Face it – when you start dating someone, everything goes out the door – you work SOOOOOOO hard when you are single, to get in shape, get fit, look good, all that stuff, and then when you are in a relationship it’s all like…. “honey, what do you want for dinner tonight?” “I don’t know, I’m too lazy to cook let’s just grab something” “ok, Big Macs, Chicken Nuggets and French Fries it is…….” YEP THAT WAS ME! Always in my head I thought, pssshhhh I’ve got a boyfriend, who needs to look good anymore hahaha – the easy part is done, and I can go back to eating like shit, not working out, blah blah blah…. then you start getting bigger and you’re like, WHOOPS, maybe I should lose some of this weight… so for me, that meant, joining about 8 gyms, seeing which one had “the best class schedule” and then ultimately paying for something you never go to. FOR 7 YEARS STRAIGHT…. hahahaha… It’s funny that for me, it wasn’t till we got engaged and I was like, well, I think I am WAY overweight and I need to really fix this shit because A) I probably don’t look good for my significant other anymore B) I want to look good for everyone else on our wedding day or C) I feel like crap and the McDonalds runs and Dominoes deliveries need to stop. HAHAHA….
But I mean, come on – I’m not the only one who knows what this feels like…… I talk to my friends ALLLL the time and they are like, yeah I haven’t been working out lately… hmmm I wonder why. It’s true, you think that person loves you, so why do you have to look amazing everyday? HAHAHA… Its WAY easier to not have to look like a super model everyday when you think someone “loves you for you” haha.. So yeah, I want to blame me getting into a relationship for me getting to the size I was when I started this whole thing! SO damn you relationship hahaha you’re the reason I’m all up in this mess! (jk jk jk love you juan! haha)
Oh so this weekend sucked! This whole “lifestyle change” although for the better, is TOUGH! Like for instance… this weekend I had a brunch on Saturday where everyone got to eat yummy goodies, we had a dinner date on Saturday night where everyone got to drink some wine and vodka, and yesterday it was my future sister-in-laws birthday so we were at my in-laws all day and my future mother-in-law made these yummy bolivian pasteles, which is basically just fried dough with cheese in the middle, and powdered sugar on top- THEY ARE MY FAVORITE but I couldn’t eat any of them 🙁 wahhhhh… while everyone was chowing down, I was like ugh just one, just one.. then i thought about how horrible i felt trying to get through my body withdrawing from the gluten and dairy and I was like, nope, that’s ok – On top of that, for dessert his sister made coconut kahlua cream pie, and strawberry shortcake with homemade biscuits and fresh whipped cream… UGHHHHH FAT KID WAS SCREAMING NOOO WHY ARE THEY DOING THIS TO ME!!!! hahahaha…. it SUCKED… I hated it.. all that yummy good food – and I couldn’t eat any of it! I brought my own snacks, like my rice cake and peanut butter, talk about DELICIOUS people… (NOT).. boo, anyways… I mean I’m getting through it, and this isn’t a diet, it’s a lifestyle change that will help me be at the weight I need to be at, and then eventually I can add things like that back into my life, but not very often, and not a lot of them – so next time, instead of having 6 pasteles, maybe I should just have 1? HAHAHA
One last thing, my friends came and worked out with me this weekend, and you know what, I loved that – I know I don’t really get out much anymore because I’m working so hard and trying to get this damn weight down, but I love it when my friends come workout with me because it means they care and they want to be a part of my new favorite thing to do in the whole world… aka workout haha – i guess it helps that the friends that came, also like working out haha but I love them for coming, trying CrossFit and liking it! 🙂 I hope everyone had a good weekend, I had a good one, and it’s finally spring so bust out those shorts and flip flops baby, BECAUSE THE SUN IS FINALLY SHINING!