And you know what? I’m ok with it. I signed up for the Rock-n-Roll Half Marathon in Brooklyn, but I’ve decided that I’m not going to run. Thick to Thin has an awesome group of ladies who are running and I will be there cheering them on, but I have decided to quit training. See, the thing is I know that I can do it, but I don’t want to. I know a bunch of you are ready to tell me “you can do it” “don’t give up on yourself,” but you know what? I don’t feel like I’m giving up.
Recently, I’ve been making 1000 excuses as to why I can’t get out and train and that’s not me. I did not make this decision lightly, and honestly I was a little bummed in myself about it. However, that was incredibly short lived. See, I believe that whatever form of exercise you choose you should love it, even when it’s hard. I HATE running. Actually that’s not true, I despise it! I’d rather do an entire hour of burpees than run.
For all of you runners out there, I envy you. I wish I enjoyed it. I see you, I see your accomplishments and your medals, and I wish I could love running. But I don’t. I’ve been an athlete my whole life and even when I was playing high school sports I’d cringe when I heard the coach say “everyone on the line”.
I have fallen out of love with fitness and living a healthy lifestyle and I need to make a positive change to get back there.
So my first step is to throw in the towel on my half marathon training and restart my love affair with fitness MY way. For the last few days I’ve been going back to workout basics, and you know what? I have loved every second of the torture. I’m sore, I’m invigorated, and I’m excited to do it again tomorrow!
Since I believe that running is still an important skill (zombie apocalypse anyone?) I’m shortening my goal, I will be running the 5 miler on Thanksgiving day with the intent to beat my 55 minute time from two years ago. I believe that making my goals more attainable I will aid me in meeting them.
When I say that I have fallen out of love with a healthy lifestyle I mean in every form possible. Food, drink, and exercise. I am up 18# over my “goal weight”. More importantly, I feel like crap, and I am self sabotaging. This behavior is a recipe for disaster. I am looking for quick fixes and easy meals (aka take-out), and that is not helping myself or my family.
So what does that mean for you? I’m going to turn my downfalls into a weekly blog series showing the good, the bad, and the ugly of loving yourself and getting back on track. I encourage you to share your stories, because with support these changes are so much easier to make. I’m not funny like Andrea, but I will try!
Exercise, real food, and loving myself… Here we go!