SO I’m sitting here, and every time someone comments on a post I get an email, and I read that email.. and its funny – so many people say I’m looking so good and they can see a big difference… and I BELIEVE them, 1,000,000% but…… BUT BUT BUT…. to me, I just don’t see it. I mean I feel better, I feel smaller, I fit into clothes better, I feel stronger… I feel so much, but when I look in the mirror haha, what I see is still where I was 50lbs ago… DUDE like I still see the million chins, I still see the belly, I seeeeeeee it all. WHY can’t I stop seeing it! Here’s my number one thing NOT TO DO when you are trying to lose weight… DON’T LOOK IN THE DAMN MIRROR! HAHA… at least for me, I cannot look in the mirror HAHAHA, the more I look in the mirror, the more I want to jump off my roof. hahaha – I told Juan I was going to take down all the mirrors in the house but then how would he be able to check out his sexy bod? Right? hahaha
Number 2) Don’t take 2 cheat days a week. HAHAHAHA – just because it’s the DAMN weekend, doesn’t mean you can chow down on pizza, burgers, fries, shakes………………. (I NEVER DO THAT, NOOOOOOO). If I’m going to really get my shit together, Saturdays and Sundays count… Do I stop working on Saturdays and Sundays? NOPE, so does that mean I should stop watching my diet on the weekends? UGH but you know what, I feel like dieting is a fulltime job and it’s NICE taking a break on the weekend…. BUT we all know, it’s a no-no.
Number 3) Don’t look AT THE SCALE. I freaking look at that thing, and I’M MISERABLE… I’m SO FREAKING MISERABLE when i look at that thing and think, oh, I’ve only lost .2589359 pounds in FREAKING 3 weeks?!?! KILL ME NOW. I know, it takes time, and I talk about it a lot, but holy shit… I STOPPED looking at the scale because I just get miserable and think, oh, I can’t do it, yada yada yada…. it’s the worst mind F you’ve ever had…
Number 4) Don’t get rid of carbs…!!!!?!?!?!?!!? DUDE, do you want to become the biggest bitch in the world? if you said yes, then take away carbs HAHAHA.. if you said No… please DON’T get rid of the damn carbs. Yeah, bad carbs, get rid of those – get rid of the grains/potatoes all that crap – I’m not saying you should keep eating french fries, because they are carbs and you need to keep eating them HAHAHA (although……… french fries are great, RIGHT?) no, I’m talking about the good carbs from veggies/fruits/quinoa… those types of carbs… keep that crap ok!
Number 5) Don’t get a spray tan. I know this has NOTHING to do with working out, but I got a spray tan yesterday and I look very unnatural.. so I wanted to throw that in there HAHA.
Number 6) Don’t compare yourself to someone else losing weight… Everyone loses weight differently. For me, it takes 10x longer than others… Like my friend Ashley, she is DOING AMAZING losing weight… she looks FAB. and I wish I could lose it as fast as her, but you know what, we are different, she’s more disciplined, and seems to be able to lose it quicker… and that’s ok – the best thing I can do is support her and push her, but for me, I can’t compare my weight loss to hers because again, I just get discouraged… I can’t think, well, Ashely is getting smaller, faster, why aren’t i????
Number 7) DONT DRINK EVERYDAY…. ok – listen – I used to be a booze hound, but you can’t anymore… YOU JUST CAN’T – PUT DOWN THE VINO AND GET ON THE TREADMILL IM TELLING YA! That shit will catch up – sure, enjoy yourself every once and a while, but I’m learning, and the hard way… you won’t reach your goals if you are throwing down every night… or EVEN every weekend – keep it simple, keep to spanish red wine if you MUST drink… (and also maybe talk to someone? hahaha) I’m telling you, the minute you put down the booze, you will see a drop, and fast…
Ok that’s it for now, there are so many more but I’m not going to bore you. I have engagement photos this weekend, I’m going to look like an oompa loompa but it’s ok – it should still be amazing!!!!!
One last note…. I got my first “Did Not Finish” last night in our CrossFit workout…. the workout is below, it was basically hell – and the deadlift weight…… well yeah, since I’m 200lbs, I had to lift 250 pounds… talk about heart attack, and literally. I did a few lifts, had to go down in weight, and then started feeling some serious stress in my chest – feeling like I was going to have a heart attack, and I started freaking out. Every time I lifted that damn bar, i was like OWWWWW OWWWW ugh.. it sucked… I even went down to like HALF of the weight I was supposed to be doing and it hurt… eventually my coach told me to stop, that my health was more important than finishing a workout. But you know what, it’s about pride… normally I can make it through the pain, but I wanted to die…. die to the point where I couldn’t finish my workout… Do you know how bad that sucks? Yeah, sure, I burned a lot of calories, doing the first workout, but I don’t know, I have too much pride to quit on a workout and I quit yesterday… I’m getting stronger, but I’m also learning that my muscles need a break sometime and when we go hard for 5 days straight… im dead, and when I’m feeling chest pains, I need to stop.