SIZE 16


    UGHHHH Talk about frustration…… so I am in this wedding, and soon, and of course I get my bridesmaids dress….. size 16 in jcrew, and does it fit??? NOPE OF COURSE NOT WHY WOULD IT??? It like won’t even close… I am going to have to have my seamstress like add a backing or something so that it can close for this wedding – because no matter what I do, I probably won’t be able to close it by then – it fits everywhere else, but my muscles are getting in the way… ARRRGGG…. But I just bought a dress from H&M in a 14 and its PERFECT… UGHHHH WHAT AM I GOING TO DO HOW DO YOU WIN?!??!? Let’s not EVEN get into what size they ordered for my wedding dress… I don’t even want to go there, probably in a freaking FREAKING 20’s… UGHHHH this is the hardest part about working out, this stupidddddd stupid clothes thing.

    H&M Dress for this weekend that fits AMAZINGLY

    H&M Dress for this weekend that fits AMAZINGLY

    Like I get it, it’s exciting when you can fit into a smaller size pants, or dress, or top, and its amazing, I LOVE IT, and those are some great feelings and accomplishments, but then these, these knock you back down a notch. The funny thing for me too is that for this wedding, I WAITED to buy my dress to lose weight… I can’t even imagine what I would have done if I never lost any weight.. I probably wouldn’t have been able to even GET in the dress… so thats a blessing in disguise, I GUESSSSSSS.

    HAHAA so I don’t know, but this song came on the radio and I just love singing it and knowing, hey, I’ve got back, and I don’t care, and those rap guys’ like me —– SING IT WITH ME NOW:


    Oh, my, god. Becky, look at her butt.
    It is so big. [scoff] She looks like,
    one of those rap guys’ girlfriends.
    But, you know, who understands those rap guys? *scoff*
    They only talk to her, because,
    she looks like a total prostitute, ‘kay?
    I mean, her butt, is just so big.
    I can’t believe it’s just so round, it’s like,
    out there, I mean – gross. Look!
    She’s just so … black!

    I like big butts and I can not lie
    You other brothers can’t deny
    That when a girl walks in with an itty bitty waist
    And a round thing in your face
    You get sprung, wanna pull out your tough
    ‘Cause you notice that butt was stuffed
    Deep in the jeans she’s wearing
    I’m hooked and I can’t stop staring
    Oh baby, I wanna get with you
    And take your picture

    Baby got back!

    Yeah, baby … when it comes to females, Cosmo ain’t got nothin’
    to do with my selection. 36-24-36? Ha ha, only if she’s 5’3″.

    So your girlfriend rolls a Honda, playin’ workout tapes by Fonda
    But Fonda ain’t got a motor in the back of her Honda
    My anaconda don’t want none
    Unless you’ve got buns, hun
    You can do side bends or sit-ups,
    But please don’t lose that butt

    Alright… on a last note, I’m up in NYC for the weekend, and I was like, what am I going to do to workout? And I found this great article about a Do-Anywhere CrossFit workout… so yeah, guess what I’m doing this weekend?

    crossfitworkout-anywhereThe Do-Anywhere CrossFit Workout

    No time? No equipment? No space? No problem. This travel-friendly, CrossFit-inspired workout will blast fat and sculpt muscle in minutes. No excuses!
    Vacations generally present a number of fitness obstacles, and summer ones are no exception. For starters, there never seems to be enough room in your suitcase for bulky running shoes and the five pairs of wedges you just have to bring. Plus, it’s way too beautiful outside to be holed up in a gym (never mind a tiny hotel room), and your itinerary is jam-packed (you know, with all that poolside lounging).

    But now is so not the time to slack off. This CrossFit-inspired workout, created by Nathan Forster and Michael Alfaro, co-owners of Reebok CrossFit 5th Avenue in New York City, will keep you on track. For the uninitiated, this uberpopular fitness program runs you through a series of functional exercises at an intense pace. Translation: You build muscle and torch megacalories in under 20 minutes. This versatile workout requires no equipment and only a few feet of space, so your makeshift gym can be a hotel room, a park, or even the beach.

    6 Moves, 4 Workouts!
    For CrossFit followers, each day is a new adventure, thanks to the program’s signature Workout of the Day routines (WOD), which change up the moves and reps. This helps guarantee results because your body is in a constant state of guesswork; adapting to a set routine is what stalls progress, says Forster. Using the six CrossFit exercises (at right), mix and match the four workouts below. Do three or four sessions a week. It doesn’t matter which workouts you pick; just keep the pace fast and the effort hard.

    Total Time
    Do 10 reps of each exercise, moving from one to the next without resting. Complete as many rounds as possible in 15 minutes.
    EXERCISE ORDER: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6

    Total Countdown
    Complete 60 reps of the first move, 50 of the second, 40 of the third, and so on, until you’ve worked down to 10 reps of the last exercise.
    EXERCISE ORDER: 2, 1, 6, 5, 4, 3

    Total Rounds
    Do 12 reps of each exercise, moving from one to the next without rest. Complete five rounds and note how long it takes you to finish. Aim to do the workout faster next time.
    EXERCISE ORDER: 3, 4, 5, 2, 6, 1

    Total Reps
    Complete as many reps as you can of each move in one minute each, moving from one exercise to the next without stopping. Rest one minute, then repeat the entire sequence two more times. Keep track of your total rep count (e.g., if you finish 20 lunge hops, start counting pushups at 21). Try to beat your grand total next time.
    EXERCISE ORDER: 5, 6, 2, 3, 1, 4

    Oh and last thing, a yummy recipe from Dashing Dish!!!

    thai-chicken-pizza-mainPersonal Thai Chicken Pizza


    1 Whole Grain Pita or Tortilla (I like Joseph’s Pitas OR La Tortilla Wraps)
    1/4 cup (2 oz) Cooked chicken, shredded
    1/4 cup Mozzarella cheese, shredded
    1 tbs Sliced green onions
    Optional Toppings: Coarsely chopped cilantro, peanuts roughly chopped, Sriracha (if you like spicy food)
    Peanut Sauce:
    3 tbs Peanut flour (or PB2) + 2 tbs water 1
    1/2 tsp Rice wine vinegar
    1/2 tsp Soy sauce (I use reduced sodium)
    1-2 pkts Stevia (or 1/2 tsp baking stevia or 1 tsp sweetener of choice)

    Nutrition Breakdown

    1 Pizza
    With Peanut Flour Sauce:
    298 Calories
    8.5 g Fat
    18 g Carbohydrate
    12 g Fiber
    1 g Sugar
    45 g Protein
    434 mg Sodium

    Withe Peanut Butter Sauce:
    418 Calories
    21 g Fat
    24 g Carbohydrate
    14 g Fiber
    1 g Sugar
    36 g Protein
    469 mg Sodium
    8 / 9 WWP+*
    *Weight Watchers Points per serving

    Here’s the Dish

    Have you ever been in the mood for takeout food, but you can’t decide what to order?!? Wait…before you answer that question…Put down the phone! This personal pan pizza is the best of both worlds…Pizza and Thai food, and what’s even more amazing is that it is less than 420 calories and packed with fiber and protein to keep you satisfied! Now show me a takeout meal that can do that!

    This spin on the traditional personal pizza with marinara and cheese may just be your new favorite way to enjoy a quick and healthy meal that is ready before you could even place a takeout order!



    1. Preheat oven to 450 degrees. Line a sheet pan with foil for easy clean up. Spray with non-stick cooking spray. Place tortilla on baking sheet.

    2. In a small bowl, whisk together ingredients for the peanut sauce.

    3. Spread 3/4 of the peanut sauce mixture on the pita/wrap, leaving a 1/2-inch edge. (Save the remainder of the sauce to drizzle on top of the pizza once it has come out of the oven.) Sprinkle the shredded chicken on top, followed by the mozzarella cheese.

    4. Bake for 12-15 minutes, or until cheese is melted. (I check the pizza about 1/2 way through cooking and cover edges of crust with foil so they don’t burn!)

    5. Remove from the oven and top with green onions, cilantro, and chopped peanuts if desired. Drizzle any leftover peanut sauce on top and serve immediately!

  • Don't be mad because I launched Crossfit shirts. Please.

    photo 2 (13)OMG FIRST – i ate one of the sandwiches I talked about on Monday… it TASTED amazing! even after being in the fridge…. I’m going to do that every week now!!!


    I feel like I’m going to get a lot of criticism from people for launching my new line of shirts….. They are more hardcore, they are more driven towards the people already working out and enjoying it.. and you know what, I think it’s great… because now I’m getting to the place where now I need more motivation – not motivation to GET ME into the gym, but to STAY in the gym… CrossFit is now a big part of my life and heck, I would love to cater to those hardcore crazy bitches too! What I like about that type of workout (I’m going to call it that because I feel like people don’t like crossfit or think I’m part of some crazy cult”, but it’s not true… what I LIKE about that type of workout is the intensity, and the teamwork – so yeah, I’m at that point in my journey, like I talk about a lot of times, where shit, I am working out, and now I want to workout harder… I will only lose weight and be the weight I want to be if I don’t give up…. UGH (that’s the biggest struggle) So yes, I started a crossfit line along with my inspiration/motivation line because EVERYONE should be going to the gym, and no matter what the saying on their shirt is, if it’s about starting, or kicking someone’s ass, you should all be represented! So don’t kill me everyone…



    WOULDN'T YOU WANT TO TRAIN WITH ME??? and baileys NOT so awesome haircut?

    WOULDN’T YOU WANT TO TRAIN WITH ME??? and baileys NOT so awesome haircut?

    I figured out last night that I think I’m gonna go out for my personal training cert. I really realized that I love people, I love to help people, I love to motivate them and I would love to push them. I think my ultimate goal one day would be to have a crossfit gym for women, women of all sizes, levels, strength. A place where people wouldn’t feel intimidated by trying a workout and seeing if it was for them. I love crossfit don’t get me wrong but I feel like when I started I was scared. I was like what he hell is this hardcore sport I’m trying and how would I ever get through a workout. But once I tried it I just wanted to keep going. I think everyone should try it. Especially if you like motivation. Maybe it’s just me and maybe it’s because id rather be in that type of atmosphere instead of a sport and health where I’m running next to some size 0 bitty with her booty shorts on and I’ve got a dude the size of hulk hogan on my other side trying to check her out. I just feel like women should feel comfortable working out. I never did till now and till I got to my gym but I feel like I was an exception. Even at my gym you don’t see any super heavy people trying to lose weight and I’m sure it’s because they’re scared and intimidated. I mean how can you be intimidated by this face. I would love people of all sizes at my gym, because it’s not about your size, it’s about your heart! 🙂


  • Serious girl crush Tuesday… Hannah Simone, I love you!

    LESSSSSBIIIIHONEST… Cece from New Girl, totally smokin… and yeah, I don’t swing that way, but if I was a dude…. I would be knocking down her door! 🙂 hahaha… SO I see on instagram sometimes, Girl Crush Tuesday??? Who knows, the teens are doing it – so I thought I would talk about this great article I read about Cece the other day… (Hannah Simone).

    hannahsimoneIf you don’t know who she is, she’s the hottie in the blue dress to the left. Yes, I am going to keep talking as if I am a dude and I love her HAHAHA…. I want to look like her – I want curves and I want to rock a blue gala dress and show them off!!! Anyways, she was recently interviewed and she came out and said, “Curvy is just a polite way of saying fat. And I’m not,” “Curvy and voluptuous—that one also got dragged through the mud, that poor word. It really just means a woman with breasts. [But] I’m confident with my body.”

    Simone, who has occasionally been called “curvy,” “shapely” and “curvaceous” (but more often “sexy” and “stunning”) in articles and blogs, is not the first to object to being referred to with euphemisms for “fat.” Says the article… and I LOVE THIS. Because you know what, first of all, she isn’t even close to being obese or overweight or even fat for that matter, and second of all, she’s got boobs, and curves, and isn’t some twig like most other hollywood actresses these days… she honestly looks like she could benchpress the shit out of you. That being said, this is the PROBLEM with the world… If people are judging her, or making digs, or just saying things to her like she’s curvy, shapely and voluptuous, that’s just wrong. Why is it that people think that the perfect size for a body has to be a 0, no chest and an itty bitty waist? Why not a size 8, with some boobies, and a booty?!?!? Why can’t that “rap guys girlfriend” be the perfect size anymore? (oh how I love baby got back…)

    The article goes on to say this:

    Later, the actor reportedly said, “I think calling me full-figured is just rude.”

    Such terms have been exceedingly popular lately, being used to call out celebs like Kate Upton, Lena Dunham, Christina Aguilera, Kate Winslet and Lady Gaga for not fitting the super-skinny Hollywood mold. While the descriptions have sometimes been congratulatory, employed to thank women for being real-looking role models to young women everywhere, they’re more often underhanded compliments—or even straight-up put-downs—used to undermine a not-quite-skinny-enough beauty.

    “Have we gotten so riven by self-hatred in this country that even Kate Upton’s body can still be subjected to this nastiest and most personal of public critiques?” asked Jezebel in a July post that took the website SkinnyGossip to task for calling Upton fat. “Upton is basically the epitome of curvy, blonde beauty as it’s valued in the U.S. today. Hers is a look that ticks every box.…She’s been on the cover of Sports Illustrated: Swimsuit Edition, she’s been in Vogue and Harper’s Bazaar, she’s been the face of Guess…Her body is ‘perfect’ — by every conventional standard. If Kate f—ing Upton’s thighs are not immune from public dissection, then who is?”

    Still, it’s refreshing to see celebrity women with bodies that resemble our own and our best friends’ way more than those of a runway model—and therefore hard, sometimes, for media types (yes, even us) not to mention.

    I agree… being able to watch a TV show, movie, or even a concert where the main female act isn’t a runway model or a size 0, let’s you relate more, and honestly for me, it doesn’t make me feel like I’ve got to be some stick… it makes me feel like you know what, she’s got a waist, so can I… It’s sad that hollywood is all about making stories out of the way people look, and the size they are, and if they gain/lose weight…. (well MINUS JESSICA SIMPSON BECAUSE WE ALL KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT HER) but why can’t hollywood stop talking about these chicks the way they do, and just call them normal?

    I found this great article yesterday too about CrossFit and how ANYONE can do it – and I’m going to write about that tomorrow, but for now, this morning I did some fun cooking… I went ahead and while I was cooking my breakfast sandwich, I made some for the rest of the week! Here’s the info!


    photo 1What you will need: 

    4 Turkey Sausage Patties or 8 Turkey Bacon Slices
    4 Organic Cheese Slices (or Rice Cheese)
    1 Egg – 3 Egg Whites
    4 Van’s Whole Grains English Muffins OR 4 Glutino Gluten Free English Muffins 

    (and a mug that has Mickey Mouse reminding you that you make someone smile out there.. .HAHA I NEED ALL THE GOOD COMPLIMENTS I CAN GET EVEN IF ITS FROM A MUG! hahaha) and DUDES these gluten free muffins look like donuts, they are HUGE compared to the other muffins…. so you might want to shave some of that excess muffin off!

    So since I’m trying to ween myself off of gluten, this morning I did half and half, I did 2 sandwiches with the gluten free muffins and 2 sandwiches with the van’s!

    Ok so step one – and I did this all in 10 minutes so it was nice and easy.

    photo 3Step 1:
    Whip out your pan, grease it up (PAM) and then throw in the 4 sausages…

    Step 2: 
    While they are heating up, scramble your 3 egg whites and 1 egg, also, have your muffins defrosting in the microwave.

    photo 4Step 3: 
    Get out a baking sheet – throw the muffins on the sheet, cut in half, put the cheese on one side. Now I like to fold my cheese corners in, because I don’t like when they stick out and then when you microwave them they are all sorts of gooey down the sides and stuff, so stuff that cheese in! HAHAHA (and don’t forget to throw your dog a small piece of cheese hahahaha)

    Step 4: 
    Take your cooked sausages off, throw your eggs in. The pan will be hot from the sausage cooking, so the eggs will cook pretty quick.

    photo 1Step 5: 
    Once the eggs are done, take a glass, a cookie cutter, whatever you want, to make a circle, cut out 4 circles from the pan, and then throw it on the muffin.

    photo 3Step 6:
    Wrap those suckers up and then BAM you’ve got breakfast for this morning, and for the rest of the week! Pretty neat!!!

    So I ate the gluten free one this morning, it wasn’t bad at all – but I can already feel the withdrawal happening… how horrible is that! haha

    Alright, time to work, time to cook and time to let my dog bailey play because she looks sad that she didn’t get to eat any breakfast sandwiches this morning! hahahah

    photo 5

  • A public service announcement: I'm only human, and get out of my life, fake friends.


    I’ve got a lot to say today hahaha – I’M SO FREAKING SICK OF PEOPLE being mad at me because I choose the gym over going out. Dudes, I don’t want to be your friend then if you can’t support me and trying to lose weight. Also – in the great words of Mr.Chow from Hangover… suck on thessssseeeeee chinese NUTS.

    Yes, ok, sure, this weekend, what did I do? Go OUT. But you know what – it was 60 degrees, St. Patty’s day, and I hadn’t gone out in a long time… ALSO the people I went out with were the best, so I wasn’t going to pass that up… SO yes, I still go out, but not as hard or as often as I used to. Back in the day, I would be the one people would call if they wanted to throw back a 12 rack on a Tuesday afternoon – well HOW DO YOU THINK I GOT SO DAMN FAT! Yeah, drinking almost everyday and eating fried CHEESE will do that to you… But listen, I was having fun, didn’t care about what I looked like, or felt like, I’m pretty sure I could have had a heart attack at the ripe age of 25 hahahaha, but it’s different now! IT’S TOTALLY DIFFERENT SO SUPPORT IT OR GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY LIFE! (sorry for the cursing but it’s true HAHA). If you can’t support me for trying to better myself, then what are you doing here? I would ask the same thing if I still partying my ass off – hahaha if you didn’t like me partying, then get the hell out, this is the same thing, I’m just doing something HEALTHY!

    out on friday night for betsy and katie's surprise bday party!!! see I can even have fun 2 nights in a row!!!

    out on friday night for betsy and katie’s surprise bday party!!! see I can even have fun 2 nights in a row!!!

    Dudes, like I FREAKING LOVE working out – its my new obsession, and I’m sorry if my new obsession isn’t going out and doing hard core drinking olympics for 16 hours in a day…… I’m so sorry to DISAPPOINT YOU. OH SHIT, let me get off topic here for a minute…. THAT WORD. I SWEAR TO YOU, that DAMN word, DISAPPOINTED, DISAPPOINTMENT, DISAPPOINT-ANYTHING, is the worst WORST word in the english language… It’s honestly worst then the SEE YOU NEXT TUESDAY word… and we ALL know how bad that word is. I heard it twice on Friday and I was ready to throw bows… Hey, it’s a great word to get me to kill a workout though hahahaha – but no, seriously… I don’t know where that word is EVER a good word to be used… My father used to say it to me all the time – I’m disappointed in your grades, I’m disappointed in how you did in tonights basketball game, I’m disappointed that you are still eating shit, I’m disappointed you don’t have your life together, I’m disappointed that you haven’t lost weight yet…. Yeah… daddy issues much? I know. Anyways… that word, it’s just the biggest stab in gut word anyone can say. They could even be complimenting you, saying something like “omg did you an amazing job today doing whatever it is you are doing, but I’m disappointed that you didn’t do it faster.” anything.. honestly. anything… so with me, tell me your mad, tell me you think i could have done better, tell me that you want to punch me in the face, but don’t use that word around me unless you want an insta-cry.

    photo (27)

    and then again out saturday night!

    Anyways, back to this weekend. It was funny because at one point I was having a conversation with Jenny about how I was OK with where I am at now, I’m ok with the loss of 40lbs, and my results, and that I’m 100% committed to my gym, and my team, but its the diet… it’s the diet that’s the hardest part… and I was convinced in talking to Jenny, that you know what, I don’t even care anymore about losing weight.. It’s all about being healthy and happy and getting that workout in… and I was ok, i was still going to eat healthy but I wasn’t going to go to the extreme and cut out the dairy, the booze, the gluten.. i wasn’t going to do it – I wasn’t going to torture myself (that’s my idea of a serious torture right there)…… but then as I was sitting there and I started talking to Brian… I was like you know what, no, I’m not content yet… I still want to drop more pounds, I still want to work out, and I still want to eat right… but man, it’s so hard. I just love me some milk and cheese and some damn BREAD! hahaha. but that goes back to, how bad do you want it? Right?

    photo (26)As i was drunk on saturday night (yes, I’ll say it, I was drunk… but I’m HUMAN, and sometimes, going out and having a good time isn’t the end of the world) I just sat there thinking about where I could be in 6 months… and how I shouldn’t give up, or stay consistent… I need to get my diet right. and I need your HELP! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GET MY DIET RIGHT WITH THESE AMAZING WAFFLES IN THE AISLE OF WEGMANS??!?!!? COMEEEE ON MAN!


  • I didn't WEAR TANK TOPS!!!!!

    Shot 1_10403-editedHAHAHA… what is that all about you ask? Well – some of you know me, some of you don’t. And for the ones who do know me, I’m that girl that wears about 5 tank tops under every top I’m wearing… I even wear 5 tank tops under a tank top in the summer! Yeah, I’m that girl… I mean I REALLY HATE THE JIGGLE. So anyways…. This morning, not even thinking about it, I threw on a sweater and a pair of leggings to run to the store quick to pick up my breakfast food and whattttta you know? I didn’t have ANY TANK TOPS ON UNDER MY SWEATER and I felt GOOD! That’s a huge step for me HAHAHAHA… you would never think that not wearing a tank top under my clothes would be something that I was excited about, but honestly, it should have probably been one of my goals… I’m starting to get to a place where I feel like I can rock a shirt without a tank top (or 20) under it, and I LOVE IT! I mean, I’m not even kidding when I say I wear tank tops under dresses, under like suits, under bathing suits (ok that’s not true but I probably would if I could)….. you name it, I wear it with a tank. And they aren’t even cute tanks HAHAHA… they are just comfortable tanks. They are like my fat tummy security blanket…. you’ve got a security blanket, I’ve got a security wrap around my belly HAHAHA… it’s hilarious to me that I’m so obsessed with these damn tank tops and how i have to wear a million of them, and flying free without a tank top is like the end of the world for me…. I could literally go on and on and on about this… because it’s just my life, but I will stop now 🙂  (im pretty sure i only had like 4 on in the pic on the left (you can’t see but they are there HAHAHA))

    YogaYou know what I thought a really neat idea would be?? When someone gets engaged and they want to SERIOUSLY lose weight (I mean I know people that get engaged and are just like gotta fit in that dress, which is totally fine) but I’m talking about people who need/want to lose like 50-100lbs (like me), you throw them a workout shower… so maybe this person needs motivation or encouragement or something, or maybe they won’t be having a traditional shower… so maybe instead of waiting till a month before the wedding, throw them a workout shower – so everyone gets them gifts like workout clothes, or sneakers, or makes them cute motivational things, gets them water bottles, I don’t know – stuff that would pertain to working out that would get that person in gear… and maybe it would motivate them more because they would feel like they just got a ton of gifts from people trying to help them to get motivated! My friend Tessa went to another friend of mine (and a big motivator of mines) Birthday party this weekend and she said everyone was getting her workout stuff! Because she’s on her own workout journey and everyone knew that… I think that is just so neat…. why not get them stuff the will use instead of plates and pots and pans!!!??? I don’t know, just a thought.

    I just want to say, man I wish that you could hop on the scale and have lost like 2 pounds each day… wouldn’t that be great? Wouldn’t that be a motivator? I need to figure out ways to get motivated… I won’t get on the scale, posting that picture of my progress def motivated me, but you know, what’s that thing that will just motivate me on a daily basis??? I don’t know.. but I need to figure it out…

    stronger than your excusesOne more thing – someone suggested this shirt the other day and we just launched it on the website.. it’s great, because it’s true… You have to be stronger than your excuses… you can’t give up… You’ve gotta do everything in your power to not let the excuses win….

    Ok so I know that some of the recipe’s I post might not be the healthiest of recipes, but for me, being able to find an alternative to something that is super UNHEALTHY works for me – so today, again, found this online – it’s talking about Creating the Perfect Milkshake… now I’m not saying, hey go have milkshakes everyday, they are good for you haha I’m just simply saying, maybe instead of having a crappy milkshake, make this instead…..



    Rule #1: Build a Better Base

    Most shakes start out with a high-fat, high-sugar base, either in the form of lackluster ice cream or the dreaded “dairy base,” an amalgam of strange sweeteners, thickeners, and stabilizers. You’ll save hundreds of calories simply by switching to frozen yogurt, or sticking with a reliable low-calorie ice cream brand, such as Breyers All Natural. More than that, you’ll have a milk shake that is every bit like a shake was in the 1950s, back when they were made with just ice cream and milk. (Today, places such as Baskin-Robbins use 50 ingredients in some of their most diabolical concoctions.)

    Rule #2 : Master the mix

    Milk shakes fail because most are made from 90 percent ice cream (or from an ice cream-like substance) concentrated in a drinkable form. Find other ways to stretch the shake and lighten the caloric load. Frozen fruit, 100 percent juice, ice, Greek yogurt: All will help you get more mileage out of your milk shake. Ultimately, you want no more than 1 cup of ice cream or frozen yogurt in your shake, and, to ensure the right consistency, no more than a half-cup of liquid. Also, it’s essential to have a strong blender. A weak one will melt the ice cream and make for a watery milk shake.

    Rule #3: Skip the Sweeteners

    Ice cream and frozen yogurt are sweet enough, so no need to grab for sugar or honey or anything else that will boost calories any higher than they already are. That also means go light on the cookies and cut out the candy bars. If there’s one thing all of the worst shakes  have in common, it’s the inclusion of nougat-laced candy bars and cream-filled cookies. Want a cookies and cream shake? Skip the Oreos and use cookies and cream ice cream instead. Three Oreos will cost you 140 calories, but an upgrade from vanilla to cookies and cream ice cream should run you no more than 30.


    Rule #4: Sneak in Some Nutrition

    just because it’s dessert doesn’t mean you can’t conjure up some benefits in that frosty glass. The easiest way is to turn to the frozen banana: Not only does it add natural sweetness and a serving of fruit, but the frozen fruit also gives the milk shake a rich, creamy body and will help you cut back from the total ice cream allotment. The texture of frozen mango and peach chunks both pair beautifully with ice cream and fro-yo as well. Even the smaller flavor add-ins can be relatively healthy. Peanut butter, fresh mint, and almonds all qualify.


  • Oh you know how I feel about celebs and weight loss and 15 BEST RECIPES FOR WEIGHT LOSS!

    photo (22)So I was walking through the grocery store on Sunday when I couldn’t help but stop to notice someone on the cover….. It’s good old snooki…. Jersey shore’s most famous drunkard. Now if you you are my friend, you would know how much I really  can’t stand the Jersey Shore and how we’ve made them super rich by watching their horrible drunk-in-public-24-7 tv show on MTV. I actually thought it was pretty funny that she got pregnant, not being careful, because she had to take a step back from her trashy self and become and adult FINALLY… Anyways…. (I know, that was mean, but dude’s, she’s horrible! Give me an awesome orange tan, a 24 hour supply of booze, and I can be just as trashy, entertaining, and obnoxious as her). I saw her on this cover.. my first reaction was, what’s UP photoshop… Her head and body ratio don’t even match… this cover makes her look like a midget! My biggest problem with celebs on covers of magazines talking about their so-called “weight-loss” is that the way they have achieved this weight loss is either, fake, the wrong way, anorexia, or just flat out being able to not work, and workout the whole damn day… Now in her case, I read the article, she says “oh yeah, I work out 4 times a day and I lost 42 pounds in 6 weeks.” REALLY? oh REALLY? Ok what else did you do? I mean, I understand you lose more calories breast feeding, but not 42 pounds WORTH! and plus, if she was so skinny now, she wouldn’t be hiding her arm, and her legs wouldn’t be so photoshopped. HAHA… OH and I LOVE the mug shot on the bottom left… Good for her if she’s brought herself from that crazy shore kid to what she is today, because it’s totally an improvement, and I see her color has moved from orange to a nice medium skin-tone… but yeah, anyone will look skinnier with a picture of them from 6 years ago.

    MjAxMi04NzU0MjFkNGVmMGRjNDQxIt just annoys me that the tabloids always want to highlight celebs successes when we ALL KNOW we can never get that way in that amount of time, unless we are rich and have our whole day and life to devote to weight loss. She also says “oh it wasn’t that hard” ok so that tells me, you were def doing something else… if it’s not that hard, then you aren’t working hard enough and you are losing weight some other way… Yeah ok, you can make a case for the fact that you are a “celeb” and our society makes it so that you MUST be skinny, but that’s most certainly not true.. first of all, you are a D list celeb, and second, look at my girl Melissa McCarthy, she’s her happy large size and isn’t changing unless SHE wants to, not to make hollywood happy. If snooki is this skinny and happy, tell me how she did it and show me a video of her looking this way, because my guess is that US weekly’s graphic designers had to do some work to make this cover story look legit. How about you put me on the cover, sure you won’t sell any, but it will be real……

    Another thing I came across this week when my friend Carl emailed it to me, was this article called “Don’t tell me to love my body”  In short it’s a whole article about this women who is getting annoyed by people telling her to love her body no matter what. It’s actually kind of amazing… I would have written the same exact thing. One part of it that stood out was this:

    “Stop telling women that we should find ourselves beautiful and that we should love ourselves when you are standing right there, judging us on how our knees look in short skirts and how prominent our boobs are in a sweater and how much makeup we are or are not wearing.”

    It’s true… you’ve got all these people, celebs, whatever they might be, telling us no matter what, you should find yourself beautiful… and yeah, I get it, I want to feel beautiful, i want to believe it, and as much as I write about loving my body, at the same time I don’t and I won’t, not for a long time… this women lost 100 lbs and still doesn’t love her body, in fact she loves it even less because of the way she looks with all her excess skin because of the weight loss… I don’t know, what I would say is read the article, it might be harsh, but this is how people think about their bodies, and think about other people telling them to love themselves no matter what… I’m sure even my 70 year old grandma doesn’t love her body, and she’s the most amazing, loving women I know… this weekend dress shopping, she did exactly what I did, didn’t want to try anything on because she didn’t want the heart ache or discouragement about something looking bad, or not fitting. So I think this article is right on spot.



    043641_WaffleHamEgg2_315. Waffles with Ham and Egg:

    270 calories , 11 g fat (3.5 g saturated), 890 mg sodium
    Waffle and pancake plates are bad enough at most restaurants and diners, but throw in a side of eggs and breakfast meats and you’re bound to start your day with the caloric equivalent of a triple cheeseburger. We’ve made our own version of Denny’s superpopular (and supercaloric) Slam by building an open-faced sandwich with a toasted waffle. The ingredients may sound like a strange combination, but the flavors are nicely balanced, the portion size is perfect, and the nutritional profile is just what you want for the most important meal of the day.

    You’ll Need:
    4 thick slices Canadian bacon or deli ham
    4 eggs
    4 frozen wholegrain waffles
    2 Tbsp maple syrup
    4 Tbsp shredded sharp Cheddar cheese
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    Parsley (optional)

    How to Make It:
    * Heat a nonstick skillet or saute pan over medium heat. Coat with a bit of olive oil cooking spray and cook the Canadian bacon for a few minutes on each side, until well browned. Remove. Coat the same pan with a bit more spray and cook the eggs (2 at a time, if you must; avoid overcrowding the pan) sunny side up until the whites have set but the yolks are still runny.

    * In the meantime, toast the waffles. Top each toasted waffle with a slice of meat, a drizzle of maple syrup, a sprinkle of Cheddar, and the warm fried eggs. Season with salt and pepper and sprinkle with parsley (if using).

    043641_ChxBeanNachos14. Nachos with Chicken and Black Beans:

    330 calories, 12 g fat (6 g saturated), 500 mg sodium
    We’ve never found a nacho worth recommending in the restaurant world. The sad truth is that the tortilla chips are rendered a helpless vessel for thousands of calories of cheese, sour cream, and oily ground beef. And besides, who wants to dig through soggy nacho detritus in search of a chip crisp enough to bring from plate to mouth? This version ensures that every chip is evenly covered with protein-packed chicken and fiber-rich beans, plus enough salsa and lime-spiked sour cream to keep your mouth watering.

    You’ll Need:
    6 oz tortilla chips (round chips are preferable)
    1 can (16 oz) black beans, rinsed and drained
    1 1/2 cups shredded Monterey Jack cheese
    1 cup cooked chicken, shredded
    1/2 red onion, diced
    Juice of 2 limes
    1/2 cup light sour cream
    Chopped cilantro Salsa (either fresh or your favorite bottled salsa)
    Pickled Jalapenos

    How to Make It:
    * Preheat the oven to 425°F. Arrange the chips in a single layer on a large baking sheet. Spoon the beans evenly over the chips, then top with the cheese, chicken, and onion. Bake for 15 to 20 minutes, until the cheese is fully melted and bubbling. Remove.

    * Combine the lime juice, sour cream, and cilantro. Spoon over the nachos. Top with the salsa and jalapenos.

    043641_ChickenFingers13. Chicken Fingers with Chipotle-Honey:

    250 calories , 1.5 g fat (0 g saturated) , 350 mg sodium

    Whether shaped like nuggets, stars, crowns, or fingers, deep-fried chicken bites do a major disservice to one of the planet’s best sources of protein. Let the restaurant coat it in one of their special sauces and you could be downing nearly a full day’s worth of calories on a food designed for children. In fact, Chili’s popular Crispers pack in more calories than a dozen Fresco Beef Tacos from Taco Bell and more sodium than 24 small bags of Lay’s potato chips. Make the switch to this oven-fried version once a week and you’ll shed 25 pounds (and cut out 210,080 milligrams of sodium) in a year.

    You’ll Need:
    1 lb boneless, skinless chicken tenders
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    3 egg whites, lightly beaten
    2 cups panko bread crumbs
    2 Tbsp Dijon mustard
    1 tsp chipotle pepper puree
    1 Tbsp honey

    How to Make It:
    * Preheat the oven to 450°F. Season the chicken with salt and pepper. Place the egg whites in a shallow bowl. Place the crumbs on a plate and season those, too. Dip the chicken tenders into the egg, then toss in the crumbs, being sure to coat fully.

    * Place the breaded chicken pieces on a baking sheet coated with nonstick cooking spray and bake for 10 to 12 minutes, until the crumbs have browned and the chicken is firm.

    * Combine the mustard, chipotle, and honey in a large bowl. Toss the cooked chicken tenders in the mixture so they are all evenly coated with the spicy-sweet sauce.

    043641_PotatoSkins12. Spicy Potato Skins:

    310 calories, 11 g fat (5 g saturated), 490 mg sodium

    In 1974, T.G.I. Friday’s gave birth to the potato skin. That timeworn combination of potato, Cheddar, and bacon has since made its rounds across the menus of America, infiltrating nearly every pocket of this country with hypercaloric, frighteningly fatty facsimiles. We’ll take this version—true to the original but with a few delicious twists—any day.

    You’ll Need:
    4 small russet potatoes Olive oil Salt and black pepper to taste
    1 cup 2% milk
    2 Tbsp butter
    1/2 cup shredded sharp Cheddar cheese, plus more for garnish
    4 scallions, chopped, plus more for garnish
    1/2 Tbsp minced chipotle pepper
    1/4 cup sour cream
    6 strips bacon, cooked and crumbled
    Pickled Jalapenos, optional

    How to Make It:
    * Preheat the oven to 400°F. Rub the potatoes with a bit of olive oil and lightly salt the skins. Bake for 35 to 40 minutes, until tender.

    * Cut the potatoes in half and, when cool enough to handle, carefully scoop out the warm flesh into a bowl (leave a thin layer of potato intact around the skin to help prevent it from tearing). Add the milk, butter, cheese, and scallions and stir with a wooden spoon until smooth. Season with salt and pepper.

    * Preheat the broiler. Carefully scoop the mashed potatoes into the hollowed-out potato halves. Top with a bit of extra cheese and place under the broiler until the tops are brown and crispy, 3 to 5 minutes.

    * Mix the chipotle with the sour cream and place a dollop on top of each cooked potato. Finish each with a bit of crumbled bacon and jalapenos

    Truth be told, while these potato skins are a vast improvement on the kind offered by Friday’s and their ilk, you could make some improvements by folding any of dozens of different vegetables and healthy flavor additions into the formula outlined here. Simply replace the bacon, Cheddar, and sour cream with the following:
    * Steamed broccoli and Parmesan
    * Sundried tomatoes, chopped olives, artichoke hearts, and pesto
    * Caramelized onions and goat cheese
    * Chicken, asparagus, and roasted red peppers

    043641_ChineseChxSalad11. Chinese Chicken Salad :

    380 calories , 21 g fat (3.5 saturated), 23 g carbohydrates

    Chinese chicken salad is one of the world’s ultimate fusion foods. It’s an Eastern-inspired dish popularized by an Austrian chef (Wolfgang Puck) in Beverly Hills (at his restaurant Spago back in the 1980s). Whatever its disparate origins, it’s undeniably one of the most popular—and ubiquitous—salads in America, sharing space on menus in four-star restaurants and Wendy’s alike. Too bad most versions are nutritional disasters, bogged down by too much dressing and too many fried noodles. This lighter version is true to Wolfgang’s original inspiration but with about a third of the calories.

    You’ll Need:
    1 head napa cabbage
    1/2 head red cabbage
    1/2 Tbsp sugar
    2 cups chopped or shredded cooked chicken (freshly grilled or from a store-bought rotisserie chicken)
    1/3 cup Asian Vinaigrette (store-bought or use the calorie-cutting recipe in Cook This, Not That!)
    1 cup fresh cilantro leaves
    1 cup canned mandarin oranges, drained
    1/4 cup sliced almonds, toasted
    Salt and black pepper to taste

    How to Make It:
    * Slice the cabbages in half lengthwise and remove the cores. Slice the cabbage into thin strips. Toss with the sugar in a large bowl.

    * If the chicken is cold, toss with a few tablespoons of vinaigrette and heat in a microwave at 50% power. Add to the cabbage, along with the cilantro, mandarins, almonds, and the remaining vinaigrette. Toss to combine. Season with salt and pepper.

    10. Grilled Chicken with Pineapple Sandwich:

    400 calories , 11 g fat (6 g saturated) , 640 mg sodium

    Not even the relatively healthy genre of grilled chicken sandwiches is a safe bet when you seek sustenance away from home. That’s because places like Outback go long on the oil and the dressing, gobbling up (in this case) half you day’s saturated fat and sodium. Our sandwich is a spicy-sweet combination of teriyaki-glazed chicken, juicy grilled pineapple, and fiery jalapenos—a chicken sandwich to end all fatty chicken sandwiches.

    You’ll Need:
    4 boneless, skinless chicken breasts (4-6 oz each)
    Teriyaki sauce
    4 slices Swiss cheese
    4 pineapple slices (1/2″ thick)
    4 whole-wheat buns
    1 red onion, thinly sliced
    Pickled Jalapenos

    How to Make It:
    * Combine the chicken and enough teriyaki sauce to cover in a resealable plastic bag and marinate in the refrigerator for at least 30 minutes and up to 12 hours.

    * Heat a grill until hot (you shouldn’t be able to hold your hand above the grates for more than 5 seconds). Remove the chicken from the marinade and place on the grill; discard any remaining marinade. Cook for 4 to 5 minutes on the first side; flip and immediately add the cheese to each breast. Continue cooking until the cheese is melted and the chicken is lightly charred and firm to the touch. Remove and set aside.

    * While the chicken rests, add the pineapple and the buns to the grill. Cook the buns until they’re lightly toasted and the pineapple until it’s soft and caramelized, about 2 minutes per side. Top each bun with chicken, red onion, jalapeno slices, and pineapple. If you like, drizzle the chicken with a bit more teriyaki sauce.

    9. Green Chile Cheeseburger:

    320 calories, 11 g fat (4.5 g saturated), 420 mg sodium

    As bad as fast-food burgers can be, they look like nutritional superstars when stacked next to sit-down restaurant burgers. The bulk of the burgers at Applebee’s, Chili’s, Ruby Tuesday, Outback, and T.G.I. Friday’s weigh in at 1,000 calories or more—before the massive mound of French fries that invariably accompanies them. The key to keeping the calories down is finding a lean but tasty cut of beef (we love sirloin); using healthy, flavor-packed condiments (e.g., roasted chiles, not fried onion rings); and finding a small, fiber-rich bun to house the creation.

    You’ll Need:
    1 lb ground sirloin or brisket
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    1 can (4 oz) roasted green chiles, drained and chopped
    4 slices Swiss cheese
    4 potato buns (preferably Martin’s Potato Rolls)
    4 thick slices tomato
    4 medium slices red onion

    How to Make It:
    * Heat a grill, stovetop grill pan, or cast-iron skillet. Season the beef with salt and pepper. Form 4 patties, being careful not to overwork the meat.

    * When the pan is hot, add the burgers. Cook for 3 to 4 minutes on the first side (until nicely charred), then flip and immediately top each with a tablespoon of chiles and a slice of Swiss. For medium-rare burgers, continue cooking for another 3 to 4 minutes, until the patties are just firm. Remove the burgers and toast the buns on the hot grill or pan. Dress the bottom of the buns with the tomato and onion slices, then top each with a burger.

    8. Cheesesteak Sandwich:

    400 calories , 14 g fat (4 g saturated) , 730 mg sodium

    The famous sandwich from Philly is a nutritionist’s nightmare: mounds of greasy beef and fried onions; a massive, oil-soaked hoagie roll; and to top it all off, a viscous deluge of Cheez Whiz (that’s right, traditional cheesesteaks are made with Whiz). But we want you to have your steak and eat it, too, so we came up with this version, which relies on a lean flank steak, a whole-wheat roll, and a yogurt-based blue cheese sauce. It’s a bit fancier than the sandwich from the City of Brotherly Love, but to our tastes, it’s also better.

    You’ll Need:
    2 Tbsp plain Greekstyle yogurt (we like Fage 2%)
    2 Tbsp olive-oil mayonnaise
    1/4 cup crumbled blue cheese
    16 oz skirt or flank steak
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    2 cups arugula
    2 tomatoes, sliced
    4 whole-wheat sandwich rolls
    Caramelized Onions (see page 305)

    How to Make It:
    * Combine the yogurt, mayonnaise, and blue cheese. Set aside.

    * Heat a grill, stovetop grill pan, or cast-iron skillet until hot. Season the steak with salt and pepper and cook for 3 to 4 minutes per side (for medium-rare), until the steak is firm but still gives with gentle pressure. Allow to rest for at least 5 minutes before slicing. Slice the steak into thin strips.

    * Divide the arugula and tomatoes among the rolls. Top with the steak and caramelized onions and drizzle each sandwich with the blue cheese mayo.

    7. Grilled Pork and Peaches:

    430 calories , 24 g fat (8 g saturated), 530 mg sodium

    Restaurant pork chops are usually Flintstonian in size and skirted with enough fat to keep a bear warm in the winter. The result (as witnessed below with the Romano’s chop): 196 percent of your day’s saturated fat, plus more sodium than you’d find in 36 cups of salted popcorn. Our dish takes its cue from classic pork chops and applesauce, using grilled fruit and blue cheese to punch up the flavor without skyrocketing the calorie count.

    You’ll Need:
    4 thick-cut (1″), bone-in pork chops (8 oz each)
    Olive oil
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    2 firm peaches or nectarines, halved and pitted
    2 Tbsp pine nuts, toasted
    1 small red onion, thinly sliced
    1/2 cup crumbled blue cheese
    1 Tbsp balsamic vinegar

    How to Make It:
    * Heat a grill to hot. Brush the pork with olive oil and season with salt and pepper. Grill for 4 to 5 minutes on each side. The outside should be charred (not burned), but the meat should be light pink in the middle.

    * While the chops cook, brush the peach halves with oil and add them to the grill, cut side down. Grill for 5 minutes or until soft. Remove, slice, and toss with the pine nuts, onion, blue cheese, and vinegar; season with salt and pepper. Top each chop with half of the peach mixture and serve.

    6. Grilled Steak with Red Wine Butter:

    380 calories , 19 g fat (10 g saturated) , 470 mg sodium

    Few meals satisfy like a good steak. And few things will ruin a good steak quicker than a heavy-handed sauce. That’s why it’s best to take your steaks simply grilled when dining out, lest you end up eating 2 days’ worth of saturated fat. We’ll give you steak and a slab of spiked butter for a quarter of the cost.

    You’ll Need:
    1 cup dry red wine
    1 shallot, minced
    4 Tbsp butter, softened
    1 tsp chopped fresh rosemary
    Black pepper to taste
    Salt to taste
    4 steaks (flank, sirloin, skirt, or filet; 6 oz each)

    How to Make It:
    * Combine the wine and shallot in a small saucepan and simmer over medium heat until reduced to about 2 tablespoons (it will have a thick, syrupy consistency).

    * Let the red wine syrup cool, then stir into the softened butter with the rosemary and a few cracks of black pepper. Once fully incorporated, spoon the butter onto a large piece of plastic wrap. Fold the wrap over the butter and twist the ends to create a log of red wine butter. Place in the fridge until ready to use.

    * Preheat a grill, stovetop grill pan, or cast-iron skillet. Season the steaks with salt and pepper and cook until medium-rare (about 8 minutes total for skirt and flank and 10 to 12 minutes for the sirloin and filet). Remove the steaks and slice a coin of the butter over the top of each.

    5. Loaded Alfredo with Chicken and Vegetables:

    540 calories , 14 g fat (6 g saturated) , 520 mg sodium

    Here’s how restaurants make Alfredo: cream, butter, and cheese. We ditched the cream and made a basic bechamel sauce with flour, milk, butter, and Parmesan. We solved the other major shortcoming of pasta Alfredo (that is, a dearth of any true nutrition) by adding chicken, broccoli, mushrooms, and, for good measure, sundried tomatoes.

    You’ll Need:
    2 Tbsp unsalted butter
    3 Tbsp flour
    3 cups 2% milk
    2 cloves garlic, chopped
    2 Tbsp grated Parmesan
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    1/2 Tbsp olive oil
    2 cups bite-size broccoli florets
    8 oz cremini mushrooms, sliced
    1/4 cup chopped sundried tomatoes
    8 oz cooked chicken breast, thinly sliced (store-bought rotisserie chicken works well)
    12 oz whole-wheat fettuccine (we like Ronzoni Healthy Harvest)

    How to Make It:
    * To make the bechamel, melt the butter in a saucepan over medium-low heat. Whisk in the flour. Cook for 1 minute. Slowly whisk in the milk to prevent any lumps from forming. Add the garlic and simmer, whisking often, for 10 to 15 minutes, or until nicely thickened. Stir in the Parmesan and season with salt and pepper. Keep warm.

    * Heat the oil in a large skillet or saute pan over medium-high heat. Add the broccoli and cook for 3 to 4 minutes. Add the mushrooms and tomatoes. Cook for 5 minutes, or until the vegetables have lightly caramelized. Stir in the chicken. Season with salt and pepper.

    * Meanwhile, cook the pasta according to the package instructions. Drain, reserving 1 cup of the cooking water. Return the pasta to the pot, add the sauce and the chicken mixture, and toss to coat. If the sauce is too thick, add some of the pasta water to thin it. Serve immediately.

    4. Macaroni & Cheese:

    480 calories, 9 g fat (5 g saturated), 450 mg sodium

    Ask Americans what they would eat for their last meal on earth and most would likely tell you mac and cheese. Too bad restaurants and frozen-food purveyors start their macaroni and cheese with a base of cream and butter—a recipe for caloric calamity. This version is based on bechamel—butter, flour, and milk—which helps cut the calories in half. We add jalapenos and prosciutto for some spicy, smoky goodness; feel free to leave them out.

    You’ll Need:
    2 Tbsp butter
    1/2 yellow onion, minced
    2 Tbsp flour
    3 cups milk
    2 cups shredded extra-sharp Cheddar
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    1 lb elbow macaroni, penne, or shells
    1/4 cup chopped Pickled Jalapenos
    2 oz prosciutto or ham, cut into thin strips
    1/2 cup panko bread crumbs
    1/4 cup grated Parmesan

    How to Make It:
    * Preheat the oven to 375°F.

    * Melt the butter in a large saucepan over medium heat. Add the onion and cook until soft and translucent (but not browned), about 3 minutes. Add the flour and stir to incorporate into the butter. Pour in the milk a few tablespoons at a time, using a whisk to incorporate the flour and prevent lumps from forming. When all the milk has been added, allow the sauce to simmer for 10 minutes, until it begins to thicken. Stir in the cheese and season with salt and pepper.

    * Cook the pasta according to the package instructions until al dente, drain, and return to the pot. Add the cheese sauce, jalapenos, and prosciutto and stir to fully incorporate. Divide the mixture among 6 individual crocks or pour into a large baking dish. Top with the bread crumbs and sprinkle with the Parmesan.

    * Bake for 10 minutes. Turn on the broiler and broil until the bread crumbs are golden brown and crispy, about another 3 minutes.

    Check it out: You can boost the health profile (and the hungers-quashing potential) of your mac and cheese by adding any of the following to the pasta when you toss it with the cheese sauce.
    * 1 cup caramelized onions
    * 2 cups roughly chopped or cherry tomatoes
    * 6 oz grilled chicken and 1 cup sauteed mushrooms
    * 2 cups chopped steamed or sauteed broccoli

    3. Chicken Parmesan:

    340 calories , 11 g fat (4 g saturated) , 670 mg sodium

    This Italian-American staple normally suffers from a glut of oil, an excess of cheese, and a huge bed of carb-heavy spaghetti as the base. We shallow-fry a modest portion of chicken to minimize oil soakage, then use fresh mozzarella (which is lower in calories and fat) to top it off. For sides, trade the spaghetti bed for garlicky sauteed spinach.

    You’ll Need:
    4 boneless, skinless chicken breast halves (4-6 oz each)
    1/2 tsp salt
    1/2 tsp black pepper
    2 egg whites, lightly beaten
    1 cup bread crumbs, preferably panko
    2 Tbsp grated Parmesan
    1/2 Tbsp dried Italian seasoning
    1 Tbsp olive oil
    1 cup tomato sauce (we love anything from Muir Glen)
    4 oz shredded part-skim mozzarella
    Fresh basil leaves (optional)

    How to Make It:
    * Preheat the broiler. Cover the chicken breasts with parchment paper or plastic wrap and, using a meat mallet or a heavy-bottomed pan, pound the chicken until it is uniformly 1/4″ thick. Season with the salt and pepper.

    * Place the egg whites in a shallow bowl. Mix the bread crumbs, Parmesan, and Italian seasoning on a large plate.

    * Dip each breast into the egg whites to coat both sides and then into the crumb mixture, patting the crumbs so they fully cover the chicken.

    * Heat the oil in a large skillet or saute pan over medium heat. Cook the chicken for 3 to 4 minutes on the first side before turning. (The crust should be deeply browned and crunchy.) Cook for another 2 to 3 minutes, then transfer the chicken to a baking sheet.

    * Spoon the tomato sauce over the chicken pieces, then top with the cheese and place underneath the broiler for 2 to 3 minutes or until the cheese is fully melted and bubbling. Serve garnished with basil (if using).

    Chicken parm is normally made by shallow frying the breaded meat in a pan, which is exactly what we do here. But if you want to save time and calories with only the barest sacrifice in flavor, skip the saute pan and use the oven instead. Bake the chicken breasts in a 400° F oven until the crust is golden and the meat is firm, about 15 minutes.

    2. Strawberry Shortcake with Balsamic:

    160 calories , 6 g fat (3.5 g saturated) , 12 g sugars

    To deliver flavor, the corporate cook relies on hulking scoops of ice cream, oversize brownies, and floods of molten chocolate. The home cook doesn’t need such waist-expanding, palate-blunting effects to make dessert memorable. Here, low-calorie angel food cake picks up the smoke and char of the grill and is topped with strawberries soaked in balsamic vinegar and black pepper, an irresistible combination adored throughout northern Italy. Trust us, you’ll be hooked.

    You’ll Need:
    2 cups sliced strawberries
    1/4 cup balsamic vinegar
    Pinch of freshly cracked black pepper
    1 Tbsp butter (optional)
    4 wedges angel food cake, each
    1″ thick Whipped cream

    How to Make It:
    * Mix the strawberries, vinegar, and pepper and marinate for 10 to 15 minutes.

    * Heat a grill, stovetop grill pan, or nonstick saute pan until hot. (If using the pan, add the butter; if grilling, omit the butter entirely.) Add the cake slices and cook until caramelized and toasted. Transfer to 4 dessert plates. Top with the strawberries, their liquid, and a spoonful of whipped cream.

    1. Crispy Quesadillas with Guacamole:

    310 calories , 16 g fat (5 g saturated) , 730 mg sodium

    Next to nachos, quesadillas are the most perilous food to be found on a Mexican restaurant menu. Overstuffed with cheese and teeming with greasy toppings, quesadillas are all but guaranteed to pack quadruple-digit calories. Tussle with Chili’s rendition and you’ll take in 35 bacon strips’ worth of saturated fat. Our quesadilla reverses the cheese-to-filling ratio, going long on the nutrient-dense vegetables and using just enough chorizo and cheese to make it feel like an indulgence.

    You’ll Need:
    1/2 Tbsp canola oil
    4 oz chorizo, casing removed
    1 small red onion, sliced
    4 oz white button mushrooms, stems removed, sliced
    1 large poblano pepper, seeded, sliced into thin strips
    Salt and black pepper to taste
    1 1/2 cups shredded Monterey Jack cheese
    4 medium whole-wheat tortillas
    Guacamole (store-bought or use the perfect-guac recipe in Cook This, Not That!)

    How to Make It:
    * Heat a large skillet or saute pan over medium-high heat. Add the oil and chorizo; cook until browned, using a wooden spoon to break up the meat into smaller pieces. Remove from the pan and drain all but a thin film of the fat. Return to the heat and add the onion, mushrooms, and pepper; saute, stirring occasionally, until the vegetables are brown—5 to 7 minutes. Season with salt and pepper.

    * Divide the cheese between 2 tortillas and top each with half of the vegetable mixture. Top with the remaining tortillas.

    * Heat a large cast-iron skillet over medium heat. Spray the pan with nonstick cooking spray and cook each quesadilla individually, until the tortillas are brown and crispy and the cheese is fully melted. Cut into 4 or 6 wedges and serve with the guacamole.


  • A big before and after improvement photo….

    I really contemplated posting this picture…. most of the reason is because who really wants to show their naked chub to the world? I keep singing to myself, shake what your mama gave ya… but instead, shake what mcdonalds gave yaaaaa…

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    This is from november till yesterday (11/12-3/13) through the holidays and everything…. I made it through

    Last night when I was having Jenny take photos of me, I was like, man oh man I don’t even think I see a difference… I really don’t. But then I put these two together, and I see it, I finally see it…. and you know what, fuck it, I don’t love what I look like, and I would never wear a 2 piece bathing suit, but guess what world, you can see me in this light… I mean this blog is all about being real and showing who I am right? So here you go people… this is me, I’m down, I’m strong, and I’ve got about 1/3rd of myself gone… Now please, if you have anything negative to say, don’t tell me, tell someone else. My trainer said I should wait till I have a more drastic change just in case people have some negative things to say about me, but I want to show progress… seeing this photo made me happy again, made me think, you know what, I AM DOING THIS, and I’m getting there…. My way. My way is working, not your way, not their way… but MY WAY… and everyBODY is different (haha get it, haha ashley) everyone is different and everyone is going to have a different way of losing their weight and everyone is going to have something to say about the way you do it – i do CROSSFIT. I work my ass off, and I see the results. That’s my way.

    So, from the bottom of my heart, this blog, you guys reading this, you have got me to where I am today… and my friends that have supported me and Juan of course… I mean you love me for me, and you want me to succeed…. so for that, I thank you, more than anything… to my trainers, thanks for pushing me, for my mentors, I couldn’t have done this much already without you… I’m just tearing up because I never thought I could be down (and if you don’t think that’s a lot of weight loss, well F you because to me it’s huge.)…. And I’m sorry you have to see my unattractive body, but seeing this with me wearing clothes, you can’t tell a difference… I’m sorry it’s gross, but you know what, to me, I’m so happy. It’s important to me to see the way I look, and the difference I’ve made and how far I have come.. so I’m sorry if you don’t like the photo, LEAVE THE BLOG THEN DUH!

    Now, it’s just about keeping it off and keep going…. Seeing this makes me think, wow I can do this…

    So thanks, thanks for motivating me, thanks for keeping with me, and you know what… thanks for just everything.

  • What's up chubby????

    Let’s take this time to discuss an incident that happened yesterday…. and let me preface this with I don’t really care, I’m not really hurt by it, I’m used to it haha – people are dumb and sometimes don’t grow up – I’m just going to say what I would say to this person haha if I had the chance to see them again…

    So yesterday I ran to Target to grab some things… and I was in the electronics/games section and this boy/man thing?? I don’t know how old this dude was, but whatever…. and as I walk past him I hear “what’s up chubby” as said from under his breath… ok cool – sound great, not the first time I’ve heard it, so let me just say…..

    Winner winner chicken dinner yes I am captain obvious the chubby one. I’m the chubby girl wearing the tight workout clothes (because all my damn SHIT jiggles when I workout so this crap needs to get tightened) the chubby friend, the chubby daughter, the chubby sister, the chubby future wife. You name it, you put chubby in front of it, I’m that. Oh and wait. Lets make sure we were talking about me and not about your small chode maybe? Maybe he was like 18 young and immature. Because seriously if you are over the age of 25 and you are calling girls chubby, you are the type of guy that’s going to be single for the rest of their lives hanging out with their chode wang out because you don’t know when jokes like that get old. This isn’t high school or college. We aren’t heckling the big girls anymore. So shut your mouth and buy your video games since you are going to be single for the rest of your life HAHA. Shitballs. Silly stupid shitballs… Where do you come off calling anyone chubby? What if I was a girl who wasn’t working out, wasn’t trying to better myself, and had a serious depression problem… Now, I can handle it, so it’s ok – but you should watch your mouth next time you say something under your breath. ALSO, I know I’m not the best with words, but at least I know if I call someone a loser, or an asshole, it’s in a joking way and the person I’m saying it to, knows it, and ON TOP OF THAT, I’m not saying, hey what’s up you chubby loser, hahaha At least I like my life, I have a loving fiance, and friends, and your stupid word isn’t going to get me down…

    WHO DOES THAT? Who says that type of thing. Anyways… I thought it was pretty pathetic and I hope that dude gets his mind right before he gets his nuts kicked in…. yeah I just said that. A lot of amazing things in life are chubby, like babies and puppies, and grown women… so get your mind right! CHUBBY is in!

    In the meantime while boys are still growing up – I’m still pushing myself to lose weight… I can barely walk from these crossfit workouts we have been doing – so that’s a plus hahaha… 🙂

    Today I have a yummy recipe for you – it’s a Frozen Reese’s Peanut Butter Pie from Dashing Dish,  I’ve clearly been craving sweets a lot lately so this is a good option for something to have!!

    reeses-peanut-butter-mainFrozen Reese’s Peanut Butter Pie

    1 (8 oz) Package fat-free cream cheese
    1/2 cup Creamy OR crunchy peanut butter 1
    1/2 cup Baking stevia OR 1 cup sweetener of choice that measures like sugar 2
    1/4 cup skim milk (or milk of choice)
    1 (8oz) Container Fat Free Cool Whip
    1 Pre-made Oreo pie crust OR reduced fat graham cracker pie crust
    3 tbs Light Hershey’s Syrup
    Optional Toppings: Reese’s Ice Cream toppers (a few Tbs), Reese’s miniature candies (a few crushed up), crushed peanuts, 100 calorie Nutter Butter cookies (crushed up), Reddi Whip

    Nutrition Breakdown
    10 Slices
    215 Calories Per Slice with PB (or 175 Calories Per Slice with Peanut Flour)
    10 g Fat
    25 g Carbohydrate
    2 g Fiber
    12 g Sugar
    7 g Protein
    5 WWP+*
    *Weight Watchers Points per serving

    1 You may replace the peanut butter with 1/2 cup peanut flour mixed with 1/4 cup skim milk (or milk of choice), which will shave 500 calories off this recipe! The only downfall is you have to buy it online. Peanut flour is basically a de-fatted version of peanut butter and is in powder form, so once you add water, it is just like peanut butter! I use it in my protein shakes, desserts, etc. and I think it is worth purchasing.

    2 I used NuNaturals More Fiber Stevia Baking Blend. If using packets of stevia, I recommend using about 8-12, or adjust according to taste.



    1) Spray a 8×8 springform pie pan with non-stick cooking spray. Remove Oreo crust from pan and re-form it in the bottom of your spring form pan, pressing it down with your hands. (You could skip this step and leave it in the original pie pan, but I enjoy the look of the taller pie).

    2) Mix all ingredients together until smooth (I used my Kitchen Aid mixer, but you could do this by hand) and fold in Cool Whip until well blended.

    3) Pour mixture over pie crust and drizzle with chocolate syrup. Chill for at least 4-6 hours, (or overnight). Let sit at room temperature for at least 15 minutes (to soften) and add topping of choice before serving.