To write or take a nap…. That is the question. I guess ill write till my eyes feel heavy and I fall asleep while writing haha. Am I the only one that falls asleep instantly in a moving vehicle? Haha
Anyways…. I can’t believe it’s almost February. Why is it that when you have a goal of losing 50 pounds by October, the months fly by but the weight doesn’t fall off? Hahaha. I feel like my friends are getting pissed because all I talk about now, all I tweet about, all I Facebook about is working out, eating, and bitching about how hard all of this is hahaha. I mean seriously though, this has consumed me. This is now my life. Getting myself right and trying to hit this goal by October is now my freaking life. I don’t have time to go out, and I’ve been choosing the gym over free time. A lot of that though is due to my job and commute to work, but that’s going to be changed in a little while.
You know I’ve really realized that losing weight is almost another full time job. You are ALWAYS thinking about what your eating, scheduling meetings with the gym haha, planning meals, prepping meals, all that crap. It’s a freaking full time job. How does anyone have time for this?!? Oh wait, just gotta be a millionaire and we are good to go…….. That’s all. Easy enough right?
I’m nervous about not hitting my goals too. I love food. And I’m working hard on making sure I’m not eating shit but at the end of the day my head just tells me as long as you got a workout in you are ok. But that’s not right. By the way, this dude got on the train and totally sat with me and stole the arm rest. Really dude?!? How rude! Maybe I should get close and smell him up with my gym stank and ill get my arm rest back!
I will say though, this weekend when I was taking pics with my friends at the gyms bc they were wearing my shirts, I actually was happy about how I was looking and i wasn’t like, hey I need to crop out my chin, or put an Instagram filter on so I look better…. No I was actually like, hey, I’m gonna post this right now. And that was a great feeling, a feeling that made me want to not give up, to keep going on thru this misery hahaha.
UMM HAVE YOU SEEN THIS APP BY THE WAY? This website… It’s called Model My Diet… It’s neat, it’s clearly not accurate, because I LOOK WAY WORSE at my current weight, there are rolls, I would NEVER wear a 2 piece, and I am not flat around my belly HAHAHA… So clearly, that’s not what I look like, but def on the right is what I want to look like??? Could it happen??? Who knows, but go there and check it out!
Also, I have been working on going completely gluten free – so I found this article,
8 Slimming Gluten-Free Comfort Foods – Click on the photo to go to the recipe!