So, finally, 17 weeks into my journey from “thick-to-thin”…. I finally accomplished goal 1: to make it through a crossfit workout…. Let me tell you. I feel like they make it seem like just anyone can go in and do crossfit, but at some gyms, that’s not the case, and especially at mine. This shit is HARD. Ok… like bootcamp, yeah it’s hard, and you are working your ass off and you are doing burpee’s and moving and shaking and killing it in your workout, but in crossfit, you are doing things way out of your comfort level, WAY harder, and for time. So it’s not like, let’s do 30 seconds of this move, take a break and do another 30 seconds, it’s GO GO GO GO GOOOOOOOOOO.
All of yesterday, I was like shit – I’m so nervous, I can’t do this, I won’t be able to finish, I’m just going to have a goal to get it done no matter how long it takes, and through the day I got more and more excited… I felt like I was going to go compete in something, I felt like I was just about to do something badass and a shot of adrenaline went through my body and I was so pumped up…. thennnn I SAW THE WOD. The filthy FIFTY… FUCK the filthy fifty… This is what it is:
Yeah so that’s the tits…. that’s the bee’s knee’s… that’s the bitch that took me out last night. You wouldn’t believe how hard that was. I was weezing, I was like I’m not going to make it through this.. and yeah, sure, some of these were easier than others… I’m pretty strong in my upper body, but things like burpees kill me…. Half way through, I didn’t think I would finish. The cool part, and probably the most amazing part, and probably the reason why I cried when I got done with my workout…. The people I was doing it with. Even if they are done in 26 minutes and you are still going, they come back to push you and motivate you. At Bull Run Crossfit thats what they do. Adam and Joel were doing burpees with me at the end, they wouldn’t let me quit… have you ever done 50 burpees? Sure, yeah, we have probably had to do them in boot camp but I probably half assed them or didn’t do as much as I was supposed to… but this time, I was like NOPE no cheating, I’m doing all 50 of all of these and I don’t care if it takes 3 hours…… I got done in 44 minutes and 41 seconds. Yeah, so what if I was the last person to finish, who cares, I did it, and I did it all under an hour with only 1 break for water (because I had to haha)…. I was so proud of myself.. I had this sense of, wow, you know what, I can really do this stuff, I can really push myself further and harder without giving up. I legit sat there and teared up. I did it. I know it sounds lame and sounds like anyone can do this.. but not anyone can, and I def couldn’t have when I was in the shape I was before…. I don’t know, but now I feel like I’ve joined this “elite group of athletes” and I finally think I might actually be able to do the tough mudder in June. I know it’s lame, and I’ve still got a long way to go, but you need goals, and this was my goal, and I made it. My favorite quote is this “I may not be the strongest, I may not be the fastest, but I’ll be damned if I’m not trying my hardest”… and it’s true. I’m trying my hardest, and that’s all that matters…..
In case you want to see the filthy fifty in action here you go:
Ok enough for now, except this goal has made me want more shirts – so I added 2 new ones. Check them out.