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  • IT'S 2013!!!! Now, let's eat RIGHT!

    Top-25-Skinny-Recipes-2012Well, it’s 2013… which means, time to make a new years resolution that you are guaranteed to not do past January 15th hahahaha – no but for real, maybe instead of giving up, why don’t you make realistic goals for 2013 and then move forward from there???

    I found this article this morning on Skinny Taste, and I think, if you are def going to be working on weight loss this 2013, here are some good swaps for high-fattening fun foods! Happy eating, and cheers to a new year!!!!!!

    And now, for the Top 25 Most Popular Skinny Recipes posted in 2012:

    1. Skinny Baked Mozzarella Sticks
    2. Cajun Chicken Pasta on the Lighter Side
    3. Crock Pot Buffalo Chicken Lettuce Wraps
    4. Chicken and Broccoli Noodle Casserole
    5. Skinny Green Monster Smoothie
    6. Skinny Chocolate Chip Buttermilk Scones
    7. Skinny Texas Cheese Fries
    8. Bangin’ Grilled Shrimp Skewers
    9. Cheesy Jalapeno Popper Baked Stuffed Chicken
    10. Baked Oatmeal with Blueberries and Bananas
    11. Avocado Egg Salad
    12. Slow Cooker Pulled Pork
    13. Zucchini Tots
    14. Skinny Overnight Oats in a Jar
    15. Sausage Stuffed Zucchini Boats
    16. Kalyn’s Stuffed Cabbage Casserole
    17. Asian Chicken Lettuce Wraps
    18. Chicken Enchilada Stuffed Zucchini Boats
    19. Asian Edamame Fried Rice
    20. Insanely Good Blueberry Oatmeal Muffins
    21. Skinny No-Bake Peanut Butter Pie
    22. Crock Pot Chicken Cacciatore
    23. Oven “Fried” Pickles with Skinny Herb Buttermilk Ranch Dip
    24. Skinny Salisbury Steak with Mushroom Gravy
    25. Spicy Black Beans Burgers with Chipotle Mayonnaise
  • 12 hours till 2013. The year of fit.

    Well, now that Christmas is done and over, so are the excuses. It’s time to kick “fat Amy” out. (For those who haven’t watch the hilariously ridiculousness, pitch perfect, do it. Haha.)

    Aubrey: What’s your name?
    Fat Amy: Fat Amy.
    Aubrey: You call yourself Fat Amy?
    Fat Amy: Yeah, so twig bitches like you don’t do it behind my back.
    Hahahahaha

    I love the holidays, Christmas is my most favorite time of the year I’m not even kidding. Not only do you get to spend all the awesome time with family, but you get to give and receive presents, eat awesome food, and just relax….. But that’s now over and the food eating and not working out has to stop…….. I have a feeling this is going to suck “Well… sometimes I have the feeling I can do crystal meth, but then I think, mmm… better not.”

    photo (22)I have a lot of things to be thankful for in 2012… it was a phenomenal year… so many great things happened, so many people came into my life that were unexpected, and it was AMAZING, and I have really gotten my ass back in gear. I wanted to take a minute to be sentimental and thank a few people…. so here goes nothing…

    Juan – thank you for being my rock. You don’t NEED me to look any different then I look now, you don’t NEED me to be any different then I am now, you love me for me, and you support me for chasing my dreams and getting to my goals… you know what it takes for me to get to where i want to go (no free time, haha) and you are ok with it… i don’t know what I would do without you… i love you and can’t wait to marry you this year!!!!!

    Evie – thank you for getting me back into the gym, i wouldn’t be where I am today without you getting me into RTB and into CRANK and sticking with it… you’re not only my trainer, but also my friend, and I couldn’t replace that with anything!

    Brian/Jenny/Jim/Dana – without you guys, and your AMAZING gym, I’d still be sitting on my ass eating chick-fil-a everyday, and 30 pounds heavier…. I have no doubt in my mind that I will be walking down that aisle in 10 short months, the happiest and fittest I have ever been, and it will be because of you. Thanks for believing in me, and pushing me to go further then I ever thought I could… I can’t wait to spend the next year with you guys (and you willlllllllll totally be getting sick of me, and I’m sorry) hahaa.

    Stephanie – thanks for being you, buff and tuff HAHA watching you work towards your goals, makes me want to work harder for mine everyday… my New years resolution is to be HALF as strong as you… thanks for keeping me on track and for being a great friend!

    To my Friends…. the ones who read this silly SILLY blog… your kind words, your motivation, your inspiration, your willingness to help me move forward with my goals is something that I will forever be indebted to you for… you read my complaints, my triumphs, and my stupidness, and you continue to comment, send me emails, send me ideas, and remind me that no matter what, never give up… never stop pushing forward and getting to my goals….. I couldn’t have done this alone, and without your support I’d still be a size 18!!!!

    To a special friend who believes in me… Ashley. Thanks for taking a chance in me with these shirts. We constantly motivate each other to keep moving forward with this stupid weight loss, and doing it together makes it so much better! with everything on your plate, you will never know how much it means to me to add something else! 🙂

    To my Family…. (the ones who support me HAHA) i just LOVE you guys… you know I just want to better myself, and all you want to do is help. I love you, and just THANKS.

    to TWITTER… the tweets, the retweets, the motivation, you guys are awesome, and without hashtags, #icandoit, and venting, I’d be super bored. HAHA

    2013 is going to be a great year… I have some resolutions just like everyone else, but I’m actually going to stick with them… My biggest one is to JUST STICK WITH IT. Yeah, I have done a great job over the past few months… but frankly, NOT DAMN GOOD ENOUGH. I made excuses, I told myself, tomorrow, tomorrow, but NO… that needs to stop. That fucking just needs to stop. I can’t keep doing that. I’ll still make progress, but not the type of progress that I should be making… On October 12th, 2013, if I am not 100% happy with how I look, how I feel and happy about the progress I have made, it’s going to be tough being in front of all my family and friends while feeling like a million bucks, and on your wedding day, thats how you want to feel. Also, I’m going to start putting myself first. I know that doesn’t sound like a fit type goal, but it is. My friends just need to support me and what I’m doing, and if that means I can’t go out drinking, or I can’t do something during the week because I’m working, and working out, TOO DAMN BAD. Be my friend, and don’t get mad. And if you want to get mad, and you don’t get it, I want you out of my life… I’m sorry, but clearly, I don’t have time for the bullshit… I barely have time to take a shit, let alone for the bullshit… so just support me, I’m not going anywhere, I’m still a good friend, but for once, you aren’t going to be my main priority… I am going to be…. My last resolution is that I’m going to seriously be a better sister…. I love you sam, michael and joey, and I want to make sure I’m there for you because thats my job, and I’m doing a shitty one right now…. All i want for 2013, is be happy and healthy, fit and strong, and just be a good person and friend…

    I’ve set some goals, small ones, but realistic ones… like I want to be able to to do my first mud run in may, I want to be able to actually make it through a tough mudder in june, I want to deadlift 250 pounds, and I want to be able to run around our god damn gym twice without losing my breath… I want to lose another 60 pounds, and I want to walk down that aisle in October happy… surrounded with my loved ones….

    So let’s say ok, out with the old, FOR REAL, in with the new, let’s stop making mistakes, and get back on track, and let’s do it together!!!

    Here are some of my favorite tweets from 2012!!! haha

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  • Public Service Announcement

    So, happy holiday season everyone! It’s that most wonderful time of the year and I am just so excited to be  home finally with my family…. well minus the fact that im typing this on the worlds largest keyboard… seriously PC users, how do you type with keys the size of blocks?!?! I don’t understand, get a mac jiddoo!

    393130_729384186602_1485154668_nAnyways…. Yes, it’s great to be home for the holidays.. minus the fact that my gym isn’t here and neither are my gym friends… awwwww… well it’s ok because i have the best gym to spin at ever! anyways… I say that a lot huh? Well, the reason for this post this morning is one thing.. I’m kind of getting pissed. So over the past few days I’ve gotten some complaints from family members, or people close to me saying that they don’t like to read my blog because I’m too “down” on myself… well, ok I can see that – I know  that sometimes I call myself fat, or chubby, or I say I can’t do it, and things like that, but you have to understand, that no matter what I say, I still love myself. Just because I think I’m fat, or chubby or overweight, doesn’t mean that I don’t think I’m beautiful inside and out. All of that stuff that I say about the way I feel or the way I look, I’m sorry to say, but that comes from years and  YEARS of one person telling me I’m not good enough. And this stuff sticks in my head. So, if you have a problem with it, you can take it up with that person. I mean I’ve got their number if you want to call them. HAHA… I know it’s hard to blame someone for the way I think, but I can’t help it. I often wonder if instead of that person telling me about how I look and how I can improve, and instead, telling me that I’m pretty or wonderful or beautiful, how I would have turned out. You never know.. but I do know, that the things that someone says to you can last a lifetime… so this holiday season (i want to say everyday, but some people won’t change)… instead of telling your mother, brother, sister, daughter, son, friend, anyone, that maybe they shouldn’t have that cookie, or that maybe they need to watch what they eat because they are getting a little on the plump side, maybe say, hey… you know what? you are beautiful. I love you……… because I sure as hell can’t remember the last time that one person said that instead of a way I can improve myself.

    So, if you do anything today… tell someone they are beautiful, tell them they are perfect. and most of all… tell them you love them.

  • It's the end of the world as we know it…..

    WELL, today is the big day, DECEMBER 21th… ya’ll know what that means…. APPARENTLY the world ends TODAY!!! it hasn’t happened yet, but there’s still a whole day to go…. HAHAHAHAHA…. what a funny idea that is, because CLEARLY we are NOT dying today… I mean come on Mayan’s, the world doesn’t just end, just like I can’t lose 50 pounds in 1 week. Just retarded….

    2012 movieBut JUST IN CASE, if by some really weird reason the end of the world actually DOES happen today, I want to leave ya’ll with some stuff I wanted to say before we all parish… (because clearly, if we all go, you are all going to survive because you will take your limo with john cusak, drive through the cracking world in LA and find a bunch of russians who own a plane and drive to the magical submarine/boat/airplanes in china, and then of COURSE keep my blog up because all the people that survive are going to need tips on how to lose weight HAHAHA… because that’s what’s going to REALLY happen) Anyways… sorry, lost my train of thought. So, in case this all happens tomorrow, I have somethings to say……….

    First of all – why is it ok that people aren’t just accepted for being whatever size they are? Like really people, why does this society make it so that a larger women is deemed “fat” or that if you aren’t a size 2, you are technically “overweight”…. why is it that bad food is cheaper then good food…. why is it that all fast food places are unhealthy and gross, instead of some of them being healthy and clean and yummy….. why is it that guys won’t get to know a larger girl for her personality instead of just writing her off for not being the size of a victoria’s secret model? Women size 6 and above are good people too 🙂 Why is it that its WAY easier to gain weight than it is to lose it? Why did the early people think it was ok to introduce unhealthy food into this world because if they hadn’t, WE WOULDN’T have obesity issues!!!! WHY ARE BACON EGG AND CHEESES SO DAMN GOOD?!?!? WHY WHY WHYYYYYY! I know what I don’t have a question about, I’m so lucky to not have to worry about my weight infront of my best friend and love of my freaking life, so thank you for that one babe…. WHY is it that we don’t have a victoria’s secret runway show with size XL and above? I WOULD TOTALLY ROCK THAT SHIT…. why does alcohol tastes so good, but is full of calories and makes you act like an idiot?!?!?! WHY IS NEIL PATRICK HARRIS GAY?!?! I LOVE HIM! (sorry juan haha)…. and why, why why why, do girls think too much about their appearance instead of just who they are as a person?!?!! JUST STOP! Just be happy in your own skin… you ARE BEAUTIFUL! 🙂 and last but not least, why did I get introduced to this awesome gym which now all I want to do is workout with these amazing people?!?!?! You’re KILLING ALL MY FREE TIME! COME ON! and ok I swear, last last LAST why is it that it takes a week to lose a pound but one cookie to gain it all back – i know, all i want is to be happy healthy, strong, all that stuff, but being smaller and fitting better clothes, and through DOORS, is also something i want, and I will get there… just give me some time!!!!!

    SO we haven’t died yet, but guess what, I LOVE all you people so much, and I love that you are supporting me through all this crapola – and alllllll that stuff! but for now, HERE ARE SOME GOOD HOLIDAY COOKIE SWAPS IF YOU NEED TO MAKE SOME LAST MINUTE COOKIES, these are better then the normal stuff!!!

     

    410x290-cookies_christmas_0Holiday Sugar Cookies with Royal Icing

    Healthy Swap: White whole wheat flour instead of all-purpose flour. The slightly sweet taste and pale color of this flour preserve the delicate flavor and look of traditional sugar cookies while boosting fiber.

     

    Bonus: Royal icing contains no butter and can be piped or spread as the foundation for your favorite adornments (like dragees, colored sugars, and nonpareils). Be sure to work quickly, as the icing dries to a hard finish.

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    Chocolate-Coconut Rum Balls

    Dried dates and apricots naturally sweeten this alternative recipe for traditional rum balls. Party guests will love the melt-in-your-mouth, bite-size treats.

     

    Healthy Swap: Brown rice syrup instead of refined white sugar. Brown rice syrup (sold in natural food markets) has a mild, buttery sweetness that’s great in baked goods. Compared with refined sweeteners, it’s less likely to cause blood sugar spikes, and it supplies important nutrients like potassium.

    Bonus: These flavorful no-bake cookies get a shot of fiber from honey-sweetened graham crackers and antioxidant-rich dried fruit (dates are an especially good source).

    410x290-poppy_biscotti-410x290-poppy_biscottiVanilla Poppy Seed Biscotti

     

    This gentle vanilla biscotti is perfect for dunking into a warm mug of coffee or tea.

     

    Healthy Swap: Canola oil instead of butter. Replacing a saturated solid fat with an oil rich in MUFAs (monounsaturated fatty acids) protects your heart and keeps these lightly sweet cookies tender.

    Bonus: We cut cholesterol by using two whole eggs and two egg whites, instead of three whole eggs.

    410x290-peanutbutter_chocchunks_cookiesPeanut Butter Cookies with Chocolate Chunks

    Peanut butter lovers: bookmark this recipe! A rich chocolate centerpiece surrounded by heart-healthy natural peanut butter creates a winning holiday combo.

    Healthy Swap: Natural peanut butter instead of processed peanut butter. When shopping for peanut butter, look for natural brands that aren’t made with any partially hydrogenated oils, which create unhealthy trans fats. The only ingredients in such jars are peanuts and salt.

    Bonus: Peanut butter is a good source of vitamin E and magnesium and contains mostly monounsaturated fat, which may reduce your risk of cardiovascular disease.

    410x290-molasses_cookiesChewy Molasses Cookies

    Ginger and cinnamon mix with molasses for a spiced treat. Enjoy these little gems with an afternoon glass of milk or an evening glass of red wine.

    Healthy Swap: Whole wheat pastry flour instead of all-purpose flour. Whole wheat pastry flour is rich in healthy fiber (9 g per cup) like regular whole wheat flour but has less gluten. (Too much of this protein can lead to hard cookies.)

    Bonus: Using egg whites instead of whole eggs can help lower cholesterol.

    Read more: http://www.prevention.com/food/cook/20-holiday-cookie-recipes/chewy-molasses-cookies#ixzz2FhC8YPkf

  • I cried……

    I was upset i didn't look like this!

    I was upset i didn’t look like this!

    Well, it’s Monday – just kidding it’s tuesday……. you know what that means…. yep, wedding dress shopping happened. It definitely happened… but was it as bad as I thought it was going to be? At the beginning, YES, oh HELL YES…. So to start, we walked into Soliloquy bridal in Herndon, and man, was it GORG… the boutique itself was just so pretty, and you just felt so comfortable going in there… so that made me feel better when we walked in – but THEN we got into the dressing room…. well, WELL…… So let’s just say this… when your mom is all like “I can’t wait to see you in a dress, I’m going to cry” yada yada yada, all you want to do is make her happy… so that was the biggest thing on my mind, was making sure I walked out of there and made her cry. So I’m sitting in the dressing room with Val and the lady that works there, and we are picking out some dresses to try on… my first thought is don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry if you can’t fit into the dress.. you probably won’t be able to, but eventually we will find one that you can… so yep, dress number 1, no go, dress number 2, no go, dress number 3….. no go again… all of the sudden the tear ducts start swelling and I just feel like, why am I doing this, why is this happening, I’m fat, I’m miserable, I don’t want to do this… thankfully I kept the tears back – I didn’t want to feel embarrassed in front of the women helping us… Anyways… finally, it’s funny because I finally try on the dress that I thought was going to be the one… IT was a Sarah Seven dress and the dress I had thought I would be wearing on my wedding day for the longest time… welp, I put on that dress, and yes it fit, but it looked like shit. Naturally I was like I am NOT going out there, I am not showing my mom, but then I was like, she just wants to see me in a damn dress, that’s all she wants, get her cry over and let’s move on…… so, I say fuck it – and leave the dressing room… the look on my moms face.. HAHA it was like, ummmmm I want to cry because I said I would cry but we don’t like this dress hahahaha… how funny… I walk out, she’ goes OHHHHH, and I walk right back in.

    That was my moment of defeat.. I thought, great, this is not going to work, this is going to suck, this DOES suck….. thats when the tears started… I just couldn’t hold back… I thought to myself I’m never going to get skinny for this wedding, all the hard work for the past 16 weeks, WHAT FOR? I should have just been sitting at home eating cheetos and pizza and watching gossip girl… then the girl brought in a dress.. a dress that i thought was perfect. It was simple, elegant and me. and guess what, I FIT INTO IT… ahhh, that moment where i just felt this relief off my shoulders, it was amazing…. I tried that on, walked out, and finally got the reaction I was hoping from my mom, well, everyone, we all started crying. But this wasn’t a “I hate myself” cry, this was a wow, I’ve got this, I did it, I can do it, I can KEEP doing it…. I felt great… I felt like this was finally the dress… and still, I’m still having a hard time deciding between it because it’s just so beautiful and elegant and HAS POCKETS! hahaha… well anyways, we all cried, we thought that was the one, and we thought we were done.

    TILL that evening when we went to the dress boutique by my house… now I’m known here… known for coming in with friends for their wedding dresses, known for getting alterations for my bridesmaids dresses, known for being the girl from 27 dresses, always the bridesmaid, never the bride.. and finally, FINALLY the bride… they welcomed me with open arms and we got right to work. The difference with this boutique is that their designers make the dresses so basically anyone can fit into them, they just have to lace you in! haha… and there, we tried on like 10 dresses! I fit into all of them… even one with a corset and she got me in that dress and I swore i lost 40 pounds… but we were nearing the end, I was feeling good finally about the fact that I could get into these dresses… and I saw this one dress I never thought I would try on, but I did… and guess what, it’s the one. It’s the one times 100000! I felt so happy and relieved, we cried, and cried and CRIED… i finally felt like a bride, i finally felt like the hard work I’ve been putting in had been paying off……..

    Just like the shirt says... you don't have to be great to start but you have to START to be great (and not give up!)))

    Just like the shirt says… you don’t have to be great to start but you have to START to be great (and not give up!)))

    Till that night. The more I look at myself in the dresses, the more I’m like, I dont like how I look… the more I think about how i need to work harder, but then my mind comes back to kick me in the ass – my mind says, andrea, yes, you love yourself for who you are, who cares if you don’t look like a million bucks in your dress, you are stressed right now, work is hard, your commute sucks, why not take a break? But then my body is like no. DON’T STOP…… but then we go back and just all this crap with work and my commute, I just get down and want to give up – yesterday was hard and stressful and so is today (and it’s only noon) and all i want to do is cry and give up… but I know I can’t… I know I have a long way to go but I also know I’ve come a long way… I won’t give up, but that doesn’t mean that sometimes all I want to do is give up.

    How many days till Christmas?!?!?!?! So SOON….. lots of LOTS of presents under the trees, can’t CANT WAIT TO SEE MY FAMILY – here’s another fun holiday recipe from dashing dish you guys can try instead of bringing something unhealthy!

     Buffalo Chicken Chili

    1 lb Boneless skinless chicken breasts, chopped into bite size pieces
    1 Small onion, chopped (about 1 cup)
    4 Stalks celery, sliced (about 1 cup)
    1 (15 oz) can Corn
    1 small Yellow or orange bell pepper
    1 (28 oz) can Diced tomatoes, drained
    1 (15 oz) can Great northern beans, drained, rinsed
    1 (15 oz) can Kidney beans, drained and rinsed (or black beans or 1 additional can of great northern beans)
    Day-8-main (1)1/2 cup Chicken broth (or ½ cup water + 1 chicken bullion cube)
    2 tsp Chili powder (or to taste)
    2 pkts Stevia (or pinch of sweetener of choice, optional)
    1/2 tsp Salt
    1/4 cup-1/2 cup Franks red hot wings buffalo sauce (amount will vary depending on desired heat)
    Optional: Shredded mozzarella or crumbled blue cheese for topping if desired
    Nutrition Breakdown
    12 Servings (about 1 cup per serving)
    115 Calories per Serving
    1 g Fat
    14 g Carbohydrate
    3 g Fiber
    1 g Sugar
    12 g Protein
    3 WWP+

    Method:
    THE ESTIMATED TOTAL TIME TO MAKE THIS RECIPE IS 1+ HOURS.
    1 Crockpot Cooking: Spray a crock pot with non-stick cooking spray. Mix all of the ingredients together in the crockpot, (except for the buffalo wing sauce and cheese for topping). Cover and cook on Low heat setting 8 to 10 hours. Stir in hot sauce before serving, and top with cheese if desired.
    2 Stovetop Cooking: Add everything (except for the hot sauce and optional cheese) to a large pot with an additional 1 cup of water, and cover. Cook on medium low heat for about 45 minutes, or until all of the vegetables are tender and chicken is cooked through. Then add hot sauce and stir. Top with cheese if desired!

  • 'Tis the season, to be happy, not SAD!

    i love eating so much

    A lot of things have been going through my head the past few days… some good, some bad, some happy, some sad… its funny, I was having a conversation with my friend this morning and we were talking about how insecure I am, and about how all I want is to feel accepted in my family.. I don’t know if it stems from not having a good relationship with my dad growing up, and the negative things he used to say about my weight etc, or what… but, she said, has anyone ever said they are proud of you? And honestly, I’m not exactly sure that anyone ever has…. I feel like I go through life trying to be something, or make someone proud, and have someone say, “I’m proud of you”. Maybe my mom has, I’m sure… but I apparently still long for my dad, or my grandparents or someone to tell me they are proud of me. I think now with this blog, I wonder if I write my feelings and am open about all this weight loss because I want to have that feeling that someone is listening, someone thinks I can do it – and is that bad? Is it bad that maybe one of the big reasons that I write is because I just want to feel like someone gets it, like someone is supporting me through this? Weight loss is one of the hardest things in the whole entire world, and honestly, I don’t know if I would be as far along as I am right now without this blog or without the people at the gym, etc. and I know I say that all the time, but I really do wonder. I wonder if people didn’t read, and make comments like “you are doing amazing” “keep it up” “you are motivating me” that I would still be doing this.. still writing, still being held accountable… I really do wonder. Is that bad? Is it bad that when I write, I hope that someone can relate and talk to me about it… is it bad that I’m looking for someone to tell me they are proud of what I have accomplished? I mean shit, it’s just weight loss, it’s not winning a nobel peace prize or something… But why do I want someone to tell me they are proud of me so bad?

    Then I also think, are people saying these things just because I write the things I write? Because I get down on myself? I dont know, I’m totally rambling right now…. Last night I was sad… I was sad because of a few things, because I didn’t get to work out, because my friends don’t understand anymore that all i want to do is be healthy and work out and going out drinking isn’t my first priority anymore… i was sad I didn’t see my gym friends, I mean this has really become my life. But why am I sad? Why can’t I just be happy…. I think weight loss and everything that changes really takes a toll on your heart, because you really go through a lot… you have to stay motivated to be at the gym everyday, you have to make sure your eating right, and if you aren’t hanging out with people that have the same goals as you, you can fall off track… I think about it like this, it’s almost like AA or something… like if I had a drinking problem and I was in rehab and I came out, I would have to hang out with other people who didn’t want to drink, and other people that have the same ideas about having fun as me. It’s kind of the same thing here…. this is like LIFE REHAB… if you want to get better, if you want to lose the weight, you have to commit. You can’t keep saying, tomorrow, tomorrow…. and thats what I used to do – I’m I don’t know, 17 weeks in, I’ve never felt better physically, I’ve got a great bunch of new friends, but still, something tugs  at your heart strings… something is there, it’s still a struggle and a challenge, and I still cry, a lot.. because people don’t get it… they don’t get that this is now your life, and you aren’t doing the things you used to do, but guess what, I’m still the same person…… just with different ideas of what to do for fun… like I’d rather do 3 hours of working out then 3 hours of drinking… I’d rather be sore and in pain the next day then hungover…. I’m still happy me, but am I really? There’s too much drama that comes along with a life change like this… and it sucks….

    Ok, I’m done… I haven’t worked out in 2 days and IM DYING. I need to get back in the gym… I just seriously hate a day that goes by that I don’t go to Raise the Bar. my mom is here so that means the dreaded wedding dress shopping weekend is here…… wish me luck, I’m going to need it to get through this weekend. UGH.

    Anyways, I read this article on fitsugar the other day and I wanted to share, because I think all this stuff is great to know!

    MOTIVATIONAL FITNESS TIPS TO LAST YOU THROUGH THE NEW YEAR

    It can be tough to stick with fitness goals as the season changes — especially when that season brings holiday parties, cold weather, and a handful of easy outs. Use these tips to stay motivated to take you straight into the New Year.

    Be realistic: Having goals and being realistic about what they are can be two very different ideas. If you have a busy work schedule, don’t commit yourself to workouts that will be impossible to get to. Set an exercise schedule, weight-loss plan, or diet plan that realistically aligns with your daily life. That way you won’t be compromising other important areas in order to achieve these goals.
    Jot it down: Writing workouts into your calendar will make you twice as likely to go because it holds you more accountable. You can look at class schedules in advance to find out when your favorite instructors are teaching and what times best coincide with your work schedule. Not only will you be able to plan ahead, but it will also give you a chance to look back on your progress and see how many times a week you broke a sweat.

    Build a posse: Including friends in your fitness routine can help immensely when it comes to sticking with your goals. Being social through fitness avenues such as running clubs or yoga dates helps to associate workouts with fun. Seeing others meet their goals will also give you more incentive to tread on.

    Keep it seasonal: Just like produce, picking activities that are in season helps to give you a better palette for exercise. Choose indoor activities like yoga or indoor cycling that will prevent you from getting bummed that you can’t run outside because of the weather. The more perfect a workout is for the season, the better suited for you.

    Tweet about it: Studies show that women who use social media to show off hard work and dedication are more likely to keep it up. The positive encouragement from your peers is similar to that of a trainer: kudos for something specific, such as making a healthy meal and posting a picture of it, or checking in at a boot camp on Foursquare or Facebook.

    Mix it up: Variety is key in making yourself work harder. The reason people always do well in the beginning stages of a new routine or diet is often because of the newness of it all. To keep your workout and plate feeling refreshed, change it up from time to time. You may be a member at a yoga studio, but that doesn’t mean you can’t ride a bike on off days. Mixing it up will combat boredom and keep you energized throughout the journey.

    Visualize the end goal: Remember why you made these goals in the first place. Diets and exercise plans can get mundane halfway through, so keep your eye on the prize. If you’re visual, change your desktop screen to a fit celebrity you admire. This will remind you why you made the healthy change in the first place and shine some light at the end of the tunnel.
    http://www.fitsugar.com/Motivational-Fitness-Tips-Holidays-25926545

     

  • 2013…. The year of runs, weight loss and weddings!

    So it’s Monday, and Monday also means the countdown to the dreaded wedding dress shopping is now down to 5 days… I wonder if like, I could go to a boutique, ask them to take down all the mirrors and then just put on a dress, come out, show my mom and my friends, and then say, does this look good or not, and NEVER have to look at myself in the dress… I just really don’t – do you think they would go to such great lengths to help a sister out?!?! no? nope not a little bit? HAHA… I swear, it’s every larger girls worst fear… the DAMN MIRROR. At the gym, avoid mirrors at all cost, in your bathroom, avoid, in dressing rooms, avoid… OMG dressing rooms are the worst, I swear they like fill the dressing rooms with mirrors just so you feel bad for yourself, you can’t even turn around to maybe try on clothes with your back facing the mirror without finding that there’s also a mirror on the door! LIKE REALLY PEOPLE?!?! Some people don’t want to try on clothes and look at themselves. I mean DUH! I still don’t like it and I’m losing weight… like I go to target, and I even can see what my back looks like and I hate it – I hate actually seeing what I look like… we shouldn’t have to do it HAHAHA… just tell us if we look good or not, that’s all I want. I don’t need to see it.

    Anywayyyssss – so yeah, Saturday is supposed to be a happy day, but it’s to be perfectly honest, doomsday for me. HAHAHA… Hopefully my mom is happy, that’s all that matters, she’s waiting her whole life for me to get married (yeah, I clearly have been planning this wedding since I was like 2, but barbies were WAY hotter then me in wedding dresses hahaha)… and she’s been so excited about seeing me in a wedding dress, I’d just rather not. So yeah 5 days left. I will be living at the gym from this evening on. HAHA (is it possible to drop ummm 6 dress sizes by Saturday?!?!? if so, let me know!)

    So besides 2013 being the year of our wedding, I’m also making it a goal to run some runs…. Might be starting with the Dirty Girl in Vegas in Feb with Lisa, (but that might end up being changed to just a snowboarding trip because it’s winter and all we want to do is ride), but DEF signed up and doing the dirty girl in May in Scranton with my friends and my mom!!! awwww, and thennnnn trying to join the team for the Tough Mudder in June… that’s going to be the ultimate goal for me – if I can get through a tough mudder, I can get through anything… so we will see.. my gym does the runs as a team, and I’m DEF the weakest link, and would never want to hold them back, so that would be my only hesitation… not holding them back – so we will see come May where I am in my workouts and see if I can make it! I hate the running, you will never see me say that I’m getting ready for a marathon… although there’s a chance I might try to do a triathlon, knowing that I can probably walk the run part haha but i love to swim and bike, and would TOTALLY do one of those.. maybe I will do one in September right before the wedding! But yeah, running, not a fan, I like being tough and strong, but i hate to run…. so yeah. HAHA

    Dirty Girl – Vegas and Scranton – I love companies that actually use twitter to chat with you and encourage you to strive for your goals – I had a great twitter convo with Dirty girl last week when I signed up- and they are just great people… I also love tweets like these below from one of my friends back in Albany – It makes me feel good that I can get people to think about getting to the gym, or all that jazzz – but yeah, this one made me happy… thanks JG.

    Other than that, it’s Monday, it’s a new week, and you know what, I LOVE SNACKS, I found this on pinterest this week, and I think its’s great…. check out some of these snacks!!!!

    Mini PB&F: One fig Newton with 1 teaspoon peanut butter.
    Chocolate Banana: Half a frozen banana [this size] dipped in two squares of melted dark chocolate.
    Frozen grapes (any color): 1 cup (about 28 grapes), stuck in the freezer for 2+ hours.
    Honeyed Yogurt: ½ cup nonfat Greek yogurt with a dash of cinnamon and 1 teaspoon honey.
    Spiced Orange: One orange— about the size of a tennis ball— sprinkled with cinnamon.
    Grilled Pineapple: 2 ¼-inch thick pineapple rounds (about 1 cup), grilled (or sautéed) for two minutes or until golden.
    Berries n’ Cream: 1 cup blueberries with 2 tablespoons whipped topping.
    Stuffed Figs: Two small dried figs with 1 tablespoon reduced-fat ricotta stuffed inside. Sprinkle with cinnamon.
    Oats n’ Berries: ⅓ cup rolled oats (cooked with water), topped with cinnamon and ¼ cup freshberries.
    Dark Chocolate: One block, or three squares.
    Nut-Stuffed Date: One Medjool Date filled with one teaspoon natural unsalted almond butter.
    Chocolate Milk: 6 ounces skim milk mixed with 2 teaspoons chocolate syrup.
    Cinnamon Applesauce: 1 cup unsweetened applesauce (like Motts). Or, try this homemade version!
    Citrus-Berry Salad: 1 cup mixed berry salad (raspberries, strawberries, blueberries, and/or blackberries) tossed with one tablespoon fresh-squeezed orange juice.
    Maple-Pumpkin Yogurt: ½ cup non-fat regular yogurt (go Greek for extra protein!) with 2 tablespoons pumpkin puree and 1 teaspoon maple syrup… like this!
    Chocolate Pudding: One 4oz package. Try a fat/sugar free version or a homemade one!
    Chocolate Covered Strawberries: Five strawberries dipped in two squares melted dark chocolate.
    Tropical Juice Smoothie: ¼ cup pineapple juice, orange juice, and apple juice, blended with ice.
    Vanilla and Banana Smoothie: ½ cup sliced banana, ¼ cup nonfat vanilla yogurt, and a handful of ice blended until smooth.
    MYO Banana Chips: One sliced banana dipped in lemon juice and baked.
    Baked Apple: One tennis ball-sized apple, cored, filled with 1 teaspoon brown sugar and cinnamon, and baked until tender.
    Fruity Waffles: One 7-grain frozen waffle toasted and topped with ¼ cup fresh mixed berries.
    Skinny S’more: Two graham crackers with one roasted marshmallow and one small square dark chocolate.
    Cinnamon Graham Crackers & Peanut butter: Two graham cracker squares with 1 teaspoon peanut butter and a sprinkle of cinnamon.
    Cereal and Milk: ½ cup rice krispies with ½ cup skim milk.
    Milk n’ Cookies: Five animal crackers with ½ cup skim milk.
    Warm Spiced Cider: 6 ounces apple cider with sprinkles of cinnamon and nutmeg, warmed.
    Citrus Sherbet: ½ cup lime sherbet (about one standard-sized ice-cream scoop) with ½ sliced kiwi.
    Café Latte: 8 ounces steamed skim milk with 1 shot espresso.
    Jelly Beans: 25 of ‘em! Although we don’t recommend these.
    Marshmallow Pear: ½ pear diced and topped with 1 tablespoon marshmallow fluff.
    Protein Shake: One scoop protein powder with 8 ounces water (choose from tasty powder flavors like cookies n’ cream and chocolate peanut butter!).
    M.Y.O. Popsicle: 8 ounces lemonade frozen in an ice pop mold, or use a small paper cup as a mold.
    Apple Chips: Munch on ¾ cup of kinds like these, or use this recipe
    Carrots n’ Hummus: About 10 baby carrots with 2 tablespoons hummus.
    Pistachios: A couple handfuls— about 25 nuts (Crackin’ them open will take more time and avoid grabbing 25 more).
    Cheese n’ Crackers: Five Kashi 7-grain crackers with 1 stick reduced-fat string cheese.
    Dippy Egg: Oneover easy egg with ½ slice whole-wheat toast, sliced (to dip in yolk!).
    Cheesy Breaded Tomatoes: Two roasted plum tomatoes sliced and topped with 2 tablespoons breadcrumbs and a sprinkle of parmesan cheese.
    Curried Sweet Potato: One medium sweet potato (about 5 inches long) cooked for six minutes in the microwave and mashed with 1 teaspoon curry, and a sprinkle of salt and pepper.
    “Cheesy” Popcorn: 2 cups air-popped popcorn with 1 tablespoon nutritional yeast— it’ll taste like real cheese!
    Guacamole stuffed Egg Whites: Halve a hardboiled egg, remove yolk, and stuff the empty space with 2 tablespoons guacamole (avocado, lime, cilantro and salt).
    Grilled Spinach and Feta Polenta: 3 oz polenta (about the size of a deck of cards) cooked with 1 ½ cups water and topped with 1 teaspoon feta cheese and a handful spinach.
    Soy Edamame: ¼ cup boiled Edamame with 1 teaspoon soy sauce.
    Dijon Pretzels: Two pretzel rods with 1 tablespoon Dijon mustard.
    Crunchy Curried Tuna Salad: ½ cup canned tuna with 1 teaspoon curry powder, 1 tablespoon chopped red onion, and two ribs celery (chopped).
    Greek Tomatoes: One tomato (about the size of a tennis ball) chopped and mixed with 1 tablespoon feta and a squeeze of lemon juice.
    Shrimp Cocktail: Eight medium sized shrimp boiled and served with 2 tablespoons classic cocktail sauce.
    Smoked Beef Jerky: About 1 ounce— look for low sodium versions!
    Cheddar and Tomato Soup: ½ cup tomato soup with 1 tablespoon shredded low-fat cheddar cheese.
    Kale Chips: ½ cup raw kale— stems removed— baked with 1 teaspoon olive oil at 400° until crisp.
    Sweet Potato Fries: One light-bulb sized sweet potato sliced, tossed with 1 teaspoon olive oil, and baked at 400° for 10 minutes.
    Cucumber Sandwich: ½ English muffin with 2 tablespoons cottage cheese and three slices of cucumber.
    Turkey Roll-Ups: Four slices smoked turkey rolled up and dipped in 2 teaspoons honey mustard.
    Mixed Olives: About 8 olives.
    Antipasto Plate: One Pepperocini, a ½ inch cube of cheddar cheese, one slice pepperoni, and one olive.
    Pumpkin Seeds: 2 tablespoons pumpkin seeds, sprayed with oil (just a spritz!) and baked at for 400° for 15 minutes or until brown. Sprinkle with kosher salt.
    Choco-Soy Nuts: 3 tablespoons soy nuts with 1 teaspoon cocoa nibs.
    Wasabi Peas: About ⅓ cup of these green treats.
    Balsamic Veggies: 3 cups raw peppers (any color!) dipped in 2 tablespoons balsamic reduction.
    Cheesy Roasted Asparagus: Four spears (spritzed with olive-oil spray) and topped with 2 tablespoons grated parmesan cheese, baked for 10 minutes at 400°.
    Cucumber salad: One large cucumber (sliced) with 2 tablespoons chopped red onion and 2 tablespoons apple-cider vinegar.
    Spinach and Feta Egg-White Scramble: Three egg whites scrambled and mixed with ½ cup raw spinach and 1 tbsp feta cheese. Cook in frying pan or zap in microwave until egg whites are no longer runny (about 1-2 minutes).
    Crunchy Kale Salad: 1 cup kale leaves chopped with 1 teaspoon honey and 1 tablespoon balsamic vinegar.
    Chick Pea Salad: ¼ chickpeas with 1 tablespoon sliced scallions, a squeeze of lemon juice, and ¼ cup diced tomatoes.
    Grilled Garlic Corn on the Cob: One small-sized ear brushed with 1 teaspoon sautéed minced garlic and 1 teaspoon olive oil, grilled until tender.
    Pretzels & Cream Cheese: 15mini pretzel sticks with 2 tablespoons fat-free cream cheese.
    Bacon Brussels Salad: Seven brussel spouts thinly sliced and mixed with one piece lean bacon, chopped.
    Rosemary Potatoes: ⅓ cup thinly sliced potato tossed with 1 teaspoons olive oil and a teaspoon of chopped rosemary.
    Spicy Black Beans: ¼ cup black beans with 1 tablespoon salsa and 1 tablespoon non-fat Greek yogurt.
    Caprese Salad: 1 ounce (hockey puck sized) of fresh mozzarella with ½ cup cherry tomatoes and 2 teaspoons of balsamic vinegar.
    Goldfish: About 40 fishies…try the cheddar kind!
    Chips n’ Salsa: 10 baked tortilla chips with ¼ cup salsa.
    Mini Ham Sandwich: Two slices honey-baked ham with 2 teaspoons honey mustard rolled in a lettuce leaf.
    Lox Bagel: ½ whole-wheat mini bagel with two thin slices of lox.
    Chocolate Trail Mix: Eight almonds, four chocolate chips, and 1 tablespoon raisins.
    Apples and Cheese: 1 non-fat mozzarella cheese stick with half of a baseball-sized apple (any variety), sliced.
    PB & Celery: 1 medium celery stalk with 1 tablespoon peanut butter.
    Cottage Cheese Melon Boat: 1 cup melon balls with ½ cup non-fat cottage cheese.
    Carrot and Raisin Salad: 1 cup shaved carrots with 2 tablespoons raisins and 1 tablespoon balsamic vinegar.
    Tropical Cottage Cheese: ½ cup non-fat cottage cheese with ½ cup fresh mango and pineapple, chopped.
    Blue-Cheese Stuffed Apricots: Three dried apricots with 1 tablespoon crumbled blue cheese.
    Rice Cake and Almond Butter: One rice cake (try brown rice!) with 2 teaspoons almond butter.
    Sweet n’ Spicy Pecans: Five pecans roasted with 2 teaspoons maple syrup and 1 teaspoon cinnamon.
    Apples n’ Peanut Butter: ½ an apple, sliced and dipped in 1 teaspoon natural peanut butter.
    Chocolate Hazelnut Crackers: Four wheat thins dipped in 1 teaspoon Nutella (or other hazelnut spread).
    Strawberry Salad: 1 cup raw spinach with ½ cup sliced strawberries and 1 tablespoon balsamic.
    Cacao-Roasted Almonds: Pop in eight almonds like these

  • I'm Not Sexy and I Know It

    Before I get into the juice of today’s post I must tell you I FOUND THE PERFECT WORKOUT PANTS!!!!! Thank you OLD NAVY for kicking ass and making it so my shit didn’t jiggle this morning during our 10 minutes of jump rope!!!!!!! Here are the pants, old navy control max compression pants. Yeah so what if they go up to your sports bra, YOUR SHIT DOESN’T JIGGLE!!!!!!! anyways I love these and I need to get about 10 more pair HERE

    So back in the day, I just found this – i had made a song hahahahahahaha

    Ok it goes a little like this:

    To the tune of LMFAO’s Sexy and I know it.

    I’m not sexy and I’m ok with it – I should work out – jiggle jiggle jiggle yeahhhhhhh

    “I’m not sexy and I know it”

    Yeah, yeah

    When I walk on by, boys be looking like damn she’s not fly
    I pimp to the beat, walking on the street in my new lafreak, yeah
    This is how I roll, sweat pants, jiggle outta control,
    It’s Andrea with the big roll
    And like Precious I don’t fit the moldAh… Girl look at that body
    Ah… Girl look at that body
    Ah… Girl look at that body
    Ah… I dont work out
    Ah… Girl look at that body
    Ah… Girl look at that body
    Ah… Girl look at that body
    Ah… I dont work outWhen I walk in the gym (yeah), this is what I see (ok)
    Everybody stops and they staring at me
    I got booty in my pants and rolls up top I’m super afraid to show, show, show, show

    I’m not sexy and I im ok with it Yeah
    I’m not sexy and I im ok with it Yeah

    When I’m at the mall, gotta find XXL clothes
    And when I’m at the beach, I’m in a one-piece trying to tan my cheeks (what)

    This is how I roll, come on dudes it’s time to go
    We headed to the bar, dude don’t be nervous
    No shoes, no shirt, and I get boo’ed back out (watch)

    Ah… Girl look at that body [x3]
    Ah… I don’t work out
    Ah… Girl look at that body [x3]
    Ah…I don’t work out

    When I walk in the gym (yeah), this is what I see (ok)
    Everybody stops and they staring at me
    I got booty in my pants and rolls up top I’m super afraid to show, show, show, show

    I’m not sexy and I im ok with it Yeah
    I’m not sexy and I im ok with it Yeah

    I’m not sexy and I know it…

    Check it out [x2]
    Jiggle, jiggle, jiggle, jiggle, jiggle yeah [x3]
    Jiggle, jiggle, jiggle, jiggle, jiggle yeah, yeah
    Do the jiggle girl
    I do the jiggle girl
    Yeah
    I’m not sexy and I know it

    Ah… Girl look at that body [x3]
    Ah… YOU don’t work out
    Ah… Girl look at that body [x3]
    Ah…YOU don’t work out

    Yeah I’m NOT sexy and I’M NOT OK WITH IT ANYMORE!

    Yeah, so had to share that with you when I was in my super super down and outs hahaha – it’s horrible, but some parts are funny, especially when you sing it to the tune!

    I go wedding dress shopping in 7 days.. I’m freaking out, but it’s ok – it’s FRIDAY, I got my workout in, and I’m ready to kick some ass today!!!!!!!!  Here’s a yummy recipe for the weekend!

    SHUT UP
    Peppermint Frappuccino Cupcakes

    Ingredients
    3 Egg whites

    1 cup Low fat plain Greek yogurt
    1 cup Unsweetened almond milk (or low fat milk of choice)
    1 3/4 cup Old fashioned oats (use gluten free if sensitive)
    3/4 cup Unsweetened cocoa powder
    1 1/2 tsp Baking powder
    1 1/2 tsp Baking soda
    1/2 tsp Salt
    1 cup Baking stevia OR 2 cups sweetener that measures like sugar
    2 (1 oz) Baking chocolate squares (or 2 oz chocolate chips)
    2 tsp Peppermint extract
    1 tbs Instant coffee mix
    2 tbs Coffee creamer (or 2 additional tbs milk)

    Chocolate Buttercream Frosting:
    2 (1 oz) Baking chocolate (or 2 oz chocolate chips)
    1/2 cup Low fat plain Greek yogurt
    1/2 cup Baking stevia OR 1 cup sweetener that measures like sugar
    1/2-1 tsp Peppermint extract (use according to desired taste)
    1 (8 oz) container Tru Whip OR Cool Whip Light

    Nutrition Breakdown

    18 Cupcakes
    77 Calories Each (50 calories per cupcake without frosting)
    4 g Fat
    10 g Carbohydrate
    2 g Fiber
    2 g Sugar
    4 g Protein
    2 WWP+*

    1) Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Line 18 muffin tins with cupcake holders.
    2) To make the Cupcakes: place oats and liquid ingredients into a blender or food processor. Blend until oats are smooth. Pour mixture into a large bowl, and mix with the rest of the ingredients until combined. Pour into cupcake liners and bake for 22-25 minutes, or until a toothpick comes out clean. Let cool completely before frosting.
    3) To make the Frosting: Place the chocolate in a medium microwave safe bowl, and microwave for 1 1/2 -2 minutes, or until melted, stirring every 30 seconds. Once melted, mix yogurt, stevia, and peppermint extract into chocolate until a thick ‘frosting’ texture forms. Fold in whipped topping. Chill until ready to frost cupcakes.

  • It's just one of those days….. Ugh.

    So much on my brain today… so much…. like for one… I don’t know why, but I keep having these thoughts daily about giving up – I don’t know why, I don’t know how, I don’t know if it’s just because its the holidays and I dont want to watch what I eat, or because I want to sleep more instead of working out, I just don’t know — maybe it’s also because last night I was trying to do a picstich of my progression and I wasn’t seeing any change… and I sent it to Ashley and I said I was upset, this is what she had to say to that… (see convo haha..) well she’s right… trying to analyze changes on your own body that’s the hardest thing.. I look at myself daily, so to me, I can’t see a change… and yeah, people tell me my face is skinnier, my clothes are fitting better and those are the most important things, but at the same time, my mind is telling me I’m not working hard enough, or I’m not dropping fast enough… these thoughts need to get their asses kicked because they are bringing me down… It’s so much harder when you only have your eyes, yeah you can trust that people think you are losing weight, but until you have hit such a DRASTIC change, you can’t really tell… (or at least I can’t)

    Here’s the other thing, today was a cardio day at bootcamp, and when you say cardio, no it’s not running on a treadmill – it’s doing high intensity exercises that get your heart rate up and get your ass kicked… I HAAAAAATE CARDIO DAYS WITH A PASSION – I need to know ahead of time so I can wear like compression tank tops so my shit doesn’t bounce around the whole time… and jacks, oh jacks, everyone knows how i feel about jacks hahaha I just hate them… AND I’m in this stage where my current workout clothes (pants) aren’t fitting, so unless i go out and buy all new ones, my pants fall down! UGH SO ANNOYING… plus I can never finish the cardio, I just feel like shit, my knees kill, I;m out of breath, I just want to die…


    I really do thank whoever made it mandatory to list calories on foods at a restaurant… I totally 2nd guess EVERYTHING i eat now knowing that I know exactly how many calories I am putting in my body if I eat that salad or burger…. so that’s good – random I know but I wanted to mention it.

    UGH I just want to be down to a size 10 by next weekend when I go wedding dress shopping…. I really REALLY wish I could have been down that small, but I know it’s unrealistic… I don’t want to do the shopping, as the days get closer, I get more and more scared… maybe ill come down with the flu and won’t have to do the wedding dress shopping after all!

    Here’s my last random thing – so, yes this is gross, but this is what i do – i wake up, i shower, i go to the gym and do bootcamp and immediately get on the train to go to work and then work – so yeah, it’s GROSS, I get it, and I’m sure everyone thinks I’m gross for doing it, but WHAT am I supposed to do? I have 10 minutes between boot and the train to get there, the gym doesn’t have a shower, my office doesn’t have a shower, and I don’t have to interact with anyone at work… so yeah, it’s probably gross, but it’s also what I have to do to get into the gym everyday! So I’m sorry in advance if I ever smell for some reason when you see me, but I’m trying. hahaha

    Ok my venting is over – I just wish I never got this big, so that all of this would be easier….

     

  • HOT, SEXY, Victoria's Secret Models……

    This is what I would look like if I were a model – super hot I know.

    My name is Andrea, and I am NOT, NOR WILL I EVER BE, as HOT as a Victoria’s Secret model! Let down, don’t want to date me? Upset that my future self won’t be super hot and skinny? That’s fine, I’m engaged anyways… but for real… let’s talk about this for a second… besides the perfect VGD… why would you want to be that skinny? (friends that are that skinny, I’m not talking about you)… I mean I guess it looks good but some girls just look sickly… it also pisses me off that, THAT is the way the perfect women is “supposed” to look… like WTF where are the muscles, where’s the booty, I mean shit, skin and bones… really? I hate that the perfect size for a women is a 0. What about a women that had kids – what about women that are POWER players in their careers and don’t have time to work out? What about women with crappy metabolism’s? What about women with health issues… why can’t they be viewed as the norm??? HUH?? I mean really… It’s hard enough being a larger woman – having to shop at certain stores to get clothes, stores where you are 100% viewed as a larger women if you go into them…. why is that fair – thats where a lot of my self esteem issues come from – I don’t look like a VS model, nor will I ever, NOR do I want too… EVEN AFTER I get down to my “ideal size” size 6 or 8, I don’t want to go any smaller then that… I want big muscles, I want to be fit, I want abs, and I don’t want to have to worry about making sure that my body fat is at .1%!

    instead of looking like a model i look like this!

    I don’t know why I’m going on a rant so bad – maybe because it’s stupid that boys don’t like you if you aren’t a size 2, maybe it’s because I’m jealous of skinny people, because I want to be skinny (but again, I want to be healthy, not just skinny) – maybe it’s because I WANT SOME DAMN PIZZA and these models probably eat it all the time and then walk down the runway and say “ahhh ohh well I’m so hot and skinny and just ate half of a pizza”… they are like super human beings from space.. shit maybe they are aliens?!?! Who knows, but models suck. I’m sorry, they just do – do you know how long it would take me to get to model size? I DONT EVEN THINK MY BODY WOULD LET ME…. I lose a pound of fat a week – it would take me like 5 years to get that skinny!!!!!

    Can I just vent for a minute – (as if I wasn’t already duh) why is it SO HARD to eat healthy, to workout daily, to count calories… like I’m sitting here, I think I have the gym thing nailed down, that’s fine, it’s part of my daily life… but like, making sure I’m only eating a certain amount of calories and those amounts of calories being from foods that aren’t fatty or crappy… ugghhhh sometimes I just wish that I could give up and go back to the way I used to be… but not really because I just didn’t like the way I felt or looked.. clearly.

    So I’m having this for dinner, because it’s better then going to get McDonalds since I’ll be working all night tonight…

    Garlic Brown Sugar Chicken

    Ingredients
    Brown Sugar, 4 tsp unpacked
    Chicken Breast, no skin, 12 ounces
    Garlic, 1 clove
    Butter, salted, 2 tbsp
    Salt, 1 tsp
    Pepper, black, 1 dash

    Nutritional Info
    Servings Per Recipe: 4
    Amount Per Serving
    Calories: 156.9
    Total Fat: 6.8 g
    Cholesterol: 64.6 mg
    Sodium: 678.8 mg
    Total Carbs: 3.2 g
    Dietary Fiber: 0.0 g
    Protein: 19.7 g

    This makes four servings, 3 oz per person
    1. Melt the butter in a frying pan
    2. Brown the garlic in the butter
    3. Add chicken breasts to garlic and butter and cook thoroughly, adding salt and pepper as you like it.
    4. When chicken is fully cooked add brown sugar on top of each breast
    5. Allow the brown sugar to melt into the chicken (about 5 minutes)
    6. Serve with your favorite carb, and veggie or salad. We usually have rice or noodles and carrots or green beans.

    Number of Servings: 4