It’s inevitable… people change… but do they really? I like to think that I’ve changed, and that now I’m this girl that’s all about working out, being healthy, and enjoying life…. not wanting to drink all the time, not wanting to go out and party…… but have I really changed that much? I don’t think so. Maybe it’s because I work from home, maybe it’s because I’m a super social person and I can’t stand that I never see people anymore, but man, when I have the chance to go out, see people, let loose, I’m still doing what I used to do. Drink too much, drunk eat… ugh, all the bad things YOU SHOULDN’T DO if you are trying to lose weight. Yes, some of my friends, don’t support that I’ve changed, that I would rather workout then go drinking…. but recently, I almost feel like I’m reverting back to my old ways… minus the fact that I would rather workout then drink, now I just want to do both! I don’t know if it’s that I’m finally getting down in sizes, and I’m feeling better about myself, so I’m like, FUCK IT, if I want to cheat, I’m going to cheat… I just know how much harder I have to work tomorrow, or if it’s the need to just be around people, and for the most part, the things we like to do are DRINK! haha… OH, or is it because it’s SUMMER??? Yeah, that could be it, and nothing’s better than sitting on the porch drinking a glass of wine, or a vod and wod after a long day of work!??! UGH… Yep, that’s my head game right now…
It’s funny because 2 months ago, I was like, PSSHHHH I HATE all things fun. I’m sticking to my guns, working out, eating healthy, not drinking, because that’s important to me… but now it’s like, hey, let’s have a drink… wrong answer. I don’t know how to get around it – life is such a bitch sometimes, and I revert to drinking, and eating poorly.
Well since Memorial day is finally over, and last week was a BAD week.. I’m going back to gluten/dairy/booze free till my shower at the end of June….. I need to get through this plateau, because you know what, losing weight FEELS AMAZING. I never realized how great I would feel once I started losing weight and feeling so good… All the bitching and moaning of how annoying it is to lose weight, has been worth it. There’s nothing better in this world then someone telling me I look great. Is that vain to say? No one ever used to tell me that before… and then isn’t that bad? Shouldn’t we look great no matter what weight we are at?
This post is such a hodge podge of emotions, but shit, I have a lot of emotions. Weight loss is the most annoying thing in the whole entire world…. you’ve got to watch what you eat, watch what you drink, watch how many calories you burn, watch what you say, why can’t it be easier? Why can’t you just go at your own pace, do your own thing, without everyone else telling you if you are doing it right or wrong, and without them telling you there are easier ways to do something…. Why can’t it just be OK for you to lose the weight at your own pace…. your own way….. if you have determination to lose it, it will come.
Society tells us that we have to be a certain size, and because of that, things don’t happen… like…. I feel like since society puts such an emphasis on smaller girls, and smaller guys, those are the people that get in relationships, they are the people that are idolized, that are “hot”, but why?!?! Why are they better then the girls that aren’t a size 2? Why should we, girls bigger then that, feel like we have to be something we aren’t just so that we are accepted by society….? I over analyze EVERYTHING about what I look like, when I put on a new outfit, or just getting ready for the day…. EVEN IF IT MEANS HANGING OUT AT HOME WHERE NO ONE CAN SEE ME, I feel like I have to look slim, or slender… and if I don’t – it’s ALL BLACK BABY… put on a black shirt, black pants, and shit, I turn invisible…. Why doesn’t society just say, hey, you are strong, in shape, and can kick any guys ass that walks into the gym, you are AMAZING… yesterday, I went to the gym with two amazing athletes, they PUSHED ME, I ran my fastest mile, and, for the first time I felt super super good about where I am going in my fitness… I didn’t realize that most people couldn’t do a hand stand either? HAHA and I can do them pretty well! I really REALLY want to get back into gymnastics, I really do miss it… so my goal for when I get even smaller, lose more of this chub, I’m going to get back into gymnastics.. OK BACK to the thought here.. WHY MUST WE BE SO PERFECT for society??? WHY CAN’T WE JUST BE OURSELVES???
SO, the real test…. I have the Tough Mudder in 11 days…. yep, I’m doing a tough mudder, and for me, that’s my ultimate fitness goal. That is the one thing that I want to complete, get across the finish line, and do it without giving up…. I just want to be able to say, I am a BEAST, I made it through, and I am SO happy I did it – because once that is done, I’m going to feel like I can do ANYTHING. UGH I’M GOING TO FEEL SO GOOD! haha… Anyways… I’m going to quit complaining – losing weight is just SUCH A BITCH….
One last thing, eating right is the hardest part – you’ve gotta cut out all the processed crap I’ve learned…. but I found this article the other day about how to make your favorite packaged foods, but yourself and clean instead.
Packaged Food Recipes We Love
PREP TIME: 15 minutes
TOTAL TIME: 35 minutes
2 tsp olive oil
1 lg onion, chopped
2 Tbsp minced garlic
2 Tbsp chili powder
1 1/2 tsp ground cumin
1 pkg (10 oz) Earthbound Farm Frozen Organic Kale
1 pkg (10 oz) frozen corn (2 c)
2 c shredded cooked chicken
1 can (14.5 oz) fire-roasted diced tomatoes
1 can (15 oz) white beans (such as cannellini), rinsed and drained
Optional garnishes: shredded Monterey Jack, chopped avocado, sliced red onion, cilantro sprigs
1. Heat oil in Dutch oven over medium heat. Add onion and cook, stirring, until softened, about 4 minutes. Add garlic, chili powder, and cumin and cook, stirring, 1 minute.
2. Stir in remaining ingredients (except garnishes) and 2 1/2 cups water. Simmer, uncovered, until kale and corn are tender and chili is slightly thickened, about 15 minutes. Ladle into bowls and garnish as desired.
NUTRITION (per serving) 339 cal, 30 g pro, 40 g carb, 8 g fiber, 7.5 g fat, 1.5 g sat fat, 376 mg sodium
PREP TIME: 15 minutes
TOTAL TIME: 30 minutes + chilling time
2 cans (6 oz each) Wild Planet Wild Alaskan Pink Salmon, drained and flaked
2 lg eggs, lightly beaten
3/4 c fresh or dried whole wheat or panko bread crumbs
1/4 c finely chopped red onion
4 Tbsp chopped fresh dill
1 1/2 tsp fresh lime or lemon juice
1/4 c reduced-fat sour cream
4 whole wheat sandwich buns, split and toasted
4 lettuce leaves
1. Stir together salmon, eggs, bread crumbs, onion, 3 Tbsp of the dill, and 1 tsp of the lime juice in bowl. Season. Form into 4 patties with damp hands (mixture will be wet), put on plate, and chill at least 20 minutes.
2. Whisk together sour cream and remaining 1 Tbsp dill and 1/2 tsp lime juice. Cover and chill.
3. Heat oven to 400°F. Cook patties in large ovenproof skillet coated with cooking spray over medium heat, turning carefully, until golden, about 6 minutes. Transfer skillet to oven. Bake 6 minutes. Serve on buns with sauce and lettuce.
NUTRITION (per serving) 293 cal, 26 g pro, 29 g carb, 5 g fiber, 8.5 g fat, 2.5 g sat fat, 547 mg sodium
Spaghetti with Roasted Red Pepper Sauce
PREP TIME: 15 minutes
TOTAL TIME: 25 minutes
2 Tbsp olive oil
1 onion, chopped
2 cloves garlic, minced
1 can (14.5 oz) crushed tomatoes
1 jar (12 oz) roasted red bell peppers, rinsed and drained
2 Tbsp sherry or red wine vinegar
1/2 c finely grated Parmesan
2 pkg (8 oz each) Ancient Harvest Gluten Free Quinoa Spaghetti
1/4 c sliced almonds, toasted
1. Heat 1 Tbsp of the oil in large saucepan over medium heat. Cook onion, stirring, until softened, 4 minutes. Add garlic and cook, stirring, 1 minute. Transfer to food processor with next 3 ingredients and 1/3 cup of the cheese. Puree until smooth. Return to pan. Bring to a simmer, season, remove from heat, and cover.
2. Cook pasta per box directions. Drain. Toss with some sauce to coat. Top with nuts and remaining cheese and oil. Serve with remaining sauce.
NUTRITION (per serving) 403 cal, 10 g pro, 72 g carb, 8 g fiber, 10 g fat, 2 g sat fat, 226 mg sodium
PREP TIME: 10 minutes
TOTAL TIME: 10 minutes
1 pkg (9-10 oz) frozen chopped spinach, thawed
1 container (16 oz) Stonyfield Organic Oikos Plain 0% Greek Yogurt
2 oz crumbled feta or goat cheese or finely grated Parmesan
2 Tbsp store-bought basil or cilantro pesto
Squeeze spinach dry with hands to extract as much liquid as possible. Add to food processor with remaining ingredients. Pulse until just combined. Season to taste. (Makes 2 1/2 cups.) Transfer to serving bowl.
NUTRITION (per serving) 81 cal, 8 g pro, 4 g carb, 1 g fiber, 4 g fat, 1.5 g sat fat, 119 mg sodium